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Breakthrough 2023-12-17
Why shouldnt I just kill myself? 2023-12-17
Questioning my diagnosis 2023-12-17
How is it so hard to not want to be judged 2023-12-17
Struggling to live with parents in a dysfunctional marriage 2023-12-17
I don't know how to *feel* 2023-12-17
I feel alienated from this world and from any person. It makes me feel really lonely. Nothing is worth an investment, as we all will return to dust. 2023-12-17
Struggling with depersonalization. 2023-12-16
(TW for sh) I\031m moving out to live with my partner, but I\031m feeling terrible about it 2023-12-17
Faking Disorders Anxiety/Rant 2023-12-17
Personal question about domestic violence and mental illness in relationships 2023-12-17
Help.. It's unbearable (OCD) 2023-12-17
I have been gas lit into psychosis. I need advice please 2023-12-17
What do I do? 2023-12-17
I\031m a horrible person. 2023-12-17
I think I just cheated on my gf 2023-12-17
A Message To Everybody, And Support/Encouragement d\017 2023-12-17
Risperidone Wiithdrawal symptoms have lasted a year 2023-12-17
Idk what to name this any help or advice appreciated 2023-12-17
What is everyone's one song that helps you through a tough day 2023-12-16
Anyone up for a call? 2023-12-17
Describe this person? 2023-12-17
I need help to stop overthinking everything 2023-12-17
How to deal with anxiety when family has covid and 3 are high risk including myself? 2023-12-17
i think im feeling too much anxiety 2023-12-17
Why do I have such a strong desire to hurt animals? 2023-12-17
i think my scars are gross. 2023-12-16
I need help 2023-12-17
is it normal to not feel anything? 2023-12-17
I'm not sure if I'm myself anymore 2023-12-16
I feel like I will end up disabled 2023-12-17
I feel like a failure& 2023-12-17
Tired of being lonely 2023-12-16
Tired and Barely Holding On 2023-12-17
Don\031t know what to do now 2023-12-17
Rant on the subjectivity of Diagnoses 2023-12-16
What is wrong with me i cannot figure it out and it is getting bad 2023-12-17
Im planning it now 2023-12-17
Suffering Silently 2023-12-16
Don\031t know how the hell I got like this 2023-12-17
God hates me. 2023-12-16
Why is trying to stay positive a constant struggle. 2023-12-17
Think my meds are severely dehydrating me Does anyone experience this? 2023-12-17
comment something you need to hear from your mum/dad rn 2023-12-16
Help dealing with BPD 2023-12-16
How do I stop letting overthinking/anxiety control my actions? 2023-12-16
Boundaries and Manipulation 2023-12-16
If there is one thing you need help with your mental health right now, what would it be? 2023-12-16
I need to gain weight any advice??? 2023-12-17
I feel like I\031ve been deluding myself into thinking I\031m good enough 2023-12-16
Going through a lot lately 2023-12-17
I think I have schizophrenia 2023-12-16
I had a manic episode and ran off my friends 2023-12-16
I hope I will find purpuse 2023-12-17
What to do when you truly miss someone you can't ever have in this life? 2023-12-17
I am so sorry&again! 2023-12-16
What am I supposed to do? 2023-12-16
I am going to speak to a doctor about my mental health on Monday. Something I should have done 20 years ago. What can I expect? 2023-12-16
I have suppressed my mental health for so long and now everything feels likes it's blowing up 2023-12-17
Ending it soon 2023-12-16
posted a picture of me without my permission 2023-12-17
Mom's worried about me 2023-12-16
Disorders related to obsessive ritualistic cleaning? 2023-12-16
It is possible to be depressed since birth? 2023-12-16
idk what to do (pt2) 2023-12-16
I thought I was getting better TW: SI 2023-12-16
I'm still depressed on vacation (sorry if I used the wrong tag, don't know how to work reddit) 2023-12-17
What do I do if my memory is getting much worse? 2023-12-16
Can\031t forgive myself 2023-12-17
can\031t stop thinking about my ADHD assessment and could really use some insight 2023-12-17
I am in need of friends and i want a lover 2023-12-16
How can I get calories off my mind? 2023-12-16
Welp...that was NUTS 2023-12-16
Is there any research or even acknowledgment of \030four culture kid\031 in literature or scientific knowledge? 2023-12-16
How can I move past my brother\031s suicide attempts 2023-12-16
How to get a diagnosis? 2023-12-16
this is both the worst and best month of my life. 2023-12-16
I am completely unbothered by basically everything 2023-12-16
Brothers indecent exposure 20 years ago 2023-12-16
Panic attacks when in public 2023-12-16
Bowel/stomach issues day after a bad day 2023-12-16
Father is struggling with depression. Need advice 2023-12-16
39, make, UK 2023-12-16
How to get less jealous? 2023-12-16
I can't force myself to do anything... 2023-12-16
Having an anxiety attack rn 2023-12-16
Bro I have literally dont have a single friend. Literally I never get any texts or asked to hangout. 2023-12-16
suicide hotline opinion 2023-12-16
How to lower stress 2023-12-16
How to take a break 2023-12-16
Why do I get a ton of energy right before a depressive episode? 2023-12-16
How to forget 2023-12-16
I just need to vent about a friend 2023-12-16
I feel like I'm split and I don't know how to handle it. 2023-12-16
Love for men? 2023-12-16
Just need a rant about life 2023-12-16
I think I\031m being stalked for the past 1 year to point it affecting my mental health 2023-12-16
I am very scared of things that could happen& 2023-12-16
Calling highly sensitive people! 2023-12-16
Was this a panick attack 2023-12-16
Gf is having acute delirious puff. I'm worried, deeply sad and helpless 2023-12-17
Yesterday I had probably the worst day of my life 2023-12-17
Struggling 2023-12-17
My situation 2023-12-17
Medication and protein 2023-12-17
Can you tell a therapist about ideations? 2023-12-17
are there actually people who enjoy being alive..? 2023-12-17
I either think about going back 10 years in time or death. 2023-12-17
Obsessions related to gender equality 2023-12-17
I feel so drained 2023-12-17
Supporting a friend through an ED 2023-12-17
Why do I want to be mentally I\031ll 2023-12-17
I was almost murdered by someone at my old job. I wish they succeeded 2023-12-17
Nightly nightmares 2023-12-17
is this okay or should i check better? 2023-12-17
I am really confused of myself 2023-12-17
Panic attack in an English exam during exam conditions (UK) 2023-12-17
Your examples of how psychotherapy has helped or not helped :confused: 2023-12-17
How can I help my sister feel better? 2023-12-17
How do i get over anxious attachment 2023-12-17
Why am I always in a rush? 2023-12-17
How do I cry and let out my built up stress/emotions? 2023-12-17
Why do men struggle to open up about certain issues? (Family etc) 2023-12-17
Trying to rebuild my house after a storm 2023-12-17
Reality Vs Imagination 2023-12-17
Why can\031t I have the arguments I imagine? 2023-12-17
I think I might be a sociopath but it's fine it's not really my problem 2023-12-17
Self-worth quandary 2023-12-17
Why Do I feel flat and depressed after achieving a goal? 2023-12-17
Someone able to chat? 2023-12-17
I put a knife to my throat 2023-12-17
I feel like im losing my faith in humanity and it hurts. 2023-12-17
my dog just died in his sleep and idk what to do 2023-12-16
My girlfriends weird cousin 2023-12-17
Really want to get better 2023-12-17
It's happening again 2023-12-17
Flatshare situation is affecting my mental health. What shoudl I do? 2023-12-17
Should I tell my therapist why I want to end sessions with him? 2023-12-17
I daydream too hard 2023-12-17
I'm hopeless and confused 2023-12-17
dpdr triggers, pls help 2023-12-17
I need someone to talk to 2023-12-16
I have a huge urge to argue with people 2023-12-16
I base my self worth/happiness on amount of friends i have or people texting or chasing me. How do i stop hating my self? 2023-12-17
how to deal with hopelessness 2023-12-17
got my first loan from the bank and now i feel trapped 2023-12-17
Is a \034there\031s worst things in the world\035 mentality good? 2023-12-17
My boyfriend dumped me because of my mental health issues, and I can't help thinking it's all my fault 2023-12-16
Why is it so hard to find childfree men who are ok with a career oriented woman who wants to be a pilot? It feels like I\031ll never find true love. Am I doomed? 2023-12-17
Needing Advice 2023-12-17
Embarrassed to be a American 2023-12-17
Depersonalization after weed 18M 2023-12-17
Having a breakdown because of my college grade and i dont know what to do 2023-12-17
In my 30s, still influenced by peers? Why? 2023-12-17
I worry about being a good person 2023-12-17
Im starting to wonder if im a narcissist. 2023-12-17
AITA for what I did? 2023-12-17
Hopefully you'll find interest. 2023-12-17
I major in Pharmacy and I have a girlfriend. My psychologist told me that bc of those things, it's very unlikely I have autism or OCD. Thoughts? 2023-12-16
Sometimes you don\031t know who you really have until later 2023-12-17
I wish I could tell my parents:( 2023-12-17
I wanna withdraw from my course but parents won't let me 2023-12-17
Advice needed 2023-12-17
My mother makes me suicidal 2023-12-17
I don\031t understand what\031s wrong with me 2023-12-17
Mental issues as a programmer 2023-12-17
I've finally turned into a machine 2023-12-17
I can't do this for that much longer. I can't wait 3+ more years. 2023-12-17
how to heal from psychological abuse? 2023-12-17
I Genuinely think I may be Dangerous 2023-12-17
Here's my promotional idea for improving people's mental health with journaling. 2023-12-17
been posting a lot about my experience with a narcissist because i desperately need validation and other people\031s thoughts so i\031m just gonna post some shit i wrote in my notebook, just writing down how i\031m feeling 2023-12-17
When does it get better? 2023-12-17
Not pretty enough 2023-12-17
I don't know how to ask for help. 2023-12-17
I can\031t stop hating myself for being short 2023-12-17
I don't know what's going on 2023-12-17
I don't want to speak too soon... But.... 2023-12-17
Constant pain 2023-12-17
Dealing with Rumination while focusing on tasks? 2023-12-17
I moved and it feels like the person I was and the person I am now are in a cage match 2023-12-17
I\031m drowning 2023-12-17
How do I stop the intrusive thoughts 2023-12-17
Idk what\031s wrong w me 2023-12-17
My Mother just threatened to kick me out because I don\031t have Schizophrenia and my siblings are with her 2023-12-17
Mentally and physically exhausted 2023-12-17
What is wrong with me? 2023-12-17
Why do my intrusive thoughts feel like they\031re screaming at me and why does my head feel like it\031s getting squeezed to the point of being crushed? 2023-12-17
Just lost a 4th relative to suicide 2023-12-17
I think I may have ADHD but don't know what to do. 2023-12-17
having a hard time in college and would love some insight 2023-12-17
How do you deal with feeling like youre never enough? 2023-12-17
I accepted who I am 2023-12-16
How to know if the psychiatrist is good? 2023-12-17
Obsession with thinking that I will run out of things to say and do 2023-12-17
How do you deal with thinking about how much more life you have left to live? 2023-12-17
Life feels so pointless 2023-12-17
I\031m emotionally detached to a lot things 2023-12-17
I don\031t know what to put for this fucking title 2023-12-17
Endings, I hate this word.... 2023-12-17
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Why am I constanly thinking about cutting myself 2023-12-18
If you went to a mental health facility, what was your experience like when you went back to regular life? 2023-12-18
When I\031m stressed please read 2023-12-18
I'm afraid of online culture ruining my life. 2023-12-18
I hate my life and i can't take it anymore 2023-12-18
How to help a friend who\031s developing hallucinations? 2023-12-18
Feeling desparate about studying 2023-12-18
Is the occasional use of cocaine worse for your health than the occasional use of alcohol? 2023-12-17
i tried to end my life yesterday 2023-12-18
I am prescribed Suboxone & Clonazepam 2023-12-18
Short survey on the relationship between overcontrolled personality and vulnerable narcissism (moderator approved) 2023-12-18
Any book recommendations for older immigrants who don't take mental health seriously? 2023-12-18
why do I keep feeling like this? 2023-12-18
is it possible to be aware you\031re in psychosis? 2023-12-18
Should I have done group therapy program? 2023-12-18
I'm over 30 with no career, and I feel like an incredible loser 2023-12-17
What can cause loss memory ? 2023-12-18
How to get rid of loneliness? 2023-12-18
Feeling low and started to see stuff. 2023-12-18
I feel so emotionally constipated. 2023-12-18
Need Help finding myself again 2023-12-18
My sister has a problem and I don't know what it is 2023-12-18
Why is everything so loud 2023-12-18
Seasonal depression hitting hard 2023-12-18
Is There Something About You, Your Behavior, Or Life That You Struggle With? 2023-12-18
am i crazy? 2023-12-18
Anxiety, Panic, fear? Can someone realte to this :)? 2023-12-18
I'm scared I'm dying 2023-12-18
There is something I need to get off my chest but I'm scared if I text it out, I'll jinx myself and bad things will happen with what I'm concerned about 2023-12-18
Not Crying when experiencing death. 2023-12-18
How do you force yourself to do things? 2023-12-18
Help me please! 2023-12-18
It\031s been 2 months since I\031ve seen a friend 2023-12-18
Tech Paranoia and Thought Broadcasting is Torturing Me 2023-12-18
Graduating on tuesday, but Im not happy. 2023-12-18
Question on my anixtey 2023-12-18
I don\031t know what to do 2023-12-18
i need some advice. 2023-12-18
Sometimes I don't feel like a "real" human 2023-12-18
I have friends but they never text me or ask me to hangout. 2023-12-17
Vent?? / Panic attacks, sleep deprivation & low feelings 2023-12-18
Loving God isn't supposed to feel like this 2023-12-18
U should always assume someone has it worse than u 2023-12-18
Oh god.. The voices are back. 2023-12-18
Hearing voices 2023-12-18
Is it normal to fixate on an imaginary fantasy world you created for years? 2023-12-18
I\031m hoping for help understanding my diagnosis 2023-12-18
i never wanna leave my house again 2023-12-18
Talk to me 2023-12-17
I think my mom is the root of my anxiety.. 2023-12-18
Mental Breakdown? 2023-12-17
COMMON MENTAL HEALTH MISCONCEPTIONS 2023-12-18
I feel emotions too strongly. How do I let them out without hurting myself? 2023-12-18
Please just tell me that it gets better. I'm on the verge of having a mental breakdown. 2023-12-18
For those who feel like they have no point in life& 2023-12-18
How do you heal your inner child without therapy? 2023-12-17
can i refuse partial hospitalization at 17? 2023-12-18
I'm starting to hear things 2023-12-18
What is the best and cheapest way to get diagnosed? 2023-12-18
Why do people not like me? 2023-12-18
How can I be happy around people 2023-12-18
im losing grasp over reality 2023-12-18
I waited too long 2023-12-18
I have an unhealthy obsessions with someone and I don't know what to do 2023-12-18
idk whats wrong with me 2023-12-18
ADHD-induced fatigue, depression-induced fatigue,medication-induced fatigue or another medical condition? 2023-12-18
Am I losing it, despite being completely aware? 2023-12-18
Job seeking 2023-12-18
Just realized I'm self-harming 2023-12-18
Why can\031t I love myself 2023-12-18
Alone on Birthday 2023-12-18
Lifting Weights Has Made Me Into a Completely Different Person 2023-12-18
Genuinely ugly coupled with bodily medical issues 2023-12-18
Are You Familiar With The Lines Project? 2023-12-18
Why do I "miss" the awful dread I went through for years? 2023-12-17
Work is Suffering 2023-12-18
Why would a parent refuse to take a child to therapy? 2023-12-17
Can you get evaluated anonymously? 2023-12-18
TW- i think about suicide every single day, i am afraid i might do it. 2023-12-18
I\031m just lost 2023-12-18
i\031m genuinely mentally unwell, i thought i was acting but i don\031t know how to be normal 2023-12-18
Why does Commitment makes me feels like throwing up? 2023-12-18
i feel alone 2023-12-17
I feel I'm loosing control of my life 2023-12-18
I can\031t live like this anymore 2023-12-17
My shitty mental health has relapsed, need some advice 2023-12-18
I never knew that to relax I was going to have to tell myself to do it on purpose. 2023-12-17
My mind is hurting and lost 2023-12-18
Is there a name for feeling like nothing? 2023-12-18
My best friend is going off the rails, how do I be supportive? 2023-12-18
Thoughts that make me depressed. (But I don\031t want to be) 2023-12-18
Trying to get over a break up. 2023-12-18
Suicide Hotline too busy 2023-12-18
I can't live my life anymore 2023-12-17
How Boxing Defense Training Can Help Overcome fear and Anxiety 2023-12-18
Traveling with Mental Health 2023-12-18
the one time i tried to get help. 2023-12-18
Tomorrow is the day I disappear - Canada 2023-12-18
Does bipolar disorder make it harder to get over breakups? 2023-12-18
Is ok if I want to leave home because my brother is mentally ill? 2023-12-17
Could someone help me understand my emotional situation? 2023-12-19
How do I tell my parents abt my SA? 2023-12-18
Feeling a bit of brain fog and can\031t think with clarity? 2023-12-19
Neighbor in Need 2023-12-18
I keep forgetting mental lessons and making the same mistakes 2023-12-19
Christmas Time 2023-12-19
K health question about Wellbutrin and Lexapro 2023-12-18
UK law in possession 2023-12-18
I (39M) and mother (76F) get along well for short periods of times. But she always does things that bother me and I tell her and she gets very sad.... 2023-12-18
IDK how to say this 2023-12-18
Are my expectations unrealistic? 2023-12-18
Was this a panic attack? 2023-12-18
overwhelming urges 2023-12-18
How can I stop envying professional athletes? 2023-12-18
I\031m having family problems and my mental health is deteriorating. 2023-12-18
Random aggression 2023-12-19
How to deal with the grief of a family member dying and their killer getting a light sentence? 2023-12-18
Anxiety has been eating me and obstructing my education- what can I do? 2023-12-19
Why do I get cold when my anxiety is high? 2023-12-18
I don\031t know how to relax 2023-12-18
I have been feeling horrable mentaly 16m 2023-12-19
please help me 2023-12-19
Why is my post not posting? 2023-12-19
Can multivitamins help with mental health? 2023-12-18
My partner just broke up with me and I\031m worried it\031s my fault. 2023-12-18
I need help, or advice 2023-12-19
I want my friend back. 2023-12-19
Why is self harm a bad thing? 2023-12-18
DAE wish they would get severely injured and end up in hospital? 2023-12-19
I need basic mental health advice 2023-12-19
Feel so numb I\031m scared I can\031t feel guilt anymore 2023-12-18
how do i get admitted into the mental hospital as a minor 2023-12-18
Irrationally angry after years of loss. 2023-12-18
Why does my dad hates everyone for no reason. 2023-12-18
In the trenches for the holiday 2023-12-18
I learned to speak like others are dumb and now I'm a 4.0 in college. Ask me anything! 2023-12-18
Pls help me 2023-12-18
I'm a reformed stalker. The man who I used to stalk feels sympathy for me. Why? 2023-12-18
Do people generally get zero comments on these mental health Reddits keeps happening to me 2023-12-18
Things That Have Helped My Own Mental Health 2023-12-18
OCD or something else? Setting myself up, repetitive behavior and loss of control 2023-12-18
I don't know why people are treating me like this! 2023-12-18
How can I recover from being toxic to others from my self hate? 2023-12-18
Hey peeps!!! 2023-12-18
Best free self-hypnosis app in place of therapy? 2023-12-18
Mood stabilisers 2023-12-18
Why do I always guilty 2023-12-18
How do I show my emotions better? Nobody knows how much I\031m struggling 2023-12-18
I feel disconnected 2023-12-18
Not happy in life 2023-12-18
For anyone who needs to read this 2023-12-18
Depression Question about meanness 2023-12-18
another vent 2023-12-18
How do you deal with extreme envy? 2023-12-18
Is it normal to dislike it when others are kind to you? 2023-12-18
Relationship Failures and Low Self-Esteem and Suicide 2023-12-18
Hello, Im Hamza, i think i can help a lot of people, i did some really bad stuff before, drugs, alcohol, self harm, cutting... toxic exes everything pretty much, please if you need help feel free to talk to me, dm me, leave a comment I'll respond very fast, please. 2023-12-18
How do I not let people hurt my feelings so easily 2023-12-18
My experience in a mental hospital 2023-12-18
Help me choose major! 2023-12-18
getting bullied at work i think? 2023-12-18
College and Grades 2023-12-18
(TW: mentions of death) I feel alone and unable to get the help I need. 2023-12-18
Anxious for no reason 2023-12-18
intrusive thoughts, lack of meaning and purpose in life 2023-12-18
Random bursts of good mood? 2023-12-18
Deep ulterior motive guiding my actions 2023-12-18
I thought I was fucked up TW DEATH/ DYING 2023-12-18
I need advice 2023-12-18
God Wants me to be evil so I\031ll be evil 2023-12-18
Floating words when blinking 2023-12-18
Weight loss on while on medication 2023-12-18
I want to self harm but i know it\031s not helpful 2023-12-18
I used to be so brave 2023-12-18
Holidays feel like a hault to healing process. 2023-12-18
Has anyone here ever gotten past self hatred? If so how? 2023-12-18
I'm having trouble dealing with embarrassment 2023-12-18
My girlfriend is c*tting herself! 2023-12-18
Is it normal to get anxious at night? 2023-12-18
My meds make me feel awful and I hate it 2023-12-18
Loneliness 2023-12-18
I have a person living inside my mind, but he doesn't try to take control of my body: is it still DID? 2023-12-18
Is there any way outta this? 2023-12-18
Hard to do anything.. 2023-12-18
How to cope with injustices? 2023-12-18
Losing Grip on Reality 2023-12-18
The worst part of mental illness is telling loved ones what you're contemplating 2023-12-18
Life update: It's been three months since she dumped me and I still feel so lost. 2023-12-18
How to bring my Technical Thinking Back to a more Regular, Lehmans Level. 2023-12-18
Don't know what else to do 2023-12-18
Sometimes, I feel like an antagonist in this world (rant) 2023-12-18
Navigating Mental Health: What Strategies Do Health Specialists Recommend for Well-Being? 2023-12-18
Dismissive Parents 2023-12-18
Tear up in certain moments. 2023-12-18
how do i go about getting help 2023-12-18
I don\031t know how to help my boyfriend& 2023-12-18
How do I stop being so pessimistic? 2023-12-18
I need some validation. 2023-12-18
Am I a Narcissist? 2023-12-18
How do I go about explaining to close friends about my PTSD? 2023-12-18
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Something very concerning happened to me last night 2023-12-19
Should I seek help? How? 2023-12-19
Trying to get out of a bad situation 2023-12-19
My [21F] older sister [24F] is my only friend. She's going to move abroad in a few days and it fills me with immense anxiety. 2023-12-19
self sabotage for no reason? 2023-12-19
What I'm going through 2023-12-19
I just feel ignored 2023-12-19
is it bad that im 14 and im using drugs and that im a prostitute? i cant get out 2023-12-19
It\031s gotten harder to tell apart what\031s real and what isn\031t 2023-12-19
Will i ever be able to love? 2023-12-19
i pick at my skin as a form of sh so when my skin gets worse near my period it actually makes me break my sh free streak idk what to do 2023-12-19
My friends left me and I don\031t know where to find new ones. 2023-12-19
Is it "odd" to address childhood trauma after 30 years? 2023-12-19
I think I\031m dying but no one takes me seriously because of my mental illness 16F 2023-12-18
Random thoughts of family passing away 2023-12-19
Need help with intrusive thoughts 2023-12-19
988 website 2023-12-19
it\031s my birthday and so many friends forgot 2023-12-19
I have a deep, and horrible self loathing that I can mask really well, until I can\031t. 2023-12-19
ive been feeling constantly sad for almost 2 days, whats going on? 2023-12-19
I can't imagine her with another man. Not able to accept one day she'll move on. 2023-12-19
Get angry, get focused, and learn to love yourself most of all. 2023-12-19
why do i feel euphoric? 2023-12-19
I'm getting violent thoughts and I don't know how to tell anyone. 2023-12-19
Anxiety coping mechanisms 2023-12-19
Brother needs help, what should I do? 2023-12-19
I am in the Army..... 2023-12-19
It's been 4 months since I started at my new school and I can't for the life of me get friends 2023-12-19
Feel like I\031m living someone else\031s life 2023-12-19
Im worried about my friend 2023-12-19
Anyone else here who suffers from Trichotillomania? 2023-12-19
venting but also would like some advice >z 2023-12-19
Depression, I guess 2023-12-19
Would a 4 day work week improve your mental health? 2023-12-18
A 'lil rant (first time so don't judge) 2023-12-19
Help me understand 2023-12-19
how do I know if it's not normal? Or just how in general to navigate this 2023-12-19
Do I have to worry about telling my therapist that I\031m a bit suicidal 2023-12-19
Nobody cares 2023-12-19
Can't go to social events 2023-12-19
I feel awful ghosting my parents 2023-12-19
How do I deal with a challenging situation 2023-12-19
I have been feeling this way for a long time. 2023-12-19
My habits never truly turn into habits. They are always a conscious effort, never becoming automatic or second nature 2023-12-19
How do I help myself (australia) 2023-12-19
I don't know why I'm like this 2023-12-19
Can substances induce week-long "psychosis"? My experience and your opinion 2023-12-19
I think I might be bipolar 2023-12-19
Just had a major family crisis... 2023-12-19
Age related stuff 2023-12-19
How can I find out if i have any mental health issues 2023-12-19
Who also needs a little glass of something to chill? 2023-12-19
I got full lapis armor without repeats 2023-12-19
One comment has absolutely destroyed my self esteem 2023-12-19
am i getting dementia? 2023-12-19
Lack of new information on interests is leaving me lost 2023-12-19
Is it wrong of me to feel 'trauma' after brother's attempt? 2023-12-18
I don't know what is wrong with me 2023-12-19
IT GOT BETTER Y'ALL 2023-12-18
My parents are being abused by my mentally ill sister 2023-12-19
My boyfriend doesn't have emotions anymore. 2023-12-19
i feel so fat with my family (19F) 2023-12-19
Violent in my sleep 2023-12-19
Shoot. Sorry. Posting again. 2023-12-19
Sometimes I want to disappear. 2023-12-19
I am exhausted 2023-12-19
Paranoia struggles 2023-12-19
Discouraged 2023-12-19
Doubting my memory or conversation just had three months ago. Keep replaying to check if he really said that. 2023-12-19
My therapist wants to see me once every week for video sessions but I don\031t know my life still is the same one year later? 2023-12-19
I want to know if I've crossed the line 2023-12-19
SSRI\031s and Anxiety 2023-12-19
What is wrong with my brain yo 2023-12-19
Not sure what this is? 2023-12-19
How long do I wait for my mum to stop being emotionally abusive before I cut her off? 2023-12-19
[TW mention of NSFW/SH/sewerslide things] 2023-12-19
I\031d Rather be pissed off than sad 2023-12-19
I think I\031ve always had weird sensory issues 2023-12-18
i feel worthless and selfish at the same time 2023-12-19
idk if I should drop my class because of friends 2023-12-19
Anyone here still using the chat-hub of blahtherapy? 2023-12-19
My obnoxious boss 2023-12-19
Your an adult now... what's your next step 2023-12-19
Would I qualify to be put into a mental hospital? 2023-12-19
How do I deal with the dread of not having a professional future? 2023-12-19
Is this a hallucination, because I can\031t tell and I\031ve seen nothing to help me 2023-12-19
I feel so emotionally detached and have a huge sense of shame what do I do? 2023-12-19
It feels like I\031m going insane in my life 2023-12-19
getting expensive Christmas presents but I don\031t feel excited as I should. 2023-12-19
Ominous threats 2023-12-19
I hate how awkward I am 2023-12-19
Is my OCD playing tricks on me 2023-12-19
Is c*tting or a su1cide attempt a certain fact that allows you to say you're depressed? 2023-12-19
Taking new medicine 2023-12-19
how to deal with narcissistic sibling? 2023-12-19
Is it possible to have tactile hallucinations of experiences you\031ve never had before? 2023-12-19
I have never hated a person as much as myself 2023-12-19
Did my therapist break the law? 2023-12-19
I dont know what is wrong with me. 2023-12-19
Slept all day and have work in the a.m. 2023-12-19
Anyone to talk to? 2023-12-19
Dealing with public praise at work that I feel I do not deserve 2023-12-19
Stay clean 2023-12-19
Trauma therapy 2023-12-19
Wisiting my old notes 2023-12-19
I need some Career advice 2023-12-19
[MODERATOR APPROVED] Understanding BPD and Substance Abuse (18+) 2023-12-20
Lost internal monologue 2023-12-19
Any tips for a 22-year-old M feeling some what lost? 2023-12-20
I think im pushing my friends away subconsciously 2023-12-19
I don't know if this is a legitimate issue or not. 2023-12-20
Every day I live in extreme fear 2023-12-20
Please help, what is this? 2023-12-20
Need advices on dealing with my emotions against sisters boyfriend 2023-12-19
Is this a sign I need a break from school/work? 2023-12-20
How to care more 2023-12-20
I sincerely need advice& 2023-12-19
My eating disorder is back. 2023-12-20
How should i go back to office to face these people after a mental breakdown? 2023-12-19
Looking for help 2023-12-19
How do I start 2023-12-19
Anyone else try and forget that they never get invited to things and then here about kids your age doing things like going to parties. Im 17M and never get invited to things, no parties, not going round to someone\031s house not even playing video games 2023-12-19
A letter from a broken father 2023-12-20
Anyone gone through depersonalization 2023-12-19
i am a bad person what do i do ? 2023-12-19
help pls- idk what to do and I feel like I'm going crazy 2023-12-19
What should I do? 2023-12-20
Tricks to stop bad obsessive thoughts ? 2023-12-19
My stomach hurts when I get gifts 2023-12-19
don't know how to confront friend about self diagnosing autism 2023-12-19
Partner needs mental health help but refusing. Should I keep at it until he does? 2023-12-19
I\031m afraid of who I\031m becoming 2023-12-19
I feel vulnerable 2023-12-19
Has anyone had any similar experiences with Fluoxetine? 2023-12-19
Mental Health 2023-12-19
i feel like i\031m unravelling 2023-12-19
I'm unhappy w how my life is 2023-12-19
Med question, if anyone has experience or knows the answer.. 2023-12-19
Need help dealing with a mentally ill parent 2023-12-19
Is my life over if I have no friends, never get invited to things and have autism? 2023-12-19
Why am I uglier than everyone else? 2023-12-19
I hate working in here, I dont hate my jobs. What should I do ? 2023-12-19
California hospitals for Dopamine Disorders 2023-12-19
How do I win a war against myself? 2023-12-19
Someone who rejected me is in my friend group and it's awful 2023-12-19
My mind of solitude 2023-12-19
Bearable App 2023-12-19
Do you take Naltrexone and Welbutrin? Not necessarily for weight loss. 2023-12-19
"This whole mindset of guys can't be allowed to show their feelings is complete and utter Bullshit" 2023-12-19
I feel so horrible 2023-12-19
Showing \034too much\035 for my liking, what should I do? 2023-12-19
Irritation 2023-12-19
Transforming the Homework Hustle for ADHD-Affected Teens 2023-12-19
Help me: Perfectionist that is realizing shes not perfect 2023-12-19
I wish my sense of self worth were stronger 2023-12-19
Slight elevation to make it through. 2023-12-19
my monthly hormones destroy any good sh clean streak i have and i don\031t know what to do 2023-12-19
Please help husband pretends to stab me 2023-12-19
I can\031t ignore it 2023-12-19
Coming off Orlanzapine success story. 2023-12-19
I still feel horrible 2023-12-19
Feeling Down, Angry, Irritable 2023-12-19
Psychiatrist wants me to try Vagal stimulation. What is it? 2023-12-19
Low self esteem is ruining my life 2023-12-19
Should I be worried? 2023-12-19
How to convince people to help? 2023-12-19
What\031s a subtle sign someone is not doing well mentally? 2023-12-18
My boyfriend can\031t love me because I selfharm. 2023-12-18
Nothing is helping 2023-12-19
Is there a way to lodge a formal complaint against a psychiatrist? 2023-12-19
I hate my fucking life, how do I fix it? 2023-12-19
Afraid to share my pain 2023-12-19
I feel like a shell of a person I used to be 2023-12-19
I really heavily considering suicide 2023-12-19
how am i supposed to be kind to myself and better my self esteem and anxiety if i don\031t think i deserve it? 2023-12-19
I'm such a crybaby 2023-12-19
Is Something Wrong With Me? 2023-12-19
I have no friends and nothing to do 2023-12-19
When therapy doesn't work and everything you try to do yourself just makes everything worse what do you do 2023-12-19
Clonazepam/Klonopin Help 2023-12-19
My issues are very bizarre. 2023-12-19
My meds are sedating me, what do I do? 2023-12-19
Help me identify a behavior and put a name to it 2023-12-19
How do I release my emotions? 2023-12-19
Should I be embarrassed or get over it? 2023-12-19
Had a bit of a mental breakdown this morning screaming/trying to cut my thigh up.I\031m fine now though and feel stupid. 2023-12-19
Support from friends 2023-12-19
why do i feel like my day is ruined as soon as the tiniest thing happens? 2023-12-19
Is it normal after bad hygine because of depression a bath makes you lightheaded 2023-12-19
SSRI's and ADHD 2023-12-19
Im either physicaly decaying or insane in the membrane<\xb5 2023-12-19
HR told me they are not obligated to accommodate my ADA request 2023-12-19
Feeling Overwhelmed by Boredom 2023-12-19
Spouse admitted to inpatient, what do I do now? 2023-12-19
My mum died in front of me and I can't cope 2023-12-18
how do i help my friend? 2023-12-19
I want help but I have no way of getting it and no one in my family supports me 2023-12-19
How long will it take to get me a ADHD diagnosis? 2023-12-19
Trauma Healing Program? 2023-12-19
What can cause severe discomfort with physical and sexual intimacy? 2023-12-19
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My best friend of 11 years died in a car crash that happened last night. He was riding with one of his other friends and he was high while he was driving. My friend was in the back of the truck when it happened. This wasn\031t a collision with another car he hit a guard rail and my friend went flying out of the back of the car. He died on impact, but the paramedics were able to resuscitate him. The guy driving ran away in the woods nearby. \n\nMy friend died 3 times before they finally pulled the plug. I hate to imagine the pain he was in. Everyone around me keeps mentioning him and I can\031t handle it. We grew up together and now he\031s gone. I went to a pawnshop nearby my school while i was waiting for my brother and i met the dad of one of my friends who was also really close to my friend who died. We talked for about 90 minutes before I left. The only good part about today is that I know I\031m not the only person who cared about him. 2023-12-20
He works 14 hours a day at the pharmacy and honestly his job sucks cuz when they were hiring him they kind of screwed him over with the details causing him to get half of what is other co-workers get\n\nAnd the most thing that hurts about this job is that the pharmacy he works in is one of the few pharmacies that supply some special drugs and medicine it's like they are always busy it's always the rush hour in his job, he says that it's a nightmare to even try to go to the bathroom.....\nCuz the waiting people will pile up and be loud and cursing and shouting until he comes back\n\n\nAnd some people just love to dump their trauma and venom and those bad feelings ,everything negative that they have in their soul ,just dump it on these poor helpless workers that wish for the minimum wage getting the minimum wage for them what kind of be a raise.....\n\nNow that I'm actually writing this I'm at the verge of tears cuz I see him as a man that honestly works real hard and doesn't have anything specific going on in his life he's just going to work and coming home, back and forth...\n\nONE NIGHT WE WERE OUT JUST DRIVING AND WATCHING THE CITY... As I was talking to him I realized that every time that he talks about his job he kind of doesn't finish his sentences like he starts the topic but when he senses himself going to the details he kind of pulls back and let's go off the conversation.\n\nBUT THIS TIME I kind of started nagging him, didn't let him cut his own conversation off I kept asking questions and kind of forcing him to talk about his feelings and how he's doing.\n\nI WAS NEVER MORE SCARED, WORRIED in my entire life\n\nEvery sentence that he said was a whole other level of problem. Every every subject that he explained to me was horrifying. When it was like what he talked about one of his problems I understood, it's not like I can fix it but I can listen and I listened to him, the second problem then the third then the fourth and before you even know it you're at the 26th problem...\n\nAnd it wasn't like he was trauma dumping on me those were real problems.\n\nWhen when he was talking about his problems I felt scared and that was solely because I relied on him he was my rock, he was my warm blanket when I come home from the cold night.\nHe mentioned unsubscribing. We both know what I'm talking about I'm just using a different word.\n\nWhen we met I was in a dark place mentally and one thing that actually pulled me out was him I was just crap on top of crap on top of crap and my parents disappointment as a cherry on top.\n\nHe's always smiling he is always happy to see me he always plays with his son and cares about us.\n\nAnd I'm scared of losing him.......\n\nNow I'm actually trying to help him and be more understanding and every time I see him with all of his stress and exhaustion I try to calm him down and letting him talk to me as much as he could as much as he wants and feels needed. He actually told me that now that he can talk about his problems he feels better.\n\nI just love him so much... 2023-12-19
I try not to do it to much but whenever I pull an all nighter my incessant interior monologue stops almost entirely. I don\031t know if it\031s related to that but if I am severely sleep deprived I am much better at socializing and doing writing, math, studying etc. I feel like the opposite should be true but time after time I feel these exact effects. Does anyone have an explanation? I also have severe depression if that is relevant. 2023-12-19
I feel almost guilty that I\031m not happy. Like my life is amazing, my parents are well off, I go to a good school, I eat well, we can afford holidays, I have amazing friends, but yet I still don\031t feel happy. Is that normal? 2023-12-19
My guess is I don't have anything to distract me from my brain like work or talking to friends or something, but it's like my brain just kinda saves it all up for right before I'm going to bed 2023-12-20
I personally always have to text first 2023-12-19
i\031m so tired. ever since i was 12 ive been \030different\031. getting told i have the mind of an adult left, right, centre. i don\031t want to be mature i want to be naive and not rot in my bed and avoid people purposely \n\ni can\031t bring myself to do it, because i know my little sister 2 years younger, also mature is struggling and needs me and i don\031t want to leave her alone in this house \n\nme and my family of 4 experienced abu5e physically emotionally financially, my mother experienced it for 16 years. he even inflicted this behaviour onto any pets we had\n\nnow my brother is turning into my father but my mum developed bipolar disorder, ptsd and others she won\031t share and she\031s a boy mum, in different terms, she sides with my brother no matter what. he\031s 19 and has been put into custody several times because of situations where he has acted out. he has spiritual psychosis and severe anger issues so he lashes out alot.\n\ntoday he slapped my arm rly hard several times after seeing my sh and calling me emo and i couldn\031t even react \n\nmy house is a mess its a shit hole, my attendance is below 50% at school causing social services to come and i don\031t want to talk to anybody anymore, everyone irritates me and i feel like no one understands me\n\ni hurt anyone that interacts w me, for example boyfriends. i always make them seem so intense and romantic in the beginning then lose that and feel anger\n\ni can\031t do anything, i can\031t shower i can\031t clean my room i can\031t leave my house and im tired of being called lazy. i just have no hope in me continuing this journey of life so why would i put effort in\n\ni sleep all day everyday to escape anything and i get ill all the time because of how stressed i get. i cry every night to sleep and relapse every other day i always regret it but i always forget that i feel regret after and proceed to do it\n\nmy mum doesn\031t care about me, only my abu5ive brother. they always talk shit about me and my sister. she judges me on everything because she thinks mental health is a myth\n\ni think it\031s because i don\031t believe in God and they\031re super religious\n\nthere\031s so much more but i can\031t write it down because i always want to talk about other things when talking about just one \n\ni just wanna be normal im so exhausted i feel a pit in my stomach every second of the day that weighs my down and i ache everywhere 2023-12-20
I love my mom, but I feel like she hates me or she thinks im an inconvenience. My father was very mentally, emotionally, and psychically (he is a crack addict) abusive towards my family and evenutally he ended up leaving the household. My brother and my mom say in contact with him but my sister and I do not. My brother is younger than me, 6 years younger, and we often fight a lot only because he is in that stage of life where he thinks im bossy when in actuality i just want the best for him and i want him to do good things. my mom interprets me being "bossy" to him as me being "mean" to him. and idk if she wants that to be me and my brothers narrative but she always tells family members that im "so mean" to him and makes it seem like its just always me who is mean making people in our family look at me like im a person with no heart. I also find that she defends and forgives my dad and my brother way more than she does me. my abusive father....she defends him and acts as though he is a friend to her knowing that man has done things to my mom, my sister and i that i can't even talking about without crying. She also babies my brother way more than she did me when i was his age. and as much as i am glad my brother does not have a traumatizing childhood like i did, i think that he needs to learn the same independence i was forced to learn in a more safer way obvi. earlier she called me "selfish and hateful" and told me it was going to "all come back to me" all because he helped me look for something she only specifically asked me to look for, mind you he knew more about what she was asking me to look for!!!! i knew nothing and she flipped out on me for him helping me but wants me to bend over backwards to help him. ATP i am fine if she hates me because i can handle being alone emotionally. i have been since i was 6. 2023-12-20
Reflecting on my life over the past 15 years, it has been a complete shit show, torn apart by depression.\n\n1. Didn't finish university.\n2. Pushed away a nice woman who loved me.\n3. Unable to hold a job = financially insecure.\n4. Depressed, downtrodden and feeling empty.\n\nI honestly sometimes wonder why I even bother continuing.\nI'm not 21 anymore. I'm 34 and I feel like my life hasn't even started.\nGod, I'm tempted. In tears right now. 2023-12-20
Wondering about that >\024 2023-12-20
Basically she said this: \030\031Idk I just keep thinking about the fact that I\031m not graduating next year and I\031m gonna have to watch all my friends walk and I\031m not going to \n\nAnd thinks just aren\031t working out how I thought they would, with my life at least\031\031\n\nI am just not sure how to respond to this. I want to support her and listen but i dunno how to respond to people venting. Thanks! 2023-12-20
Seriously& it\031s so hard to deal with this. One rude look from a stranger ? Feel bad. One look from someone who looks you up and down in an arrogant way - yay let\031s feel very bad. I can\031t help it. No thought exercise is working. \n\nOh and don\031t get me started on the internet. If I post (not here this is a throwaway) any kind of question and people are insulting me for no reason I feel so violated (I know it sounds ridiculous). \n\nHas anyone gotten over this? I\031ve had this for years. The whole they\031re the problem if they are rude thin doesn\031t work. \n\nI mentally want to crawl into a hole whenever this happens after the initial \034shock\035 where\031s off. 2023-12-19
I took a 1 and 1/2 year break from college due to my mental health after my sophomore year, and I am starting again in January. I am panicking because I am not mentally ready to start school again and I\031m afraid for my well being. I can\031t delay my start because I feel I will rot away if I go NEET for any longer. Can anyone give me some advice on what to do? Thank you in advance. 2023-12-20
I\031ve had a large degree of existential dread/existential depression for about 20 years now. It started when I was young and hasn\031t stopped. I was discussing life with a friend who shared similar existential issues with me when we were younger and they expressed that they had grown out of these feelings/thoughts. It made me wonder if that was possible for me.\nIt\031s not overly impacting my life, I\031m doing fine professionally, have a reasonable social life, romantic partner, and I\031m able to function at a good enough level. I\031ve spent a lot of time meditating, and practicing introspective to try and address the existential dread but nothing alleviates it. Does therapy help (and how) or is this just a dog that will walk by my side until the end? 2023-12-20
I'm F(21) and my bf M(21). We've been in a relationship for 9 months. And I've been asking him to just let me be me. But he just can't, like for example this morning. (BTW we're LDR we only saw each other for 3days because he visited and stayed in my province for 3days.) Again this morning I just woke up and do my usual routine which is just brushing my hair and teeth then washing my face, then just making my own cup of coffee. I don't usually use my phone unless I'm done with my routine, he knows that. But early in the morning he woke up and he just keep on telling me that I was purposely ignoring him, I didn't even saw his message, I just saw it when I finished making cup of coffee. So he called and I answered it. Then He keeps on pushing me to have a argument with him, I'm just trying to straight things out for him, but he won't listen so I keep quite. Then he turn off the and I decided to watch will drinking my coffee, then again. He said that I was purposely ignoring him, saying that I have my phone with me. Using it and I should respond to him fast. I was just trying to have a nice morning. He keep on telling me that and making me feel wrong and bad (it's feels so heavy tbh). Then I again tried to make thing's straight but he won't just bulge and accept it so I just decided to calm my self and have a cold shower, but the moment I entered the bathroom I burst into tears. I was crying hard trying prevent myself from crying loudly. I just can't take it, I know I didn't do anything wrong, and I was just crying myself out. (as I'm typing this, I'm actually in tears). Then after that, after I finished showering I just say sorry to him. Even tho I'm hurting so bad. 2023-12-20
Last week I was supposed to have a session with my therapist on Thursday the 14th. Usually she would send me a text message on the day we were going to be meeting in the morning as a little reminder, but that didn\031t happen this time. I figured that maybe she got caught up in something so I tried not to jump to conclusions. I sent her a message saying I am looking forward to meet with her, but didn\031t hear anything back. \nI ended up going to her office at the time we had scheduled. Upon arriving, her office door was locked and her car wasn\031t there. I know that life has been difficult for her lately due to her father passing away at the end of November, so I just shrugged the fact that she forgot off my shoulders and continued to do what else was on my to do list. \nThree days go by after her never responding to my text messages of me trying to get in touch with her. By that point, I started to really worry. I go to google and search up her name with \034obituary\035 after it. I was really hoping I was just overreacting, but there she was. Multiple websites with her obituary were posted. She passed away on the 13th. Just one day before we were supposed to meet. I am completely devastated and at shock. There\031s no explanation of how she died included anywhere and I don\031t feel any closure about this situation. She was only 60 years old. I feel such a weird kind of grief. 2023-12-19
For as long as I\031ve become an adult, I\031ve always been an overthinker and over analyzer. I guess throughout school, and adulthood, it\031s come to my advantage, as I am always able to basically morph into the perfect person for the given moment. Fast forward a few years and two kids later, it\031s almost as if my mental health has taken a major toll. But because of my perfectionism, and ability to see it as, just another challenge, and never was a big of an issue for me. Plus I felt that I had more important things to worry About (not to mention I felt that my mental health issues weren\031t as bad as my husbands, who had sea PTSD and other issues from military times). \n\nFast forward to now, we\031re on vacation, and I\031ve been having one of those moments where things just bleed over into the physical realm, and once we start talking about those feelings and emotions, it\031s almost like opening up a can of worms. My husband and I have had this talk multiple times where I need to learn how to talk things through, or let him know when things are bothering me, but for whatever reason I just don\031t. \n\nin a nutshell, I just came back from a business trip for a week, every weekend has been filled with watching the kids, then go back to work during the week, and then either the weekend was when my husband was out doing his hobbies or we had friends over - which is fine because of the time of the year - but I haven\031t had a moment to myself. Then comes planning this whole vacation, where I can\031t simply just pick a place and be OK with it. I have to go into the nitty-gritty details, look at the reviews, compare prices, location, etc. Basically most likely overdoing it. \n\nNow that we\031re on vacation, since I\031ve been back early December from my business trip, my husband and I haven\031t had a chance to be together, or be intimate, plus he\031s the type where he has physical needs, but my type of intimacy is more of a connection more so over physically connecting. So I guess you can say, I\031ve just felt really disconnected since, and now we\031re on vacation, had this whole argument because I\031m just not being myself, and I feel like I messed everything up. I hate that I\031m like this. Without the need of knowing, planning, going into crazy details, I don\031t feel at ease. Not to mention, when things don\031t go as planned, I feel \034off\035\n\nWtf is wrong with me.\n\nI know I need to be more open, with communication, and my feelings, and to seek help whenever needed, but I just don\031t. Until it\031s too late, like today 2023-12-20
Since I was in 5th grade, I've had the fear that I am actually a hallucination and that I am sitting alone in a psych ward somewhere pretending to go through a routine. Even as I'm typing this out, I am worried I am sitting at some blank white table tapping on nothing as if its a keyboard. \n\nFor a while, I managed to forget this enough that I only thought about it maybe once a month. But for the past week it's been all that's on my mind to the point it is difficult to feel real or interact with people because I feel like that would be feeding into the hallucinations. I also briefly began to worry that everyone is real, but is not human. I would look at people and see them, but in my mind see a monstrous version of them.\n\nI just wanted to come on here and ask if anyone has experienced anything similar or knows what this is called so I can do some research/see someone about it! 2023-12-20
I\031ve been depressed for as long as I can remember. Anxious for longer. I moved to a new state earlier this year, got a new doctor, and it was&.ok. He put me on some basic medications but I felt like it didn\031t work. He swapped my medicine around and it didn\031t work. I begged him to do something for sleep because of the constant, reoccurring nightmares and flashbacks. Inability to sleep, night sweats, racing thoughts. He told me I was too young so he just upped my antidepressant. \n\nI reached out to my psych clinic where I usually go for therapy and was able to get set up to see a doctor about my medication. I explained all of my issues. Ruminating, anxiety, panic attacks, nausea and vomiting, paranoia, hyper vigilance& I told him about my experiences with medicine, I gave him my history& and he listened. Immediately started working through different medications, asking me questions to get a better idea of my problems. He was so kind, and kept clarifying that whatever happened it was my choice. He was so sweet and listened while I stuttered and hiccuped through explanations. And I FINALLY got my medication switched. He is specifically targeting the anxiety and lack of sleep. I felt like I could just cry when he said that. I have been exhausted for so so long. But now I\031m on the right track and I hope things continue to go up from here. I\031m waiting to pick it up from the pharmacy, but I just feel so accomplished right now. 2023-12-19
Hello, I don't know what is wrong with me. I feel like the days passes and nothing happens. I have no motivation but I do keep studying because i just always been told i have to. I feel alone even though i have good friends. I cry sometimes when i go to sleep. Ive been kind of like this for three years now but these past months its been worse. I feel like I have everything you could ask for, like family and friends and ive always had food and everything like that. I have kind of talked about it with my best friend but only when drunk. I don't want to talk about it with my parents or siblings I don't want to go to the psychologist or anything like that. I don't know what to do. Im starting to dislike people. Im starting to not enjoy going out that i usually did, now the only way i have fun is getting really wasted. I want to feel loved. I don't know why im posting i dont want compassion or people saying it will get better. i just want to know if its depresion because chatgpt doesn't know very well. english not first language 2023-12-20
Ever since I was a kid I've never been naturally good at anything. I'm awkward, bad at school, bad at art, unathletic, nothing has ever clicked for me. I really try my best, but it feels like I fail at everything. I've also been depressed for as long as I can remember, and my inner voice is constantly telling me how unworthy and talentless I am. I feel guilty all the time, like I've committed an atrocity for simply existing. I've gone to therapy, been hospitalized, put on meds and tried everything I can think of but at the end of the day I'm a miserable person. I feel like I can't even talk to people about how awful I feel all the time because I'll ruin them. I have ideations, but I hold on because I know how devastated my mom would be. I'm in University now, and I feel like my life is only changing for the worse. It's my second year here and I've made zero friends, racked up debt and am barely getting through my clases. Struggling financially is only making everything worse, I feels terrible asking my parents for financial help and am scared I'll be consumed by debt. I've made so many stupid mistakes I with I could take back. I feel trapped. I feel lost. I feel like a horrible person. 2023-12-20
I'm a 24-year-old male and believe I have low self-esteem. Whenever someone says they're proud of me, compliments my looks, or acknowledges my kindness, I respond with thanks, but in the end, it feels as though nobody has ever complimented me. I often feel inferior to people, even those much younger, and I know I shouldn't, but I don't know how to stop. \n\nDo you have any idea why I feel this way, and why do I keep forgetting or only half-believing what people say to me?"\r \n\r \n\r \n\r \n\r \n\r \n 2023-12-20
You pushed everyone away. You're always depressed so nobody sticks around. You know you need help but you do nothing about it. \n\nYou needed support but there was nobody there. Now you wake up every morning just to drag yourself to a place that makes you feel so far from your path. \n\nPLEASE PLEASE OPEN YOUR EYES BEFORE YOU LOSE EVERYTHING! \n\nDon't go back to your old ways... 2023-12-19
I (18m) have been struggling with anxiety and depression lately since me and my partner have split up and got different living conditions. We had an argument a couple nights before i left because my anxiety was throwing me for a loop. i have issues with trust and opening up because so many girls in the past have hurt me and cheated and they always made me feel bad even when i didn\031t do anything wrong they would yell at me and just call me things i didn\031t even think of. ive been burned so much in my past its hard to find that trust. i met a girl not to long after my junior year of high school and we clicked it worked all so well together and we worked like peas in a pod. i moved in not to long after with her like 3 months later and everything was smooth. untill recently i had been having no anxiety no issues with my mental health she made my life amazing from where i was coming from. she had saved me. \nbut we had a couple issues come up lately cause with my past issues i had some anxiety spirals happen when she was out with her friend and i had been really upset cause she by what dhe told me as i remember she would be home soon but an hour later goes by and she still isn\031t home and ik i was wrong to get freaked out in her being out with her friend but i have so many issues with girls saying they are going out with their friends and alot of my exes used the same phrase saying im going out with friends come up later i found out they had been with a friend that was a guy and cheated on me. now it seems like shes growing more distant and ik shes busy with work and everything but i still see her snap score go up when shes at work and im not saying she\031s doing anything but she barely texts me anymore and she barely responds. when i left she made a promise to me that we wouldn\031t see other people and that we wouldn\031t want anything but us because we still loved each other at the time and we didn\031t want anyone else but now im confused hurt and upset because the girl i love and would drop and do anything for just seems to not care& 2023-12-20
I will more than likely regret this post but here we go. I've always had an inside voice it's me not someone else but also not me? It gets really loud sometimes especially when I mess up if I had a tough day with my kids it's the worst, I absolutely hate the quiet it's gotten bad lately and I do believe it's due to depression/anxiety. I just want to quiet this voice. It's so cruel sometimes and I don't know why I'm so broken I'm just so broken I don't know who I am anymore I am struggling as a mom as a wife as a person and I just need it to stop sometimes. I feel hazy and blank most days I feel like I'm sinking and can't pull myself up I don't want to be this person. 2023-12-20
I don\031t know what to put here I\031m too tired to write anything. My head hurts and I can\031t think clearly. I guess this is all life has in store for me, being a sad pathetic loser who disappoints his parents and does nothing else in the world. Everything\031s a hell hole and I don\031t have it in me to fix it because I\031m such a lazy fuck. I\031m ugly as fuck, dumb as fuck, and I have nothing really going for me in life. Idk I don\031t really care anymore I\031m just looking for a way out of this miserable hell hole 2023-12-20
Sometimes I feel like I am gaslighting myself into thinking I am getting bullied, but then I realize that the things people say to me are not right.\n\nFor starters, I am queer girl and open about it, but you would never really be able to tell by the way I look. I am both feminine and masculine and can fit in as the next average joe&\n\nat least that\031s what I thought till people starting calling me ugly and slurs and casually being homophobic towards me.\n\nIt seems as though I cannot go a day without my sexuality being brought up, or if I do something or say something weird or trying to make a joke, it\031s because I am not straight.\n\nI have had siblings friends parents openly call me unattractive for that fact and what I am trying to put out here, is that is there something I am doing to manifest the way people treat me?\n\nI have such terrible self esteem that I have to put my head down when i walk in my dorm or around campus. I am a sophomore and still am having trouble finding new friends. I do not fit in with the GSA kids that much.. and i just don\031t really know what to do. I already signed a lease for next year and so I am having trouble with the idea of transferring. I don\031t know what to do. 2023-12-20
I can\031t remember almost any of my childhood, and when I try and think about it I just feel uneasy. Even when I see childhood photos where I am happy/smiling, I feel sick to my stomach and sometimes cry, and I don\031t know why I react like that. Every once and awhile i\031ll remember a totally random and insignificant memory and it makes me physically uncomfortable, like a sensation of pure dread washes through my whole body. Does this happen to anybody else? And does anyone know why I might feel like this? 2023-12-19
I would Just like to have someone to talk to. If anyone wants to listen feel free to dm me.\n\nThank you all. 2023-12-20
So I would like\nto know if anyone is experiencing the same thing as me, basically whenever i try to sleep, sometimes i get butterfly in my stomach and start to become delusional, i will basically believe anything that i think of, and get scared of anything, like if I think of my mom dying, I will get very stressed and I will literally cry because im scared of my mom dying, and I keep worrying about the most random stuff, whether it be a bear entering our house, or whatever, ill just get scared and believe anything 2023-12-20
I understand that a big part of indecision is fear of a bad outcome and wanting to avoid that and seeing certain choices as objectively right or wrong. If I pick the right choice things will work out and if I pick the wrong choice it is an objective catastrophe. I know it doesn't have to be like that, that you can make whatever pick work out for you. I can know these things intellectually but I don't feel that way emotionally or mentally. I still feel very tense imagining the outcome where things go wrong. It doesn't seem like something I can suddenly implement for my current major decision. I can't just tell myself "it's gonna work out" and let go, I need to be mentally adjusted enough to be able to take that to heart and be able to let go and that's a journey. For the time being I need ot be able to make decisions from where I'm at.\n\nAnd even with that, someone who is at ease is still left with the task of tackling the decision, they still must account for various factors - those things won't happen by itself. I just can't see what's true. I get pulled by each direction and can't let go of anything. I doubt everything I come up with in favour of either choices, so I'm left with complete uncertainty. I don't know if some factor I consider is just me overthinking things / being obsessive. I wish I could see outside myself, so I could make a better decision for myself. I wish I had a formula or way of seeing things to help me weigh my choices. This aspect of my indecision I call feeling blind.\n\nIt also doesn't help that I struggle to manage my thoughts, perhaps it's ADHD, I can't stop procrastinating and struggle to stay focused, so I already know I can't give things a reasonable amount of thought. The feeling of going into a boxing match with one week of training whilst your opponent has had one year, you know you don't stand a chance, but have to do it. This aspect of my indecision I call feeling unprepared.\n\nSure, you could say no one ever will be able to be fully prepared or able to see things fully clearly, but this really overlooks legitimate obstacles that affect me personally and disproportionately more than normal people like the adhd and anxiety/obsessiveness. This adds another layer of confusion for me, where I don't know how to account for these personal difficulties when making decisions. 2023-12-20
Me and my bf were so happy together and we were planning to get married soon but everything changed in few minutes, the day Matthew perry died me and my bf were talking about him and I\031m next 20 min my bf had an cardiac arrest I rushed to the hospital but he took his breathe in my arms. There were no one with us few friends came in support but everyone changed after his funeral they ghosted me and now I feel alone and terrible. I do not eat or sleep I think about dying but I look at my mom and swallow my grief somehow. Nights are restless and life has become punishment without him . I still wait for him calls and text , acceptance is the hardest part and I\031m not able to do that . 2023-12-19
I was very uncomfortable today, and it seemed like I was blacking out. But not like, drunk blackout or falling asleep. Sort of like I was watching my body on autopilot?\n\nIt was physical discomfort, mixed with high anxiety, & being tired. Not sleepy-tired, just mentally taxed.\n\nIs there a name for that? 2023-12-20
To let me know that she has a mental illness and she is on medication. Nothing changed for me or her after hearing it. I am one of those types of people that want to "invest" in healthy relationships, told her that whenever she is feeling ready to trust what it is with me im gonna be here. I also for once was open about my past trauma with relationships and that im not into moving fast but id rather get to know who im with and she respected it. She told me from the get go that she wants to have more dates like this and made her feel youthful and alive (she is, im not =\005)\n\nWhen/if she tells me and if we are either in a romantic or non romantic relationship, I'll be back to get some tips from ya all on how to better support myself to be able to help. 2023-12-20
I haven\031t cut myself in over 3 months, ever since my family found out. They tried to put me into therapy but I only had 3 sessions since my Medicare ran out. Ever since then I\031ve had thoughts about it almost everyday. At first it was a form of punishment for myself, if I did something bad and my mom or other family member only yelled at me I felt that it wasn\031t enough and I needed to be hurt to learn my lesson. Then it became a a outlet of relief for me. Family trouble or school trouble, I would cut myself a few times. Sometimes it would be punishment for myself or to make me feel better. After the therapy stopped it took a couple weeks for the thoughts to really comeback because they really never stopped. I don\031t know why I didn\031t tell my therapist that, maybe because I was afraid. I have a little pocket on a bag that I don\031t use anymore where I had some utility knife blades just incase I really want to do it one day, I know that alone is bad, but I can\031t separate my self from them. Whenever I feel like a fat piece of shit, a bad son or person, I grab a blade and just think about it. The i out it back and I just feel I like a failure and coward. 2023-12-20
I\031m not talking about PMS or being \034moody.\035 I am genuinely curious if my period could be exacerbating my depression symptoms. 2023-12-20
It all started with my mom and dad they had me at a very young age and they both had trouble with cheating and so they'd argue a lot I think the worst case of it was when I was 10/11 mum and dad were in a really at it after that I was staying at my nannies place to get away from all of it and then I and my mom go home pretty late in the day and we find pills and blood on counters so my mom calls my dad to see what he's been doing and we hear some noise from the back garden my dad is climbing over the fence bloody all over and all I can do is just watch as my mum tries to get him in house and I just start crying my eyes out and then I see my dad bloody in front of me trying to calm me down.\nAnd then after that everything calmed down for a bit but then they started fighting again and then stopped and fought again and I kept telling myself that it would be the last fight but it wasn't and then it did for a long time but then they fought again but it wasn't that bad but then they divorced and I live with my dad and I go to college now and throughout that, I suppressed my emotional feelings I don't know how to deal with it now and I just really don't want to be a burden to them.\nAnd I have a little context of dyslexia so it made my life a lot harder and more anxious. 2023-12-20
I am someone who is very extroverted and very reliant of being around people in order to enjoy myself. Whenever I'm alone, I have an extreme inability to have fun or enjoy anything I do. Ive tried everything, my main hobby is playing video games so Ive tried playing my favorite games, finding new games, etc. Ive tried rewatching shows and Ive tried starting new shows. Ive tried writing, art, going outside, working out. I don't have fun doing anything and nothing sounds fun to do.\n\nThe weird thing is, I'm not depressed. I don't feel sad and I function perfectly fine and normal. The only thing wrong with me is a constant state of boredom and inability to have fun no matter what I try. People underestimate how horrible it can feel to be bored all day every day year round with no cure. 2023-12-20
It feels like that dark hole is back trying to suck me in. But as always ( when it appears) keep fighting against it. 2023-12-20
so im 16 if that matters but i currently live with my sisters due to family issues my sisters are nearing graduation so of course they are like super packed with school and stuff i dont wake up super early so i like never see them leave the house for school but they get home around 6 and go straight to bed and repeat i also dont have any friends in this city (this matters) so its not like i can leave the house to go hang out but i dont remember the last time i had social interaction? like with someone irl i get so bored its insane and im starting to get sad i tried talking to them but how can i if they are asleep im also schizo but its not bad thankfully but i havent had a human interaction in like a week and my meds are seriously not helping as the voices i hear get worse? (also to clarify i am a complete loser and spend my time mostly playing video games) and also before you say "just go outside" i cannot go outside without being accompanied by someone or ill have like a panic attack 2023-12-19
My therapist and I basically had an argument today. I haven't been able to use the "tools" she gave me because it's accessible via PC, and my PC is in the repair shop. She told me that I have been regressing so much lately that she doesn't think she can help me anymore, that all I do is complain during sessions, yet I am unable to "find a solution" ,\nto my home life problems. And I told her I'm not sure as he can help me anymore either. The session ended on such a sudden, empty, sour note. I have cried all day, I'm dehydrated. Im 21 and I've been with this therapist since I was 14. I feel so alone, she was the only person I had who I could talk to about my terrible relationship with my parents without judgement, and now she's gone. My dad has offered to find a new therapist, but the risk of this ever happening again is really scaring me away from ever seeking therapy again. I have abandonment issues, every friend I've had has also left me for my home life problems/depression/tendency to complain. When I complain I'm not often seeking a solution, I just need to get it off my chest because I'm alone and can't vent to my parents because they are the ones making me miserable in the first place. I feel like I need to tell someone about it to make sure it's not just me noticing a problem. But anyway, I believe chances are a new therapist will also get sick of me after a year or so so i dont feel like trying. But what CAN I do? I have no one left. 2023-12-20
Mine was so much better since, well, forever. I had a test on which I did surprisingly well (lowkey proud of myself). Wasn't able to muster up courage to create boundaries with some friends but hopefully soon 2023-12-19
It has been happening to me for a while. I have a busy family. My siblings have sports practices and my parents have errands, so it\031s common for someone to be out of the house.\n\nBut for some reason, whenever I know that there is someone out of the house, I get a feeling that is hard to describe. It\031s that kind of unsettled feeling that something just isn\031t right. Especially if someone is out late at night, I find it much easier to sleep once they\031ve returned home. It\031s not a worried feeling or an anxious feeling, it\031s just off.\n\nI have no idea what could be the cause of this feeling, and I don\031t know if other people have experienced it. If anyone has any ideas or explanations, I would appreciate it. =O<\xfc 2023-12-20
I can feel myself breaking more and more. I'm scared. I've dealt with mental health all my life but I've never really felt fear like I do now. The terror is overwhelming and makes me feel so helpess. I keep picking up the pieces but what happens when I can't make a functioning mind with the pieces I have left? What comes next when you reach the end of the line? 2023-12-20
I'm looking for mental health games that focus on teaching about mental health from real-life experiences. Any recommendations? 2023-12-20
That's the damn reason I bottle up my tears, because of that type of people \nlike GODDAMN can we normalize that crying is ok?? I don't need another mental problem! \nSeriously let people have their time and then ask them if they're alright instead of going up to someone and tell them that crying is useless\n\n because guess what, YOUR advice is useless, and only worsen the situation 2023-12-19
I have molars on both sides of my mouth that are sharp and constantly poking my tongue. If I chew on my left, I risk biting my cheek. I have a blister now, so that bothers me as well. I'm constantly touching it with my finger, my tongue, grinding my teeth to "file" it, and it's causing me anxiety. My dentist appointment is going to be in February so I'm just going to have to deal with this and I really hate it. I am not diagnosed with OCD, but there is a probable chance I have it. I need to discuss it with my therapist. 2023-12-19
Due to my traumatic upbringing, I have developed CPTSD, BPD and depression. So I started seeing my therapist back in July of this year. For no particular reason, I\031m having a really difficult time with trusting + opening up to her which, I don\031t understand why. Interestingly enough, I find myself becoming angry and lashing out at my therapist in session. More specifically, whenever she asks about instances of past traumas that occurred. Why would this anger me?\n\nLately, I\031ve been feeling quite low due to traumaversaries. As a result, I have resorted back to engaging in self destructive behaviours. Which leaves me feeling like a complete failure and so I attempted to withhold this information from my therapist& \n\nHowever, my therapist figured out something was up with me and asked what was going on. Despite, wanting to open up to her, I was not able to explain myself and instead got angry at her for asking.\n\nMy therapist knew I was hurting and offered me a hug which I accepted and found to be very comforting. Next think IK, im having a breakdown, she is by my side and im crying in session for the first time& \n\nAt this time, I have yet to fill her in fully between the tears that occurred last session. HELP! I\031m dreading my session tmr& I\031m in DISBELIEF, MORTIFIED even& I HATE myself for having been emotionally messy in front of her. In fact, I\031m BEYOND embarrassed, feeling like TOTAL fool and engaging in self destructive behaviours once again. \n\nAdvice anybody? Therapists? Thank you! 2023-12-20
My parents were violent drunks and it really did a number on me as a child. Even on good day they had a hard time being kind to me because I was always \034a little different\035 and didn\031t react the way they wanted to stuff. \n\nAs a preteen I moved out to live with other relatives who were much kinder to me. Family values are important to me so about a decade ago I reconnected with my parents. We have fragile adult relationship with lots of boundaries. \n\nI have a 7 day Christmas trip scheduled with them starting tomorrow. They are excited to see me. \n\nIt seemed doable a couple months ago. But I don\031t think I can go. I was just diagnosed with autism and it\031s bringing up a lot of feelings about about childhood mistreatment. \n\nAs an adult who has done a lot of work to overcome childhood abuse, I 100% understand it\031s my responsibility to take care of myself, and I have to prioritize my mental health needs over that of my family. \n\nBut God it\031s hard I can\031t get any support or validation from people around here. My extended family will be really angry with me. My friends say I should try harder to forgive my family. \n\nIt seamed like a really fucked up thing to say in the context some one who serially belittled, starved and beat a child. My parents have never even acknowledged the harm they did or apologize to me. I am really shocked when that sort of advice comes out of the mouths of people are supposed to care for me. \n\nI talked to my therapist about it and she said that only I can know if it\031s worth it to visit my parents. It\031s been stressing me out. I\031m having a little bit of a breakdown. I tried to bring it up with my psychiatrist today but I couldn\031t think of the right way to do it. There aren\031t any meds she can prescribe for a fucked up family anyway. \n\nI\031ve been totally reasonable here aren\031t I? I\031m in the right not to go? 2023-12-20
For some reason I have gotten an obsession with Auston Matthews. It has gotten to the point where it is affecting my mental and physical health. I\031ve started to starve myself in order to be skinny enough for him to like me. I\031ve been looking at plastic surgeries to make myself look prettier for him. Looking at clothes that would make myself look like someone he would like. I have never met this man, I will never meet this man. Let alone have a relationship with him. And today I learned that he has a girlfriend and that absolutely BROKE me. I spent all day crying, hating myself and being disgusted by my appearance. I know I will get over this and it will take time for me to get over it (I\031ve had this happen to me a lot of times before) But it just hurts me so much to have this much energy spent on a person. Every time this happens, it makes extremely depressed. Because I know no matter what I do, I will never have the life I want. I will be just some poor, fat, and ugly girl who kills herself before she turns 25. I have absolutely no redeeming qualities, no friends, no boyfriend, no talents, NOTHING. I have been diagnosed with anxiety, depression, OCD, and I am taking medication for it. I\031m on the highest dosage but it doesn\031t seem to make a difference, I\031m still absolutely insane. I really don\031t think I have any reason to be alive. 2023-12-20
I was first diagnosed with depression when I was around 11 which is where I feel this primarily started. I\031m 19 now, and have been on several different anti-depressants so I\031ve rly tried the medication route and always feel pretty sick on them. Even when I feel massively depressed I\031ve tried to work on keeping good things in my life even through that period so that when I come out of it I can still have my relationships in tact, etc (no burning bridges). But when this feeling of self sabotage arises it comes almost randomly, and normally when I\031m feeling like I\031m doing okay. Right now I am in a really great healthy relationship with a girl I think I really do love for about a year and want to break up for no reason. I also feel i want to give up my college classes. When I feel like this I feel like all emotion has been drained out of my body and want to shed every bit of everything out of my life. Does anyone else ever feel like this or have tips to make it better? It happens often for me and I have to really try and tell myself to not go through with it 2023-12-20
Why am i so avoidant? With literally everything. My safe space is always alone and to myself. I understand it may be because I faced a lot alone as a young child and that\031s true. But even now, im in college, and I AVOID CHECKING my grades because I fear I\031ll get too anxious. I never check my grades at all i just do my best. I never post on social media anymore. I avoid attention as much as I can. And I love living a low life. Any reasons why? 2023-12-20
Hi readers,\n\nI am an IT guy who works from home and spends more than 15 hours in the same room. I have a female house mate who used to be an awesome friend but then she started avoiding me. When I wanted to clarify, she insisted it's in my mind but then all the calls or texts would go unnoticed. From my perspective, being new to the city and spending the majority of the day trapped inside a room, I'd feel really good when I'd get to talk to her. I'd wait until she came back home from her late night shifts just to be there and talk to her. \n\nI might have ended up giving desperation vibes. I'm not in love with her. However being my only friend in the city, I might've given wrong hints. I tried dating apps but would barely get a right swipe. If it's a match and I text first, then I don't get a reply. Which is kinda depressing for me. I workout daily in the gym and have been trying to interact with some of the people. However, most of them like to wear headphones and avoid talking to strangers. \n\nI did have a very bad argument with this girl recently and we are not on talking terms anymore. I made a lot of good memories with her in only about 3-4 months and it kills me to be not able to talk to her at the moment while still living in the same house. We've tried clearing things out, apologizing, talking again, but end up in the same trap everytime. \n\nI'd really appreciate your opinion/suggestions on this. Right now I'm trying really hard to distance myselves from her. She's being really toxic nowadays, only contacting me when she needs to get something done. Otherwise just avoiding calls or texts or blocking and unblocking. My final decision is to distance myselves but the problem is we stay in the same house and this isn't gonna change for atleast another 4 months. 2023-12-20
I recently moved to the U.S in July of this year and I\031m finding really difficult to adjust. I already had social anxiety before I moved but it\031s been so much worse since I\031ve been here. A lot of things are so different and I feel so alone. This was the first time I\031ve seriously considered ending my own life, and I feel like I can\031t talk to any of my friends back home about it because they all think that I should be having the time of my life. I have no friends here and I constantly feel stupid for not knowing how things work here. I feel like a failure. \nAny advice? 2023-12-20
I feel like my mom is just abusive. As a kid, I was scared around her if she was mad. She once busted my head with a broom. She\031d beat the ever living sh** out of me over the smallest things. She\031d bite me on a few occasions. She calls my mental illnesses \034self diagnoses\035 despite them being diagnosed and placed on meds??? She says that \034your bpd is probably making you hallucinate those bad memories of me.\035 I try to talk to her and vent, for once in my life, and she immediately stands up defensive \034what do you want me to do, all parents make mistakes, you caused me hell growing up, you know how much that puts on me.\035 After she gets mad, she then starts crying \034oh I\031m a terrible parent, I ruin everything, why don\031t you tell me how bad I am so I can feel worse\035 Then a couple days later she is on the phone with a doc, and when she hangs up, \034you not gonna ask me who that was?\035 \034Who was it\035 \034I admitted myself I\031m on \034sewer slide watch\035 \034I\031m proud you got help\035 \034that\031s not what you say to someone who\031s going through issues!\035 As if I am not going through tens of mental illnesses a day& \034you know you caused that\035 \034I highly doubt me venting to you caused it entirely\035 \034it did most of it\035 like she never takes blame for anything, she gets defensive, but if I dare to speak my mind even calmly, I\031m bashing her. She always pulls \034you have a roof over your head\035 like it\031s an option for her. Basically she can do anything but if I do the same, I get shamed for it. She shames me for being unable to work on my feet due to health issues, silly stuff like that. It\031s just so much things I can think of to the point I can\031t even listen it chronologically. Am I crazy? 2023-12-19
You know that one person who everyone appears to like but secretly doesn\031t.. they are the kinda awkward one of the group..You know says something that no one knows how to respond to or just laughs and moves on to a different subject. Socially awkward in most situations and doesn\031t know how to interact with people yet yearns for relationships with people. This is me and I hate it& I literally feel like people just tolerate me or feel bad for me so they talk to me.. i think some people like me but only for short periods of time& I want to be the fun person that everyone likes and wants to spend time with but I never will be because I don\031t know how to respond to people and I either shut down or try to hard& I hate myself for it and remind myself multiple times a day how much I hate myself for it & I truly don\031t know what can be done 2023-12-19
It\031s currently 1:30 am. My, what, 5th or 6th sleepless night in a row. I want to go for a walk, to escape everything. Everything\031s feels terrible. I feel empty. My brain feel sfoggy. Everything feels wrong.\n\nI had a dream, a while ago, where I saw and felt my self dying. My breathing slowed down until my consciousness was no longer connected to my body, and I saw my pale face. \n\nEver since that dream, everything has felt wrong. Ever since that dream, all the good things turned bad. I feel forgotten. My worst fear has come to life. Ever since that dream.\n\nI want to be free. But I don\031t know how. I want to take a leap. But not every leap, is a leap of faith. \n\nI\031m scared and disappointed of what I am. 3 years back, I thought I was the happiest person. But now, and even 6 months after I said that. I realise how gullible I was.\n\nNow that I think of it, things felt wrong before that dream too. They were finally starting to look right again. No longer drowning in my own depressing thoughts and self sabotage. \n\nBut now, ever since that dream, things have reverted.\nI\031m lower than I\031ve ever been, I don\031t know what to do.\n\nI want to go for a walk, but I\031m scared of what will happen if I do. 2023-12-20
Basically AITA 2023-12-20
Sorry for the long post. \n\nYou've been warned.\n\nI need non bias, real opinions in a situation. Maybe not even opinions. Maybe just "that sucks and I'm sorry". I'm always the strong one. I have no one to talk to. \n\nWell over a decade ago I got involved with an entertainment group that deals mostly with kids. \n\nI was promoted to director on a very vital endeavor that helped fund the rest of the year. I never took pay, for any of it. The kudos and family environment was enough for me. After my kids grew and left, I stayed because I loved it so much. \n\nThe company higher ups (turned non profit ) never really acknowledged my continued contributions other than a thanks once in a while. \n\nThe founders would always, always do that, even of the "company" wouldn't. \n\nThe original founders were involved even after the non profit status and still ran the majority of the day to day operations. \n\nThen this year they were accused of embezzlement. \n\nClaiming innocence even now with felony Charges, they separated from the non profit and started a new company, and bringing me with, continued to honor my position at the new company, in my same capacity. \n\nThey say they were owed the money due to overworking, underpayment of services, etc. And that much of it is B S and the company was using funds for personal use too. \n\nA very lengthy battle is going to happen.\n\nThe non profit could've cared less about me and wasn't truthful about many things, which I was (am) pretty upset about, since I had 0 involvement with the aforementioned activity and didn't deserve to be lied to.\n\nI tried to stay neutral, but the non profit had no plans to keep me for the specific position I was in, as the original founder is who I partnered with and I couldn't possibly continue the special featured events without them. It's OUR baby and idea, and the Non profit didn't have the chops to ever carry it out.\n\nI'm feeling SO conflicted supporting possible felons, but they are the only ones who have supported ME and I'm still able to pull a 1099 paycheck from them while all of this is happening. I need the money and I need the project for my soul. This project is my baby and I can't give it up. It helps that it's a seasonal event so after the 1st it'll be gone for a year. So there might be much that happens IN this next year, but so far we are still planning FOR next year. \n\nThe community is split with everyone fighting and basically "if you're not for me you're against me" is the additive of both parties. \n\nI'm exhausted, and I don't know what to feel. Close friends are on camp "them" and it's like you can't talk to them now. We've even lost funding, and local support due to the bad press (the founders new company) \n\nI feel bad that they were so overworked they felt the need to be dishonest, and that they are the obvious scapegoats. The company's lack of oversight is astonishing. It's on them, too.\n\nI am pissed the non-profit powers that be lied to me about multiple things and I felt like they have handled the entire ordeal very badly. Lots of things were done that were very alarming and knee-jerk. \n\nI am angry the founders basically took what they thought they deserved, (it was a ALOT) and I never got paid for anything beyond a few gift cards. \n\nI feel like the founders are untrustworthy now, and feel horrible for even saying it out loud. Are they? Are they wrong? Guilty? Con artists and I'm being duped? Am I projecting and they are the victims? \n\nI hope all this makes sense. \n\nI'm lost. 2023-12-20
My older sister is 26 and suffers from depression. She goes to therapy and takes antidepressants. I feel like she is always negative and takes her depression out on me. When she tells me she\031s having a bad day or even if she\031s not, I\031ll cook her dinner or order us takeout. She complains that I never ask her how she is but she tells me everyday that she\031s depressed without me asking so I don\031t understand. She throws all her problems on me and gets mad when I don\031t react and answer the way she wants. I\031ve been dealing with my own mental health issues ever since the pandemic and can\031t handle her always throwing her stuff on me. Im empathetic towards her and her problems, but isn\031t her therapist the one who is supposed to listen to her all her problems? What more can I do for her even though she\031s draining me? Any answers would be appreciated thank you. 2023-12-20
In the quiet echo of your solitude this Christmas, remember that you are not alone. Amidst the fragments of a fractured heart, know that healing is a journey, not a destination. Embrace the ache, for it is a testament to the depth of your capacity to love. \nIn the midst of the holiday cheer, when your soul feels like a tattered melody, find solace in the company of your own resilience. Acknowledge the pain, but let it be a stepping stone towards a brighter dawn. Illuminate the corners of your despair with the warmth of self-compassion. \nAs you navigate the labyrinth of emotions, recognize that strength often blooms from vulnerability. Share your story, for in the collective narrative of heartbreak, you'll discover echoes of understanding. Seek solace in the silent kinship of those who have weathered similar storms, their unwavering support a testament to the universality of human experience. 2023-12-20
It is hard for me to articulate what exacly is going on, but I'm going to try my best because I honestly don't know what else to do. \n\nI am struggling to come up with complex and coherent thoughts and speech, I'm lacking imagination, and focus. Every time I try to speak to someone, my mind goes blank, and even outside of that, I'm simple minded and not really doing much. Even struggling to remember things and process things that I have heard or read. It's gotten to the point where this is all I can think about, and it's causing me severe mental anguish and constant pain.\n\nI feel kinda like a zombie, or a robot, except I'm still feeling emotion, but it's mostly anxiety and depression. I'm also struggling to just do basic tasks, or come up with anything to do. I feel like this has been happening since quarantine began, but has been gradually getting worse, and over the past few weeks, have been particularly bad. I recently began seeing a psychiatrist and I've tried taking Trazodone and then Citalopram, and I'm not entirely sure if this medication is what exacerbated my problems or if it has helped at all. \n\nI don't know if there is something physically wrong with my brain, or if it's all mental, but I just feel so broken and lost. My mother is dealing with physical illness of her own and it's difficult to support her while also going though my own nonsense. I am just completely lost right now, so if anyone has any advice I would appreciate it immenesly, and thank you for hearing my ramblings. 2023-12-20
Lately I am feeling aphethy towards everything that I enjoy and i feel more distanced from my friends, i always feel like the People around me are better than me in everything I though i was good at. Am I being too selfish for hating on the people that enjoy themselves? Am i being egotistical for refusing to get help? Am I capable enough ?\nThose are the questions that I ask myself everyday, and i tried to lose weight but I always quit in the a couple of days i tried to wach self help videos only to forget about it tomorrow. I feel i every path i taken leads to regret or a dead end.\nany form of help will be appreciated. 2023-12-20
All I do is relive my trauma literally not 5 minutes that go's by without it. At least 1 time a week I have an... episode that really makes me relive it. Like it feels like it's happening all over again for the first time. It's consuming my entire life. 2023-12-20
(30m) I live with my parents and siblings. We live in a small isolated town. Everyday, I get up go to work and do my daily work.\n I just get disappointed when I come home to nothing ready to eat and having anyone talk to me. They only talk to me when they need/ask for things.\n Me and my parents keep the income going on the house and we keep the house intact. I just feel disappointed on my siblings, they don't want do better for themselves and my parents can't kick them out because we have no one to turn to, we're basically on our own and we have a big family. \nIt just sucks how quickly the food goes around here and i always buy food and I barely have money to spend for myself. I only have enough to get me by with lunch money.\n I'm the bad guy, when it's time for me to eat. I can't leave my parents too. They need me as well. I'm just disappointed on how a good person like me, always get like shit.. 2023-12-20
Over the course of this year, I have called out enough times to be placed on a final notice. One more and I\031m out. \n\nI don\031t think it\031s excessive to my standards, it\031s every couple of months. To me it\031s amazing I do it as little as a do. I push myself a lot a lot. \n\nBut to the mentally healthy? HAAAAAAA. I am nothing. A failure. Worth nothing. \n\nI tried the therapy my work offers. They said my issues were too complex for them. \n\nI tried a virtual therapist, she said I was \034reading off a list\035. \n\nTried another, just didn\031t vibe. \n\nI am suffering so immensely almost everyday. I can\031t accomplish the things I want to in life. I want to get better. \n\nBut I have no idea how. \n\nWork said I could take a leave of absence. But I can\031t afford that and therapy. \n\nI can\031t find good therapy. 2023-12-19
Hey Reddit, \nI think there is something wrong with me. Might not be though. That feeling slowly rots me from the inside and ruins my life, piece by piece. \n\nThis post is likely to have zero to no structure, so feel free to ask anything. \n\nI am a M (22), studying and working. I feel \034weird\035 every single day, some days in some specific circumstances the feeling intensifies so much I am relatively close to ending it. I feel like my partner does not love me and does not like our love life, I constantly feel like they are cheating on me. I am not sure if I am anything at all: i am not sure what i like, i am not sure if i love my family, or if i am even remotely interested in them. I am not sure if i have any friends, or if they consider me a friend. \n\nI haven\031t had any similar thoughts up until i turned 18. Then, i started realizing how socially awkward i am (even though i generally have not had issues with getting \034friends\035 and \034girlfriends\035, which surprises me most at this point due to my looks, as i would be considered a 4 tops). Now, i choose to stay at home due to being scared of social interaction and some of them are so stressful i forget how they went and what i said. I was diagnosed with two mental disorders (depression, bpd) but i do not really know which one is correct. I did therapy for a couple of years and now i try to stay away from psychologists as most of them are a scam in my eyes. \n\nSo, i have a feeling this is not what a usual person feels like but i have no way of finding out what exactly is wrong with me. I think i specifically care about how other people perceive that \034wrongness\035. 2023-12-19
For psychosis symptoms Abilify or quetiapine?\n\nOkay tomorrow I see my psychiatrist i was supposed to start my medication 2 weeks ago but been terrified to do so because I\031m scared it will make my symptoms worse as I have a 2 year old son home with me & because my symptoms are only mild , I keep seeing bad and good reviews about these two medications Abilify and quetiapine . Which one ?? Who had a good experience and which one would you recommend?! 2023-12-20
I\031m 17M and never get invited to hangout. Not even to play video games. I\031ve asked people to hangout and they just say they are busy 2023-12-19
I found someone who made me so happy and I think I lost them and I don\031t know why or what happened the last thing she said was I love you and now she\031s gone she blocked me on everything and idk what to do I just want to feel like everything is gonna be okay but I don\031t think it will be how can I live without the person who made my life worth living I don\031t know what to do I\031m lying on the floor of my bathroom crying right now I feel like I\031m gonna throw up and I don\031t have anyone to turn to to talk about it she was all I had I feel like I\031ve lost everything 2023-12-20
I have been working at a small company for about 3 years now. Early on I figured out this place is really toxic because of the owners and the people that have been here for a long time in leadership that are yes men that don't know what they are actually agreeing to. They also will take anything you say to them in private and immediately bring it up to the owners. \nThe owners don't know mgmt 101 yet have read numerous books on mgmt. Yelling at employees in meetings with other employees on a call and in person. Not giving clear direction or contradicting something you as a manager just set with your subordinates. Giving us something nice as a company and then threatening if anyone "fucks up" then we lose it. He pushes everyone so hard that people break often here and quit. Those that have been here a long time I see they have anxiety issues. Also, there's just no work culture here whatsoever. Even though we can work from home, take time off kind of whenever, and the staff is understanding there is this air always that you just not good enough because you're asked to do things you have no idea how to do basically constantly. Training and documentation whats that. \n\nWhen I confronted the owner about this one on one deflected, blamed me, used it's just "my culture" for the way he handles employees (he is half japanese but native to the US where we are so no one sees how his culture come into play) Also that he leads by fear. When he told me that last thing I knew it was hopeless to get him to see how wrong he was about how to manage his company. \n\nAnyways thats the backdrop. I've spent a lot of time and energy trying to fix these basic things in the company instead of doing my main job because it feels like the company is so dysfunctional and never will get to where it should be so that the profit sharing we get will make any difference to us. \n\nIn July I just couldn't handle the stress of work and things at home and had what I call a mental breakdown. I was trying to put up some blinds for my wife in our bedroom and any little setback just made me madder and madder at myself till I was completely twisted physically. Luckily my wife is really caring and helped me calm down and get it together but I was not right since then. I started going to therapy on and off and taking SSRI's or SSNI. They seemed to help but I know it's my job. I've talked to excoworkers and others about the situation and I just need to get out. \n\nThen over the weekend, I had another nervous breakdown myself and I had a talk with myself where I felt just wiped at the end and kinda of reset. Now it's Tuesday and I'm slowly rebuilding my mental state, but I'm noticing that things are feeling like when I first started noticing the company I work for was shitty or when I was trying more. I am a bit worried about how this will affect my mental state going forward since it seems like I'm just starting over again after about 3 years. Has anyone else experienced something like this? \n\nI am seriously looking to get another job right now to get out of this situation because I know the issues are my work. I've never had an experience like this in my 20+ years of working. 2023-12-19
Hi everyone! I\031m just wondering if anyone has been to a voluntary in stay mental clinic and might be able to offer me some advice on how to cope with that environment and make the most out of the program?\n\nI\031m booked in for a 3-5 week stay starting on the 3rd of Jan. it was recommended to me by my psychologist as he felt I would respond more effectively to therapy in a controlled environment because in his words \034I am not very good at incorporating his advice in my own time at home\035. I have a history of MDD, Social anxiety and ADHD so naturally I\031m a chronic procrastinator and get distracted easily. The program consists of almost 5-6 hours a day of group therapy and one on one psychological/psychiatric treatment. No phones, no internet, no caffeine or nicotine, the only form of entertainment I can bring with me are books but they have to be non fictional and self help by nature& the cost of the program is being covered by my private health insurance (military health fund), costing over 18,000 Australian dollarydoos which I could never afford on my own. So I also feel very privileged in having the opportunity to attend the program, further amplifying my desire to make the most of it. \n\nIt\031s important to note that I\031m not doing this because I am experiencing any major addiction requiring rehab nor am I in a state of crisis. The objective really is to help me learn and incorporate additional coping strategies to further safe guard my state of remission into the future, and explore any other problems that may have been overlooked in the past. In particular childhood trauma. \n\nThe date is getting closer now and I\031m starting to get second thoughts on going. I\031m really anxious about what I might be walking into and what I am leaving behind. I am extremely worried because I\031ll be without my fianc\xe9, who\031s is my main support as well as my 2 year old daughter who I miss like crazy even if I\031ve only been away for a few days. Although my partner is very supportive of me going and I am comforted by the fact that she will have plenty of additional family support while I\031m gone, I\031ve been holding back tears over the last couple weeks just thinking about this and everything. She is also pregnant with our second child due in July so I feel like a selfish A hole&\n\nTLDR: 3-5 week in stay mental ward program coming up, slowly becoming more anxious about how i am going to cope with the program and super anxious about leaving my family behind. I am getting second thoughts about going and am really scared. Please help. 2023-12-19
New to opening up here, everytime I go to talk to anyone, post anything, or share anything it has to be with a purpose, I won\031t do any of the above unless it has a purpose or it doesn\031t matter to me. I almost never post anything on the internet, and barely talk socially. I know I easily could, but but don\031t cuz it would be a waste of time or useless to the other person. Just very lost mentally at what to do. Nothing matters and I can\031t find a way to start any conversation. 2023-12-20
I have been going to therapy religiously, talking to family and friends. Somehow I can\031t stop obsessing over my body image and how I feel so horrible about myself for having small boobs. Idk what to even do because I can\031t get the surgery for a while 2023-12-19
TW: SOME TALK ABOUT SELFH*RM AND ATTEMPTING\n\nLately I\031ve been thinking I could be having a form of BPD (borderline personality disorder) I have done some tests online and the answers I\031ve gotten is likely to have it. I know they aren\031t accurate but I just wanted to see. Though I have looked up like symptoms and signs of having BPD and I\031m kinda conflicted with it.\n\nWhen I have looked at the symptom there are a lot that I have like fear of abandonment, lack of sense of self (I have change my life goals drastically as well as made some major career changes before), mood swings from irritability/anger to sadness and stress, paranoia when stressed, feeling depressed and empty sometimes, and sometimes have a hard time controlling anger. One that has me a bit iffy is it has says people with BPD experience impulsive behaviour and they list impulsive behaviour with sex, SH, substances, binge eating, gambling and spending. I do have impulsiveness when it comes to eating and spending money, I\031ve never had thought of harming myself or using drugs or alcohol (I do have a drink here and there but that\031s it) \n\nAs well I\031ve looked and seen a lot of people with BPD try to attempt or harm themselves and end up in the hospital due to having sh tendency\031s. \n\nMy issue is I have never had a thought of trying to harm myself or end my life, but my issue is I have never had a thought of trying to harm myself or end my life, but majority of the things that are listed for symptoms of BPD. I relate to, and some of the questions that I would answer in some online assessments would be agree most of the time else. \n\nEven though I do not have those impulsive thoughts to harm myself, or use substances impulsively, could I still potentially have could I still potentially have BPD?\n\nI want to clarify that I am planning on going to my doctor to talk about this since I know I can get the most accurate diagnosis from my doctor, and the online tests aren\031t as accurate. I just wanted to do them just to see so then I can reference it to my doctor saying I have done these tests I know they\031re not accurate but it did say I could potentially have it 2023-12-20
I feel that when meeting with a mental health care provider (e.g. psychiatrist, therapist, psychiatric nurse practitioner) for the first time; they already know who I am and aren't really interested in anything that I have to say.\n\nAnyone else get this? 2023-12-20
I am a 14 year old male which I know is a little young to be asking this but, I need help. I have put myself out there for multiple women and got rejected every time. Overtime I have come to view myself as worthless and unattractive. That's why I am here. I need to learn to love myself but I do not even know where to start. I need tips on how I can love myself and improve my overall image of myself. So please, I need your help. 2023-12-20
Trigger warning: SA\n\n\nFor context, I am a young adult in therapy since this summer for help navigating my BPD, CPTSD and depression.\n\nYesterday, my session took an unexpected turn& Feels like, my therapist just knew I was withholding something big from her& Although, she is aware I experienced a traumatic childhood I have never gone into much detail because my therapist is not available weekly. Naturally, the conversation steered towards exploring the impacts of these traumas.\n\nNonetheless, I got really triggered in session by her questions, lashed out at her and I now feel like a total brat. Here\031s how it played out:\n\n- T: Would you be open to sharing with me the types of abuse you experienced growing up? \n\n- Me: Ummmm, k&\n\n- T: May I ask whether it was sexual in nature? \n\n- Me: WHY DO YOU CARE?!??\n\n- T: Mmmmm&\n\n- Me: YOU\031RE NOT SORRY!!!\n\n- T: Of course, I am! What makes you feel like I\031m not?\n\n- Me: SORRY, I\031VE BEEN FEELING REALLY LOW&\n\n- T: Why\031s that?\n\n- Me: BECAUSE I AM!!! \n\n- T: Tell me more?\n\n- Me: YOU QUESTION ME AND TAKE NOTES AS I SPEAK JUST LIKE THE POLICE OFFICERS DID BACK WHEN I WAS BEING INTERVIEWED AFTER MY UNCLE RAPED ME. \n\n- T: I see, thank you for letting me know.\n\n- Me: DONT WRITE THAT DOWN! DONT YOU THINK IK JUST HOW MUCH OF A JOKE MY LIFE REALLY IS BY NOW&?\n\n- T: Your life isn\031t a joke, OP!\n\n\nNgl, I\031m feeling quite nervous about meeting with my therapist again tmr after behaving myself in this manner. Feedback anyone? Therapists what would you do in this situation? 2023-12-20
I was raped when very young, and I've been obsessed with everything about sex since then. I can't stop masturbating and I hate it.\nI either choose not to sleep or I sleep for DAYS IN A ROW. No in between.\nI'm a masochist. I am sad, but I feel like I don't want to get better, because the sadness is comforting, and I kind of like being in pain anyway. I self harm and I kind of love it.\nBeing antisocial is ruining my life. I get a panic attack the second someone even says hi to me no joke.\nI get really vivid pictures and fantasies in my head of me harming/killing myself or other people, but I don't know if I should take that seriously or not.\nI overthink everything! My dad could as an example say 'hi' to me a bit off and I'll be panicked for the rest of the day, wondering if he hates me or something.\nI cannot get anything done...if I have stuff to do, most people go and do them, right? Well I just get a panic attack and I get overwhelmed by all the stuff o have to do, and in the end, i never get anything done.\nI barely eat or drink. I'm not forcing myself not to eat, i just don't feel like it/ or i forget to eat/drink. And I don't think that's normal.\nI sit in my room and I either do nothing, or i scroll on my phone for the whole day. I fell like I'm wasting so much of my teenage years.\nWhen I wake up in the mornings, i have no motivation to get out of bed. And because of that, i DONT get out of bed, and it has gotten me in WAAY too much trouble lately.\nCan't I just be a normal fucking teenage girl for one!?\n\nI'm open for advice on any of these topics btw xx\nI also low-key wonder if I actually am depressed or if I'm overreacting 2023-12-20
I have pimples on certain parts on my body. I can't help but pop them. I get scars everywhere. \n\nI use a needle for my pimples but, I don't clean it. Sometimes just water but that's it. \n\nI like seeing blood coming out. It's satisfying, especially when it Flys out. \n\nSometimes I feel like I deserve the pain bec how terrible iam. \n\n\n\nSorry about my grammar I'm stupid 2023-12-20
I\031m 24 years old and have been aware of this issue for a few years now. In many social situations (perhaps even most of them) I exhibit the following symptoms to varying degrees:\n\n- Disorganized speech (Instead of going from point A to B then C, I go A > F > C > Z > B)\n- Using the wrong words in the wrong part of the sentence\n- Poor enunciation \n- Frequently stumbling on words\n- Excessive rambling and use of filler words\n- Speaking too quickly or too softly\n- Difficulty finding the right word or saying a sentence in the correct way\n- Losing track of my ideas and thoughts \n\nYet when I talk to my doctor, my family, my therapist, or a speech therapist about this&I speak completely fine. I\031m almost *too* charismatic and comfortable. When I go out on dates or hang with friends&I\031m mostly fine with the occasional slip up. Therefore nobody believes I have an issue, and I feel like I might be going crazy.\n\nMy speaking issues make me deeply afraid to start or engage in any conversation with most people, for fear of sounding like an idiot. But I feel like this isolation is making speaking worse. I don\031t know if my poor communication skills are causing my social anxiety, or the other way around. And it\031s seriously ruining my life, because I don\031t even know how to fix this or where to start. Or even what my fucking problem is. \n\nSome days I just want to off myself tbh, even though my life is objectively great outside of this. If I can\031t communicate my thoughts the way I want when I want, then what the hell is the point of anything? 2023-12-20
I live a very sad and lonely life. I have had a series of really difficult events, some more traumatic than others. I don\031t have a single friend, and I am a senior in high school. My days are spent alone in my house, doing as much school work as I can (I do independent study) and waiting for my mom to get home. I occasionally work on commissions or personal art. \n\nI have been having \034wonderful\035 dreams, where I have a friend that clicks really well with me. Sometimes they\031re an old friend, sometimes I have never seen them.. Then I wake up. When I wake up I feel worse than I ever have in nightmares, no matter how intense the nightmare. Does anyone else feel this way? 2023-12-19
I\031m so unmotivated in life. If it wasn\031t for my parents I\031d be gone a long time ago. I\031m young and i\031m in university so I should have a lot to look forward to but I don\031t. I don\031t see the point in life, I don\031t want to marry don\031t want kids and nothing really brings me happiness anymore. I used to be such a happy kid I don\031t know what happened. Life is also soooo tiring. Because i\031m so unmotivated and because nothing really interests me going to classes and following a course just gives me more stress and during classes I just think if it\031s really worth it. My parents also put a lot of pressure on me and among other things stress me out. You\031re supposed to feel at rest when you\031re home but I don\031t (not that toxic but kinda toxic household). My personal goal in life is to make money and \034save\035 my parents from our current situation. I don\031t even want to spend the money I would make on myself (cause again nothing would bring me joy so why would I spend money on things) I go to uni for my parents but I can\031t even study at home and they make me feel underappreciated, I have 4 other siblings which in my opinion is a lot. I feel like i\031m just a robot and number in this household. I\031ve never been in a relationship because I have a hard time feeling any other emotion than anger and sorrow. Don\031t get me wrong the classes I follow do interest me but not enough (I took a gap year because I didn\031t know what I wanted to major in and this major was the only one that interested me a little). I just always think how it would be easier if I didn\031t exist anymore but I couldn\031t do that to my parents. I know my parents love me but I just wish they\031d understand me, and i\031ve tried to make them understand but they apparently can\031t (they\031re very old fashioned and don\031t believe in mental illness) this was kind of a rant post but please if you guys have any tips or advice let me know <3 i really need it. 2023-12-20
I\031m a 20M that lives far away from home. It\031s just become apparent that Im not going home for Christmas for the first time.\n\n2023 marks the first year I did not hear happy birthday in person on my bday. 20th bday wooooo=\xaa=\xaa=\xaa\n\n2023 also marks the first time i get stood up on a first date. \n\nMy nan got cancer too.\n\nAt least i benched 225 and my grades are solid\n\nI honestly don\031t know who to turn to and what i would be turning to them for. Im feeling a mix of anger, resentment, hopelessness, and exhaustion. I can\031t tell if i want to drink or run the pain away 2023-12-19
There are two skin problems I am currently dealing with. One of them is manageable and hopefully on it's way out soon, the other I can likely do nothing or very little about at the time. These two things do a number on my self-esteem, and make me feel uneasy. I can't stand bright lights, and brightly lit rooms are even worse. The only way I can have a sense of comfort is by being in a dimly lit or dark room. I am constantly hooded when outside my home. I avoid eye contact and feel uneasy when people more than glance at me. I have been feeling this way for years now. My second problem that is usually a not very manageable condition, vitiligo, affects my hands, arms, and legs as well. So going outside without long pants and a hoodie at any time of the year is unthinkable for me. I am amazed at other people's ability to not feel like covering themselves 24/7. I can never feel at ease because of these two conditions I am currently suffering from. 2023-12-19
There\031s so many things going on in my head, and it\031s so hard for me to explain, because I have never in my life talked about these things to anyone. Since I was a kid, I was always shy and I feel like I missed out on a lot of things, for example relationships, there was a time where all my friends were getting into relationships and I never got into one, simply because I was young and stupid and couldn\031t comprehend that someone likes me. I always feel left out wherever I go and whatever I do, because im a quiet person and nobody ever cares what I have to say\n\nI feel so much pressure on myself, because I want to get rich, make money to support my family, but I feel so overwhelmed, I\031m only 20 and feel like im wasting my life away doing nothing all day. I have so many things I could be doing but I end up doing nothing and I hate myself for that. I\031m angry at myself for being the way that I am, can\031t get nothing done, I\031m shy and hate the way I look. All of this probably doesn\031t make sense, but I have to write it down since I have nobody to talk to.\n\nI have 3 assignments due in 3 weeks on a course I don\031t know anything about (im in 2nd year university), I cant even imagine myself working in this industry after I finish university. And it\031s so nice the fact that I\031m expected to know a lot about this subject, considering I am graduating in 2025, yet I barely know anything.\n\nOnly thing I enjoy these days is the gym\n\nI also asked out a girl a couple of months ago and got rejected, which is something I rarely do because, you guessed it, im shy, it\031s actually the first time I asked a girl out and yeah it kinda broke me when she said she doesn\031t like me, because me, being very stupid, waited a long time before telling her and in that time I fell more and more in love and yeah, but im trying to get over her.\n\nThere is so much more I can talk about but it\031s hard for me to formulate my thoughts, I wish I could be able to easily convey my thoughts into words, to make myself understood. \n\nThanks to whoever read this and apologies for not making sense just writing my thoughts 2023-12-19
I\031ve been in a trio in high school for seemingly forever of one other girl and one other guy. We always did stuff together and hung out outside school a lot. Recently they both told me that they had gotten together which was kinda a surprise, as while I expected the girl had a thing for the other guy I didn\031t realize it was mutual. They say that we can still be a trio and that we can still go out together and stuff but even so soon after getting together I can already feel distance growing between me and them. I\031ve told them both that they don\031t have to worry about me cause whoo really wants a third wheel anyway, and while they both swear up and down that it\031s not like that and that nothings changed I\031ve been in this situation with a different group before, and I lost connection with both of them. It\031s selfish of me, I should be happy for them but I wish it never happened. I just don\031t wanna get hurt again 2023-12-20
My ex caught the deepfakes I made with the ex colleague I liked and who I still find attractive. \nShe found them as she went through my pc, while I trusted her by giving her the password. And it\031s also not the first time as she already did the same with my phone and she thought I was cheating on her after she found some chats with this same ex colleague and other girls. \nI feel like I cheated on her anyway since I kept thing of other girls. \nI did like her, but never really loved her as much as she did, and she sensed it. \nI am so ashamed as my ex also sent the deepfakes to that my ex colleague.\nMy reputation & career could be ruined and I also recently lost my job as I was always late by procrastinating anything since the moment I opened my eyes in the morning. \nI feel like a monster and a disaster, and I feel so guilty about lying to her and myself. I can\031t really cope with these feelings and I really feel bad about it. \nSince the beginning of our relationship, I never felt really in love like she loved me, but I was still committed since I was afraid to hurt her and scared of being alone (did not seriously date anyone for 10 years before her).\nI feel like shit and my life is not going good, I\031m full of debts and I feel sad as I know could have done anything better, or maybe I didn\031t have the courage to say the truth to others and myself. \nI feel so guilty right now about ruining my life and others, and I feel like I don\031t wanna belong here anymore as I cannot control my worst self. \nDo you have any suggestions or thoughts? I need some advice since I feel like I\031ve never had control of my life and myself, despite a part of me knows I could do it and maybe restart everyone from the beginning with a new mindset. I really need to talk trough it since I\031m currently having very negative thoughts and having an hard time coping with all this situation. \nI feel there is something wrong with me and I need help, but I don\031t have any money to cover a professional therapy. 2023-12-20
I recently got prescribed Prozac and lithium for depression, anxiety and an eating disorder. I started taking them last week (5 days ago) and recently looked up people's experiences from withdrawal if they ever got off the drug. I'm not trying to have this stuff destroy my brain, do you think it would be safe for me to go off the meds since I'm not very far in to the process? 2023-12-20
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I hate my birthday. I know I didn't always hate my birthday, there's photo evidence of that. Cousins pulling me on a new sled, or reading on a new Kindle curled up on the couch, or grinning at the camera while covered in chocolate frosting. So no, I didn't always hate my birthday. I think that started around the time Mom wasn't home for my birthday because she was in the hospital with Nana and Aunt G a state away because they were both dying of cancer, which we didn't know at the time.\n\nMaybe it was later still after I buried Grandma and Nana and Aunt G all within a few short months of my birthday. My birthday is so close to Christmas that everyone was too lost in their grief to worry too much about my birthday. After all, I was a grown-up kid. I didn't want to be a burden. re not to ask for too much, need too much, because I didn't want to be a burden. \n\nMaybe it was later still, after I buried Grandma and Nana and Aunt G all within a few short months of my birthday. My birthday is so close to Christmas that everyone was too lost in their grief to worry too much about my birthday. After all, I was a grown-up kid. I didn't want to be a burden. \n\nMaybe it wasn't a specific year. Maybe it was a collection of years of being given "birthdaychristmas" presents, one word, one gift for two holidays. It says, "We're supposed to get you a birthday gift and a Christmas present, but since the two days are in the same week, one is good enough. You don't matter enough for us to think of another present for you." \n\nThere's a lot of maybes. There's also a fair amount of becauses. I hate my birthday because I don't remember the last time I had a birthday party. I stopped asking for one, which moved into asking to not have one. I could tell they were relieved. It was easier to convince myself I didn't want to have a birthday than face the truth that no one cared. I made new friends at college and I told them I just don't like my birthday. It works because it's over Christmas break. They don't see me holed up in my room for days before, sobbing into my pillow. \n\nIt's because every year older I get, I realize how many things I won't have Grandma, Nana, Aunt G, or Papa there for. They weren't there for my high school graduation. They won't be there for my college graduation, my wedding, the birth of my children, or every year older I turn. They say it gets easier, but it's been 8 years and it isn't easier. \n\nIt's because so many people wish me happy birthday and act like they care, but they don't give a fuck about me the other 365 days a year. It's because I can barely keep my head above water 365 days a year and people pretend they care but they don't. \n\nIt's because I didn't think I would live this long and I have done nothing worthwhile with my life. \n\nIt's because in 8 hours, I turn 20 years old. I will no longer be a teenager and have to decide what I want to do for the rest of my life. In 8 hours, I turn 20 years old. My biggest plan for the day? Get an oil change. The rest? Not be a burden to my family. Keep myself together long enough to lock myself in my room the rest of the day with a faked illness. Not make my mom or dad sad, because at least I have parents. Cry, for the little girl who loved getting to eat her horse-decorated cake and ride her new sled. Cry, for the teenager who missed out on birthdays, making other plans and "forgetting" it was her birthday. Cry, for the adult who will hopefully find someone who will celebrate her birthday. \n\nIt's because I wish I was that little girl again, with her horsey cake and her new red sled. Excited to rip shiny paper off of fun toys. Happy to see family members who lived far away, but infinitely closer than they are now. High off of sugar, asleep in Papa's lap. \n\nMaybe I have always hated my birthday. Maybe the little girl with her horse cake was just as sad the horse looked like Spirit from the movie, and not her horsey at home. Maybe she wanted a blue sled instead of red. Maybe I won't always hate my birthday, but the tradition shall remain, for at least one more year. 2023-12-19
Why do I (we?) tend to make stupid, self-destructive decisions? \nI know my Vision. I know the man I want to be. I know what I have to do to realize this vision. \nWhy do I still choose short-term pleasure that is destroying me and my potential? How to prevent this? \n 2023-12-19
At a certain point in my life during COVID I became a heavy drinker going through wine bottles like crazy every day, this gradually slowed down and I had a change of environment and just gotten out of a toxic relationship, I was also a heavy weed smoker at the time all this took place 2021, now my birth day came April 2022 and at the time I had only smoked weed once due to me experiencing dissociation, slowed brain processing, rumination, i developed an anxiety disorder and would have brain for majority of the time\n\nso for my birthday I decided that l'll do a couple xans and just relax with a mate since I couldn't touch alcohol or weed cause if the effects it'll have on instantly, the xans was chill no bad thing I could remember happened mentally that is, couple months later had a friends birth and at this point I was strict on myself to not drink or smoke weed and had been clean off those two for a while now.\n\nFriends birthday came and I had about half a pill left with me so I took that half everyone was drinking but me and another it came time for some shots and I decided I would one then one turned into many more it was a great night overall and the way I was feeling I though there wouldn't be any side effects the next, woke up no hangovers things seemed good but it wasn't tilli got to work that the brain fog dissociation kicked in and it took about two weeks for me to start feeling somewhat normal again, that was the last time l had "fun" and really enjoyed myself.\n\nFriends birthday came and I had about half a pill left with me so I took that half everyone was drinking but me and another it came time for some shots and I decided I would one then one turned into many more it was a great night overall and the way I was feeling ! though there wouldn't be any side effects the next, woke up no hangovers things seemed good but it wasn't till i got to work that the brain fog dissociation kicked in and it took about two weeks for me to start feeling somewhat normal again, that was the last time I had "fun" and really enjoyed myself.\n\nNow a year and and 8 months later I planning on doing one pill of Xanax cause I know what to expect mentally if there any side effects after l'm done l've booked a hotel for me and a couple of friends and the plan is to go clubbing, I would love to drink not a lot but at least 2 drinks something to feel a little buzz but l'm just worried if it'll have an instant effect on me. And my note I don't have an anxiety disorder that's why I feel like Xanax wouldn't be so bad and I can handle it I'm currently 22 years of age and I really want to have fun this New Year's Eve\nIf someone has an explanation as to why this happens or if I can do anything to prevent such effects please let me know\n\n\nP.s. I\031ve struggled with PTSD and other mental issues due to a toxic relationship and a messy childhood 2023-12-19
I just always lack feelings even when my uncle died i didnt feel much is that normal, if not whats going on? 2023-12-19
I'm going to the doctor in a few days and I think I need to just be honest.. that being said I'm nervous of that happening so I'm just curious 2023-12-20
\nI feel guilty that I even feel so sad all the time. Others have much harder lives than me and I guess that\031s what has made it hard for me to accept I may need help from a therapist to talk out my feelings. From an outsider my life may look good but lately I\031ve been feeling bad all the time. I\031m usually so happy during the holiday season and I don\031t feel that at all this year which is depressing. Just a few things I\031ve noticed over the last few weeks:\n\n"less interest in being social \n"short temper\n"crying when I\031m usually not an emotional person\n"either trouble sleeping or sleeping all day \n"upset I don\031t have more friends \n"emptiness \n"constant headaches \n"really tired after a full night of sleep \n"no interest in romantic relationships currently \n"easily annoyed \n"feeling like my life isn\031t good enough \n\nThis has only been going on for a few weeks. I\031m very unfamiliar and truthfully uncomfortable with the idea of therapy. However I feel like it might be getting to that point where I need to talk to someone about my problems. I\031m reaching a point of big change in my life and I\031m worried that this needs to be resolved before then I\031ll be graduating college in a few months. Right now I feel like I just wake up and do what I\031m supposed to do then go to sleep and repeat everyday. I really don\031t feel any joy in what I do I really just feel numb. Any guidance would be appreciated because I\031m very unfamiliar in conversations around mental health. 2023-12-20
My friend has been on a tumultuous journey over the past few years. It all began when he went through a painful breakup four years ago, discovering his girlfriend had been cheating on him. That blow set off a chain reaction. Over the subsequent three years, he gradually alluded to us about the inner turmoil caused by his family's dysfunctional dynamics and the mental health struggles of his siblings. This emotional turmoil reached its peak in 2022 when he withdrew from all social contact and isolated himself due to severe depression (we assume it was depression, as he never explicitly stated so).\r \n\r \nAround a year ago, we managed to reconnect with him, and he rejoined our friend group. However, in this time away, something shifted within him. He's become more sensitive, easily irritated, and oddly serious about things. Light-hearted jokes or playful teasing now seem to agitate him visibly. Moreover, he's started sharing rather unconventional beliefs, such as expressing a desire to become a "radical Christian" or discussing fringe internet content as if it were factual (e.g saying the 4chan shitpost "frazzled.rip" is a real video, or making statements like "humans never went to outer space"). What's more concerning is his increasing tendency to assert these beliefs as absolute truth and getting defensive if questioned or fact-checked.\r \n\r \nDespite these shifts, he's still keeping up with his daily life: working, dating, hitting the gym, and engaging socially. From the outside, he seems "normal," but as a close friend, I've noticed these changes that raise some concerns. 2023-12-19
I (22ftm) have a wonderful partner (21nb) who I love very much. However I've run into a problem which feels very silly but I can't let it go. As the title says I constantly feel a little bit inferior to them. We're both autistic and while I have some points in my IQ test that showed that I was slightly below average, they're suspected to be well above average. I know that IQ tests are kind off bullshit but I can't let it go. I had a hard time and high school and then spent 2.5 years trying to get my full grades so hearing about how smart they naturally are feels like an insult. \n\nNow, here's a slightly silly part. I enjoy playing mobile games, I have a lot or work and it's just a fun thing to do. Sometimes my partner downloads the same game and surpasses me in those game by a long shot. For example; I downloaded Pokemon GO again in October starting at level 27. I'm currently at level 29, but my partner who downloaded it about a week ago is already at level 24 (from a completely new account). It's a silly thing to get upset over but it's happened multiple times now and it makes the games be less fun for me. They also hyperfocus on the games and I think it interferes with their ability to do the housework they're supposed to do. \n\nI don't need to be the b3st at everything all the time but now I feel inferior and can't let it go. I apologise for any weird wordings, English is not my first language.\n\nTL;DR; I feel like my partner is superior to me and I feel awful about it. 2023-12-20
I recently attended the US Army Airborne course thinking it would help me get rid of my fear of heights, but it only made it worse. I can\031t board a normal plane flight anymore without my body shaking, heart racing, breathing getting heavy, and miniature flashbacks to jumping. Even the thought of boarding an airplane now makes me really anxious. I recently flew from Georgia over to Virginia and on the flight, as the plane got higher and higher, the more intense my anxiety became and I had to try really hard to calm myself down. I\031ve never had a problem with flying up until now. Any veterans here ever had the same issue after attending Airborne? How do I stop my body from freaking out on a normal plane ride? It\031s almost as if my body is anticipating to jump even though I\031m not. 2023-12-20
This is a little.. I don't know. Rant? Story? It's about me figuring out that "Triggers" are real. Not sure if it would be interesting to any of you, but I figured it was an experience worth writing down.. so here it is, regardless.\n\n>This is going to sound a bit bad, but for a long time I really kind of bought into the idea that "Triggers" were something that more or less just.. weren't real. That or that they were what "oversensitive people called anything that made them upset" as my parents and other family members more or less told me. This rhetoric was brought up in the sort of disparaging conversations I would hear bashing the concepts of "safe spaces" and this proclamation that the newer generations were just emotionally fragile and the worst generations. Of course, I didn't believe that new generations were weak. "New generations" at the time being "my generation" of millenials, I learned quickly how out of touch and.. almost lacking empathy that so many in older generations were. I also never acted as though Triggers weren't real towards people.. and when someone brought up triggers, I accepted what they said but couldn't empathize with it. It felt like something they had told themselves in their depression.. like some invented additional suffering to me. I guess there was this part of me that was still influenced by it all these years later. Maybe because, of all my trauma, I hadn't really understood the experience of what I would now think of as a trigger in a very long time. (In large part because I moved away from all the reminders and repressed most of my childhood.) Well.. there are reasons you don't analyze yourself and believe it to be objective. \n> \n>So flash forward to last Thanksgiving. After 14 years of being a guardian to my father who lost who he was due to the strokes and had turned into someone full of misery and rage, someone else finally took over the guardianship for me. I had spent the previous 6 years so stressed and pained by who my dad had turned into that I was throwing up in the parkinglot of the facility my dad was in.. and on my way to visit my sister at her friends house, I had to drive past that facility. I felt the cold sweat and the numbness in my fingers as I drove by.. just like every time I visited him for years. My dad wasn't in that building, he was in another state. There was nothing there.. and even if he was in there, I wasn't going to go inside. There was nothing for me to panic about. \n> \n>Later that night I had mentioned how I was still getting nausea and sweats by just driving past the place to my sister and her friend. (Her friend is like family to us.) The friend was like, "I'm sorry the road to my house is so triggering." She was completely genuine when she said that and we just sort of laughed it off and I said, "It's ok!". It kind of hit me that she was right. The driving up and that feeling that hit my gut every time I saw that exit number. That feeling seeing the hallway to my dad's room. The way I felt my body go cold every time I heard a skype ringtone for the last decade. (My dad can't talk, so we use skype.) All of that.. Those were triggers. Suddenly, the word felt really appropriate. It reminds of of a quote for George Carson. "'Shell Shock!' Almost sounds like the guns themselves." It really is like someone presses a trigger and let loose a rush suffering I undoubtedly will feel for years. Just like it was that way for me for the first 10 years away from my childhood home. Of course triggers were real.. and of course I had them too, with all the things that have happened in my life.\n\nI'm not sure exactly why I wrote this. Maybe it will help someone else come to terms in some small way with the reality that they too can have triggers and that there isn't shame in it. Regardless.. I'm not sure how or if this will change anything for me. Maybe it will be one more thing though that reminds me that my feelings aren't as unique and unfixable as my depression and trauma say they are.\n\n&#x200B; 2023-12-19
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1 How to deal with suicidal thoughts? They're getting harder to ignore.
2 So I need help
3 I lost my close friend with bad closure
4 I only know how to function when I\031m busy
5 face (tw derealisation)
6 my thoughts are loud. hard to write, any tips for self care? this is embarrassing
7 idk what to do (tw mention of sh)
8 Seem to be going nowhere with therapy
9 Been in completely lost in touch of reality. How to get get back ?
10 Person in good mental space dating a person dating someone with mild BPD and possibly more?
11 Aversion to thanking
12 How to stop toxic nostalgia and live presently.
13 Not a good day
14 I hate it when people spread false rumors about me! It hurts like hell and gives me insecurities about myself!
15 I have a question!
16 Read .. change for our world Ladies and Gentlemen,
17 How to learn empathy as a (probably) sociopath
18 I was raised in toxic House and my father died
19 Need Help please: Nowadays I feel stressed, Overthinking & Anxious also becoming sensitive over little inconveniences
20 A message for everyone
21 It's tough growing up without a dad, later finding him with daughters of his own with grandkids. Then seeing him telling them all how he is so proud. As a kid, I think we seek approval when it's not there. I'm now 48 and sure it's somehow messed me up.
22 What is this and how can I get more resilient?
23 I need someone to help.
24 How to stop throbbing headache when stressed
25 I really need a diagnosis at this point, but I don't know how?
26 What do you do when you suspect someone\031s depressed?
27 What is wrong with me.
28 Send help!!!
29 When did it all start for you?
30 Is it normal to think about suicide?
31 My boyfriend is suicidal and refuses help.
32 My IQ being much lower than i expected makes me hate myself
33 Urge to bite stuff
34 This time of year sucks
35 I want to be loved
36 It is seems that everything is going down
37 I (22F)'s family is even more upset and disappointed now that they know I'm suicidal
38 Tell me something you needed to hear
39 Should I go to the ER? New medication
40 I accidently took double of my dose for zoloft
41 Depression, anxiety and apathy?
42 Am I depressed, am I normal, what's wrong with me if anything?
43 My mom thinks I\031m schizophrenic, my brother thinks I have DID
44 How to deal with a depressed and anxious parent?
45 How to forgive yourself
46 I feel misunderstood
47 I have thoughts of suicide
48 I don't want to procrastinate but I literally can't stop.
49 I\031m lonely and I have manic depression
50 Mental Health/life
51 Coming back home has made everything much harder
52 What\031s wrong with me?
53 Advice needed regarding anxiety
54 How the hell do I become confident
55 HOW TO HAVE MOTIVATION
56 I took 25mg of Sertraline last Tuesday night and experienced nausea and loss of appetite. I immediately stopped taking it, but the side effects still persist even today.
57 No one cares
58 I struggle to have feelings for anyone. Can anyone help me figure this out?
59 Please help me it's 4am
60 Dealing with the aftermath of traumatic experiences.
61 Why am i afraid/ unable to have an identity? Is this healthy?
62 Special needs school
63 Can someone please help me?
64 I am 18 and i regret being 18
65 I (22F)'s family is even more upset and disappointed now that they know I'm suicidal
66 I have become 18 today but I regret it
67 I have friends but they never text me or ask me to hangout.
68 Read .. change for our world
69 Depression life long
70 I'm tired.
71 Anyone else have literally no friends?
72 Lost a friend today..
73 I feel like I\031m on a downward spiral and idk what to do
74 Feels like I'm trapped in quicksand
75 What are some ways to get out of a depressive episode?
Breakthrough Breakthrough
Why shouldnt I just kill myself? Why shouldnt I just kill myself?
Questioning my diagnosis Questioning my diagnosis
How is it so hard to not want to be judged How is it so hard to not want to be judged
Struggling to live with parents in a dysfunctional marriage Struggling to live with parents in a dysfunctional marriage
I don't know how to *feel* I don't know how to *feel*
I feel alienated from this world and from any person. It makes me feel really lonely. Nothing is worth an investment, as we all will return to dust. I feel alienated from this world and from any person. It makes me feel really lonely. Nothing is worth an investment, as we all will return to dust.
Struggling with depersonalization. Struggling with depersonalization.
(TW for sh) I\031m moving out to live with my partner, but I\031m feeling terrible about it (TW for sh) I\031m moving out to live with my partner, but I\031m feeling terrible about it
Faking Disorders Anxiety/Rant Faking Disorders Anxiety/Rant
Personal question about domestic violence and mental illness in relationships Personal question about domestic violence and mental illness in relationships
Help.. It's unbearable (OCD) Help.. It's unbearable (OCD)
I have been gas lit into psychosis. I need advice please I have been gas lit into psychosis. I need advice please
What do I do? What do I do?
I\031m a horrible person. I\031m a horrible person.
I think I just cheated on my gf I think I just cheated on my gf
A Message To Everybody, And Support/Encouragement d\017 A Message To Everybody, And Support/Encouragement d\017
Risperidone Wiithdrawal symptoms have lasted a year Risperidone Wiithdrawal symptoms have lasted a year
Idk what to name this any help or advice appreciated Idk what to name this any help or advice appreciated
What is everyone's one song that helps you through a tough day What is everyone's one song that helps you through a tough day
Anyone up for a call? Anyone up for a call?
Describe this person? Describe this person?
I need help to stop overthinking everything I need help to stop overthinking everything
How to deal with anxiety when family has covid and 3 are high risk including myself? How to deal with anxiety when family has covid and 3 are high risk including myself?
i think im feeling too much anxiety i think im feeling too much anxiety
Why do I have such a strong desire to hurt animals? Why do I have such a strong desire to hurt animals?
i think my scars are gross. i think my scars are gross.
I need help I need help
is it normal to not feel anything? is it normal to not feel anything?
I'm not sure if I'm myself anymore I'm not sure if I'm myself anymore
I feel like I will end up disabled I feel like I will end up disabled
I feel like a failure& I feel like a failure&
Tired of being lonely Tired of being lonely
Tired and Barely Holding On Tired and Barely Holding On
Don\031t know what to do now Don\031t know what to do now
Rant on the subjectivity of Diagnoses Rant on the subjectivity of Diagnoses
What is wrong with me i cannot figure it out and it is getting bad What is wrong with me i cannot figure it out and it is getting bad
Im planning it now Im planning it now
Suffering Silently Suffering Silently
Don\031t know how the hell I got like this Don\031t know how the hell I got like this
God hates me. God hates me.
Why is trying to stay positive a constant struggle. Why is trying to stay positive a constant struggle.
Think my meds are severely dehydrating me Does anyone experience this? Think my meds are severely dehydrating me Does anyone experience this?
comment something you need to hear from your mum/dad rn comment something you need to hear from your mum/dad rn
Help dealing with BPD Help dealing with BPD
How do I stop letting overthinking/anxiety control my actions? How do I stop letting overthinking/anxiety control my actions?
Boundaries and Manipulation Boundaries and Manipulation
If there is one thing you need help with your mental health right now, what would it be? If there is one thing you need help with your mental health right now, what would it be?
I need to gain weight any advice??? I need to gain weight any advice???
I feel like I\031ve been deluding myself into thinking I\031m good enough I feel like I\031ve been deluding myself into thinking I\031m good enough
Going through a lot lately Going through a lot lately
I think I have schizophrenia I think I have schizophrenia
I had a manic episode and ran off my friends I had a manic episode and ran off my friends
I hope I will find purpuse I hope I will find purpuse
What to do when you truly miss someone you can't ever have in this life? What to do when you truly miss someone you can't ever have in this life?
I am so sorry&again! I am so sorry&again!
What am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to do?
I am going to speak to a doctor about my mental health on Monday. Something I should have done 20 years ago. What can I expect? I am going to speak to a doctor about my mental health on Monday. Something I should have done 20 years ago. What can I expect?
I have suppressed my mental health for so long and now everything feels likes it's blowing up I have suppressed my mental health for so long and now everything feels likes it's blowing up
Ending it soon Ending it soon
posted a picture of me without my permission posted a picture of me without my permission
Mom's worried about me Mom's worried about me
Disorders related to obsessive ritualistic cleaning? Disorders related to obsessive ritualistic cleaning?
It is possible to be depressed since birth? It is possible to be depressed since birth?
idk what to do (pt2) idk what to do (pt2)
I thought I was getting better TW: SI I thought I was getting better TW: SI
I'm still depressed on vacation (sorry if I used the wrong tag, don't know how to work reddit) I'm still depressed on vacation (sorry if I used the wrong tag, don't know how to work reddit)
What do I do if my memory is getting much worse? What do I do if my memory is getting much worse?
Can\031t forgive myself Can\031t forgive myself
can\031t stop thinking about my ADHD assessment and could really use some insight can\031t stop thinking about my ADHD assessment and could really use some insight
I am in need of friends and i want a lover I am in need of friends and i want a lover
How can I get calories off my mind? How can I get calories off my mind?
Welp...that was NUTS Welp...that was NUTS
Is there any research or even acknowledgment of \030four culture kid\031 in literature or scientific knowledge? Is there any research or even acknowledgment of \030four culture kid\031 in literature or scientific knowledge?
How can I move past my brother\031s suicide attempts How can I move past my brother\031s suicide attempts
How to get a diagnosis? How to get a diagnosis?
this is both the worst and best month of my life. this is both the worst and best month of my life.
I am completely unbothered by basically everything I am completely unbothered by basically everything
Brothers indecent exposure 20 years ago Brothers indecent exposure 20 years ago
Panic attacks when in public Panic attacks when in public
Bowel/stomach issues day after a bad day Bowel/stomach issues day after a bad day
Father is struggling with depression. Need advice Father is struggling with depression. Need advice
39, make, UK 39, make, UK
How to get less jealous? How to get less jealous?
I can't force myself to do anything... I can't force myself to do anything...
Having an anxiety attack rn Having an anxiety attack rn
Bro I have literally dont have a single friend. Literally I never get any texts or asked to hangout. Bro I have literally dont have a single friend. Literally I never get any texts or asked to hangout.
suicide hotline opinion suicide hotline opinion
How to lower stress How to lower stress
How to take a break How to take a break
Why do I get a ton of energy right before a depressive episode? Why do I get a ton of energy right before a depressive episode?
How to forget How to forget
I just need to vent about a friend I just need to vent about a friend
I feel like I'm split and I don't know how to handle it. I feel like I'm split and I don't know how to handle it.
Love for men? Love for men?
Just need a rant about life Just need a rant about life
I think I\031m being stalked for the past 1 year to point it affecting my mental health I think I\031m being stalked for the past 1 year to point it affecting my mental health
I am very scared of things that could happen& I am very scared of things that could happen&
Calling highly sensitive people! Calling highly sensitive people!
Was this a panick attack Was this a panick attack
Gf is having acute delirious puff. I'm worried, deeply sad and helpless Gf is having acute delirious puff. I'm worried, deeply sad and helpless
Yesterday I had probably the worst day of my life Yesterday I had probably the worst day of my life
Struggling Struggling
My situation My situation
Medication and protein Medication and protein
Can you tell a therapist about ideations? Can you tell a therapist about ideations?
are there actually people who enjoy being alive..? are there actually people who enjoy being alive..?
I either think about going back 10 years in time or death. I either think about going back 10 years in time or death.
Obsessions related to gender equality Obsessions related to gender equality
I feel so drained I feel so drained
Supporting a friend through an ED Supporting a friend through an ED
Why do I want to be mentally I\031ll Why do I want to be mentally I\031ll
I was almost murdered by someone at my old job. I wish they succeeded I was almost murdered by someone at my old job. I wish they succeeded
Nightly nightmares Nightly nightmares
is this okay or should i check better? is this okay or should i check better?
I am really confused of myself I am really confused of myself
Panic attack in an English exam during exam conditions (UK) Panic attack in an English exam during exam conditions (UK)
Your examples of how psychotherapy has helped or not helped :confused: Your examples of how psychotherapy has helped or not helped :confused:
How can I help my sister feel better? How can I help my sister feel better?
How do i get over anxious attachment How do i get over anxious attachment
Why am I always in a rush? Why am I always in a rush?
How do I cry and let out my built up stress/emotions? How do I cry and let out my built up stress/emotions?
Why do men struggle to open up about certain issues? (Family etc) Why do men struggle to open up about certain issues? (Family etc)
Trying to rebuild my house after a storm Trying to rebuild my house after a storm
Reality Vs Imagination Reality Vs Imagination
Why can\031t I have the arguments I imagine? Why can\031t I have the arguments I imagine?
I think I might be a sociopath but it's fine it's not really my problem I think I might be a sociopath but it's fine it's not really my problem
Self-worth quandary Self-worth quandary
Why Do I feel flat and depressed after achieving a goal? Why Do I feel flat and depressed after achieving a goal?
Someone able to chat? Someone able to chat?
I put a knife to my throat I put a knife to my throat
I feel like im losing my faith in humanity and it hurts. I feel like im losing my faith in humanity and it hurts.
my dog just died in his sleep and idk what to do my dog just died in his sleep and idk what to do
My girlfriends weird cousin My girlfriends weird cousin
Really want to get better Really want to get better
It's happening again It's happening again
Flatshare situation is affecting my mental health. What shoudl I do? Flatshare situation is affecting my mental health. What shoudl I do?
Should I tell my therapist why I want to end sessions with him? Should I tell my therapist why I want to end sessions with him?
I daydream too hard I daydream too hard
I'm hopeless and confused I'm hopeless and confused
dpdr triggers, pls help dpdr triggers, pls help
I need someone to talk to I need someone to talk to
I have a huge urge to argue with people I have a huge urge to argue with people
I base my self worth/happiness on amount of friends i have or people texting or chasing me. How do i stop hating my self? I base my self worth/happiness on amount of friends i have or people texting or chasing me. How do i stop hating my self?
how to deal with hopelessness how to deal with hopelessness
got my first loan from the bank and now i feel trapped got my first loan from the bank and now i feel trapped
Is a \034there\031s worst things in the world\035 mentality good? Is a \034there\031s worst things in the world\035 mentality good?
My boyfriend dumped me because of my mental health issues, and I can't help thinking it's all my fault My boyfriend dumped me because of my mental health issues, and I can't help thinking it's all my fault
Why is it so hard to find childfree men who are ok with a career oriented woman who wants to be a pilot? It feels like I\031ll never find true love. Am I doomed? Why is it so hard to find childfree men who are ok with a career oriented woman who wants to be a pilot? It feels like I\031ll never find true love. Am I doomed?
Needing Advice Needing Advice
Embarrassed to be a American Embarrassed to be a American
Depersonalization after weed 18M Depersonalization after weed 18M
Having a breakdown because of my college grade and i dont know what to do Having a breakdown because of my college grade and i dont know what to do
In my 30s, still influenced by peers? Why? In my 30s, still influenced by peers? Why?
I worry about being a good person I worry about being a good person
Im starting to wonder if im a narcissist. Im starting to wonder if im a narcissist.
AITA for what I did? AITA for what I did?
Hopefully you'll find interest. Hopefully you'll find interest.
I major in Pharmacy and I have a girlfriend. My psychologist told me that bc of those things, it's very unlikely I have autism or OCD. Thoughts? I major in Pharmacy and I have a girlfriend. My psychologist told me that bc of those things, it's very unlikely I have autism or OCD. Thoughts?
Sometimes you don\031t know who you really have until later Sometimes you don\031t know who you really have until later
I wish I could tell my parents:( I wish I could tell my parents:(
I wanna withdraw from my course but parents won't let me I wanna withdraw from my course but parents won't let me
Advice needed Advice needed
My mother makes me suicidal My mother makes me suicidal
I don\031t understand what\031s wrong with me I don\031t understand what\031s wrong with me
Mental issues as a programmer Mental issues as a programmer
I've finally turned into a machine I've finally turned into a machine
I can't do this for that much longer. I can't wait 3+ more years. I can't do this for that much longer. I can't wait 3+ more years.
how to heal from psychological abuse? how to heal from psychological abuse?
I Genuinely think I may be Dangerous I Genuinely think I may be Dangerous
Here's my promotional idea for improving people's mental health with journaling. Here's my promotional idea for improving people's mental health with journaling.
been posting a lot about my experience with a narcissist because i desperately need validation and other people\031s thoughts so i\031m just gonna post some shit i wrote in my notebook, just writing down how i\031m feeling been posting a lot about my experience with a narcissist because i desperately need validation and other people\031s thoughts so i\031m just gonna post some shit i wrote in my notebook, just writing down how i\031m feeling
When does it get better? When does it get better?
Not pretty enough Not pretty enough
I don't know how to ask for help. I don't know how to ask for help.
I can\031t stop hating myself for being short I can\031t stop hating myself for being short
I don't know what's going on I don't know what's going on
I don't want to speak too soon... But.... I don't want to speak too soon... But....
Constant pain Constant pain
Dealing with Rumination while focusing on tasks? Dealing with Rumination while focusing on tasks?
I moved and it feels like the person I was and the person I am now are in a cage match I moved and it feels like the person I was and the person I am now are in a cage match
I\031m drowning I\031m drowning
How do I stop the intrusive thoughts How do I stop the intrusive thoughts
Idk what\031s wrong w me Idk what\031s wrong w me
My Mother just threatened to kick me out because I don\031t have Schizophrenia and my siblings are with her My Mother just threatened to kick me out because I don\031t have Schizophrenia and my siblings are with her
Mentally and physically exhausted Mentally and physically exhausted
What is wrong with me? What is wrong with me?
Why do my intrusive thoughts feel like they\031re screaming at me and why does my head feel like it\031s getting squeezed to the point of being crushed? Why do my intrusive thoughts feel like they\031re screaming at me and why does my head feel like it\031s getting squeezed to the point of being crushed?
Just lost a 4th relative to suicide Just lost a 4th relative to suicide
I think I may have ADHD but don't know what to do. I think I may have ADHD but don't know what to do.
having a hard time in college and would love some insight having a hard time in college and would love some insight
How do you deal with feeling like youre never enough? How do you deal with feeling like youre never enough?
I accepted who I am I accepted who I am
How to know if the psychiatrist is good? How to know if the psychiatrist is good?
Obsession with thinking that I will run out of things to say and do Obsession with thinking that I will run out of things to say and do
How do you deal with thinking about how much more life you have left to live? How do you deal with thinking about how much more life you have left to live?
Life feels so pointless Life feels so pointless
I\031m emotionally detached to a lot things I\031m emotionally detached to a lot things
I don\031t know what to put for this fucking title I don\031t know what to put for this fucking title
Endings, I hate this word.... Endings, I hate this word....
110 Female duloxetine users: Do/did you have sexual dysfunction as a side effect?
210 Is it normal to hyperfocus on someone ?
310 I don\031t know what to do
410 How do you adjust your morning and night routines when you\031re having an episode?
510 Habit with BDD (body dysmorphia)
610 It feels like im losing my mind.
710 Mocked about my panic attacks
810 I have no sense of self
910 I can't stop cutting myself
101 Why do i feel like im a bad person
111 Im the opposite of living for the weekend
121 I see zero point in living
131 Professional Athletes & Every Day People
141 Should I support someone who faces similar struggles by telling them I understand?
151 afraid of antidepressants
161 i enter the "messianic age" in 2024, and i am scared of what could do to my mental health.
171 Im so mentally ill but I can't take my meds cuz the side effects are so bad
181 Any kind person would wanna chat?
191 I need input on my moms weird bf.
201 Taking medication consistently
211 Found a message from a teacher who encouraged me to commit suicide at 10 years old
221 I genuinely don\031t believe there\031s people that don\031t want to kill themselves
231 Relationship with certain numbers
241 How do you build a support system from scratch from non-relatives?
251 I\031m not doing ok
261 Exhausted within myself
271 i feel like a terrible mom
281 Excited but Nervous
291 Fake rumors tarnished me and exiled me from friends and family.
301 Question about mental abuse
311 Trouble with believing/understanding psychiatric evaluation results
321 Nobody takes me seriously
331 It feels like im losing my mind.
341 I'm fine but im actually not fine
351 Does anyone wonder where the people they met at the mental hospital are now.
361 I am not a good person..
371 I need advice desperately.
381 Waste of space
391 how do I stop being so mean
401 How to deal with worry and anger towards aging mom?
411 My behavior is getting out of control and I feel very lost (21M). I face these challenges almost every day, and it's very exhausting. I can't seem to function properly. I am not necessarily sad; I am just overwhelmed with uncertainty and I don't know how to approach life.
421 Mental health worsened in college
431 what my teacher told me.
441 My life is in shambles
451 Worst birthday ever
461 The house I live in feels like a prison
471 I feel like I'm going insane
481 I have been feeling dizzy for almost a year and a half because of anxiety
491 I started and I\031m afraid to stop
501 I want to care.
511 Gf's tik tok algorithm foreshadowing the end
521 How can disclosing to coworkers that you have depression be used against you?
531 Is it normal I want to "go back to my pain"?
541 Unsure of help
551 On Zoloft. Coworker accused me of using drugs on the job to my bosses. That I\031m \034too mellow.\035
561 I feel like my life is over
571 In a bit over twelve hrs I pick up a moving truck and I'm so tired and distracted I can't pack
581 Does anyone else feel more alone trying to find support on here as a last resort?
591 Can someone please help him! (Suicidal)
601 Potential change in diagnosis, unsure how to feel
611 I need to bleed&
621 NEED HELP, PORN AND MASTURBATION ADDICTION
631 I don't know what's wrong with me
641 Virtual obsessive disorders.
651 It gets better
661 Chills and sweating when listening to music, studying and thinking or doing something good. Why?
671 I have had the same paranoia for a couple months now and I don\031t know how to let it go.
681 I really need help
691 How to decompress and deal with mental fatigue
701 Can somebody please help this German guy (suicidal?)
711 What were your personal experiences with SSRI's/antidepressants?
721 Residential inpatient programs in New England
731 I suspect my loved one may have bipolar disorder
741 Im considering going to the hospital, but I don't know if it's a good idea.
751 How do i tell my therapist i sh?
76 Feeling safety again
77 What do you think is wrong with me?
78 I just want some friends please
79 Discomfort/disgust in my own emotions
80 Need to vent
81 Struggling with mental health lately and made this video, I hope you like it.
82 how do I bring up suicidal thoughts to my psychologist?
83 Something I Can't Stop Obsessing About
84 I might have BPD
85 Dealing with PTSD
86 Does it ever get better?
87 I think I finally found happiness in my life, and it makes me feel worse than ever?
88 What could be going on with my wife?
89 How do you help someone depressed? What little things can they do to make them feel at least a little bit better?
90 My mind is torturing me
91 Ssri vs tryciclic ads
92 Mental Health
93 Finally feeling regulated. Keep pushing!
94 What could be happening in her head, please help me.
95 Im losing it
96 I can't take much more of this.
97 DAE feel irritated with the celebrities moaning their struggles with Mental health? Like they have access to resources, therapies to address them but play the victim. On the plus side it does bring these issues to light but on the flip side, it does kind of takes the focus away from us.
98 Hey guys, is there any way to get back the feeling you deserve to live and deserve to be loved?
99 Had this traumatized me to the point of dissociating?
100 Songs that make you cry? Bit of a vent too.
Why am I constanly thinking about cutting myself Why am I constanly thinking about cutting myself
If you went to a mental health facility, what was your experience like when you went back to regular life? If you went to a mental health facility, what was your experience like when you went back to regular life?
When I\031m stressed please read When I\031m stressed please read
I'm afraid of online culture ruining my life. I'm afraid of online culture ruining my life.
I hate my life and i can't take it anymore I hate my life and i can't take it anymore
How to help a friend who\031s developing hallucinations? How to help a friend who\031s developing hallucinations?
Feeling desparate about studying Feeling desparate about studying
Is the occasional use of cocaine worse for your health than the occasional use of alcohol? Is the occasional use of cocaine worse for your health than the occasional use of alcohol?
i tried to end my life yesterday i tried to end my life yesterday
I am prescribed Suboxone & Clonazepam I am prescribed Suboxone & Clonazepam
Short survey on the relationship between overcontrolled personality and vulnerable narcissism (moderator approved) Short survey on the relationship between overcontrolled personality and vulnerable narcissism (moderator approved)
Any book recommendations for older immigrants who don't take mental health seriously? Any book recommendations for older immigrants who don't take mental health seriously?
why do I keep feeling like this? why do I keep feeling like this?
is it possible to be aware you\031re in psychosis? is it possible to be aware you\031re in psychosis?
Should I have done group therapy program? Should I have done group therapy program?
I'm over 30 with no career, and I feel like an incredible loser I'm over 30 with no career, and I feel like an incredible loser
What can cause loss memory ? What can cause loss memory ?
How to get rid of loneliness? How to get rid of loneliness?
Feeling low and started to see stuff. Feeling low and started to see stuff.
I feel so emotionally constipated. I feel so emotionally constipated.
Need Help finding myself again Need Help finding myself again
My sister has a problem and I don't know what it is My sister has a problem and I don't know what it is
Why is everything so loud Why is everything so loud
Seasonal depression hitting hard Seasonal depression hitting hard
Is There Something About You, Your Behavior, Or Life That You Struggle With? Is There Something About You, Your Behavior, Or Life That You Struggle With?
am i crazy? am i crazy?
Anxiety, Panic, fear? Can someone realte to this :)? Anxiety, Panic, fear? Can someone realte to this :)?
I'm scared I'm dying I'm scared I'm dying
There is something I need to get off my chest but I'm scared if I text it out, I'll jinx myself and bad things will happen with what I'm concerned about There is something I need to get off my chest but I'm scared if I text it out, I'll jinx myself and bad things will happen with what I'm concerned about
Not Crying when experiencing death. Not Crying when experiencing death.
How do you force yourself to do things? How do you force yourself to do things?
Help me please! Help me please!
It\031s been 2 months since I\031ve seen a friend It\031s been 2 months since I\031ve seen a friend
Tech Paranoia and Thought Broadcasting is Torturing Me Tech Paranoia and Thought Broadcasting is Torturing Me
Graduating on tuesday, but Im not happy. Graduating on tuesday, but Im not happy.
Question on my anixtey Question on my anixtey
I don\031t know what to do I don\031t know what to do
i need some advice. i need some advice.
Sometimes I don't feel like a "real" human Sometimes I don't feel like a "real" human
I have friends but they never text me or ask me to hangout. I have friends but they never text me or ask me to hangout.
Vent?? / Panic attacks, sleep deprivation & low feelings Vent?? / Panic attacks, sleep deprivation & low feelings
Loving God isn't supposed to feel like this Loving God isn't supposed to feel like this
U should always assume someone has it worse than u U should always assume someone has it worse than u
Oh god.. The voices are back. Oh god.. The voices are back.
Hearing voices Hearing voices
Is it normal to fixate on an imaginary fantasy world you created for years? Is it normal to fixate on an imaginary fantasy world you created for years?
I\031m hoping for help understanding my diagnosis I\031m hoping for help understanding my diagnosis
i never wanna leave my house again i never wanna leave my house again
Talk to me Talk to me
I think my mom is the root of my anxiety.. I think my mom is the root of my anxiety..
Mental Breakdown? Mental Breakdown?
COMMON MENTAL HEALTH MISCONCEPTIONS COMMON MENTAL HEALTH MISCONCEPTIONS
I feel emotions too strongly. How do I let them out without hurting myself? I feel emotions too strongly. How do I let them out without hurting myself?
Please just tell me that it gets better. I'm on the verge of having a mental breakdown. Please just tell me that it gets better. I'm on the verge of having a mental breakdown.
For those who feel like they have no point in life& For those who feel like they have no point in life&
How do you heal your inner child without therapy? How do you heal your inner child without therapy?
can i refuse partial hospitalization at 17? can i refuse partial hospitalization at 17?
I'm starting to hear things I'm starting to hear things
What is the best and cheapest way to get diagnosed? What is the best and cheapest way to get diagnosed?
Why do people not like me? Why do people not like me?
How can I be happy around people How can I be happy around people
im losing grasp over reality im losing grasp over reality
I waited too long I waited too long
I have an unhealthy obsessions with someone and I don't know what to do I have an unhealthy obsessions with someone and I don't know what to do
idk whats wrong with me idk whats wrong with me
ADHD-induced fatigue, depression-induced fatigue,medication-induced fatigue or another medical condition? ADHD-induced fatigue, depression-induced fatigue,medication-induced fatigue or another medical condition?
Am I losing it, despite being completely aware? Am I losing it, despite being completely aware?
Job seeking Job seeking
Just realized I'm self-harming Just realized I'm self-harming
Why can\031t I love myself Why can\031t I love myself
Alone on Birthday Alone on Birthday
Lifting Weights Has Made Me Into a Completely Different Person Lifting Weights Has Made Me Into a Completely Different Person
Genuinely ugly coupled with bodily medical issues Genuinely ugly coupled with bodily medical issues
Are You Familiar With The Lines Project? Are You Familiar With The Lines Project?
Why do I "miss" the awful dread I went through for years? Why do I "miss" the awful dread I went through for years?
Work is Suffering Work is Suffering
Why would a parent refuse to take a child to therapy? Why would a parent refuse to take a child to therapy?
Can you get evaluated anonymously? Can you get evaluated anonymously?
TW- i think about suicide every single day, i am afraid i might do it. TW- i think about suicide every single day, i am afraid i might do it.
I\031m just lost I\031m just lost
i\031m genuinely mentally unwell, i thought i was acting but i don\031t know how to be normal i\031m genuinely mentally unwell, i thought i was acting but i don\031t know how to be normal
Why does Commitment makes me feels like throwing up? Why does Commitment makes me feels like throwing up?
i feel alone i feel alone
I feel I'm loosing control of my life I feel I'm loosing control of my life
I can\031t live like this anymore I can\031t live like this anymore
My shitty mental health has relapsed, need some advice My shitty mental health has relapsed, need some advice
I never knew that to relax I was going to have to tell myself to do it on purpose. I never knew that to relax I was going to have to tell myself to do it on purpose.
My mind is hurting and lost My mind is hurting and lost
Is there a name for feeling like nothing? Is there a name for feeling like nothing?
My best friend is going off the rails, how do I be supportive? My best friend is going off the rails, how do I be supportive?
Thoughts that make me depressed. (But I don\031t want to be) Thoughts that make me depressed. (But I don\031t want to be)
Trying to get over a break up. Trying to get over a break up.
Suicide Hotline too busy Suicide Hotline too busy
I can't live my life anymore I can't live my life anymore
How Boxing Defense Training Can Help Overcome fear and Anxiety How Boxing Defense Training Can Help Overcome fear and Anxiety
Traveling with Mental Health Traveling with Mental Health
the one time i tried to get help. the one time i tried to get help.
Tomorrow is the day I disappear - Canada Tomorrow is the day I disappear - Canada
Does bipolar disorder make it harder to get over breakups? Does bipolar disorder make it harder to get over breakups?
Is ok if I want to leave home because my brother is mentally ill? Is ok if I want to leave home because my brother is mentally ill?
Could someone help me understand my emotional situation? Could someone help me understand my emotional situation?
How do I tell my parents abt my SA? How do I tell my parents abt my SA?
Feeling a bit of brain fog and can\031t think with clarity? Feeling a bit of brain fog and can\031t think with clarity?
Neighbor in Need Neighbor in Need
I keep forgetting mental lessons and making the same mistakes I keep forgetting mental lessons and making the same mistakes
Christmas Time Christmas Time
K health question about Wellbutrin and Lexapro K health question about Wellbutrin and Lexapro
UK law in possession UK law in possession
I (39M) and mother (76F) get along well for short periods of times. But she always does things that bother me and I tell her and she gets very sad.... I (39M) and mother (76F) get along well for short periods of times. But she always does things that bother me and I tell her and she gets very sad....
IDK how to say this IDK how to say this
Are my expectations unrealistic? Are my expectations unrealistic?
Was this a panic attack? Was this a panic attack?
overwhelming urges overwhelming urges
How can I stop envying professional athletes? How can I stop envying professional athletes?
I\031m having family problems and my mental health is deteriorating. I\031m having family problems and my mental health is deteriorating.
Random aggression Random aggression
How to deal with the grief of a family member dying and their killer getting a light sentence? How to deal with the grief of a family member dying and their killer getting a light sentence?
Anxiety has been eating me and obstructing my education- what can I do? Anxiety has been eating me and obstructing my education- what can I do?
Why do I get cold when my anxiety is high? Why do I get cold when my anxiety is high?
I don\031t know how to relax I don\031t know how to relax
I have been feeling horrable mentaly 16m I have been feeling horrable mentaly 16m
please help me please help me
Why is my post not posting? Why is my post not posting?
Can multivitamins help with mental health? Can multivitamins help with mental health?
My partner just broke up with me and I\031m worried it\031s my fault. My partner just broke up with me and I\031m worried it\031s my fault.
I need help, or advice I need help, or advice
I want my friend back. I want my friend back.
Why is self harm a bad thing? Why is self harm a bad thing?
DAE wish they would get severely injured and end up in hospital? DAE wish they would get severely injured and end up in hospital?
I need basic mental health advice I need basic mental health advice
Feel so numb I\031m scared I can\031t feel guilt anymore Feel so numb I\031m scared I can\031t feel guilt anymore
how do i get admitted into the mental hospital as a minor how do i get admitted into the mental hospital as a minor
Irrationally angry after years of loss. Irrationally angry after years of loss.
Why does my dad hates everyone for no reason. Why does my dad hates everyone for no reason.
In the trenches for the holiday In the trenches for the holiday
I learned to speak like others are dumb and now I'm a 4.0 in college. Ask me anything! I learned to speak like others are dumb and now I'm a 4.0 in college. Ask me anything!
Pls help me Pls help me
I'm a reformed stalker. The man who I used to stalk feels sympathy for me. Why? I'm a reformed stalker. The man who I used to stalk feels sympathy for me. Why?
Do people generally get zero comments on these mental health Reddits keeps happening to me Do people generally get zero comments on these mental health Reddits keeps happening to me
Things That Have Helped My Own Mental Health Things That Have Helped My Own Mental Health
OCD or something else? Setting myself up, repetitive behavior and loss of control OCD or something else? Setting myself up, repetitive behavior and loss of control
I don't know why people are treating me like this! I don't know why people are treating me like this!
How can I recover from being toxic to others from my self hate? How can I recover from being toxic to others from my self hate?
Hey peeps!!! Hey peeps!!!
Best free self-hypnosis app in place of therapy? Best free self-hypnosis app in place of therapy?
Mood stabilisers Mood stabilisers
Why do I always guilty Why do I always guilty
How do I show my emotions better? Nobody knows how much I\031m struggling How do I show my emotions better? Nobody knows how much I\031m struggling
I feel disconnected I feel disconnected
Not happy in life Not happy in life
For anyone who needs to read this For anyone who needs to read this
Depression Question about meanness Depression Question about meanness
another vent another vent
How do you deal with extreme envy? How do you deal with extreme envy?
Is it normal to dislike it when others are kind to you? Is it normal to dislike it when others are kind to you?
Relationship Failures and Low Self-Esteem and Suicide Relationship Failures and Low Self-Esteem and Suicide
Hello, Im Hamza, i think i can help a lot of people, i did some really bad stuff before, drugs, alcohol, self harm, cutting... toxic exes everything pretty much, please if you need help feel free to talk to me, dm me, leave a comment I'll respond very fast, please. Hello, Im Hamza, i think i can help a lot of people, i did some really bad stuff before, drugs, alcohol, self harm, cutting... toxic exes everything pretty much, please if you need help feel free to talk to me, dm me, leave a comment I'll respond very fast, please.
How do I not let people hurt my feelings so easily How do I not let people hurt my feelings so easily
My experience in a mental hospital My experience in a mental hospital
Help me choose major! Help me choose major!
getting bullied at work i think? getting bullied at work i think?
College and Grades College and Grades
(TW: mentions of death) I feel alone and unable to get the help I need. (TW: mentions of death) I feel alone and unable to get the help I need.
Anxious for no reason Anxious for no reason
intrusive thoughts, lack of meaning and purpose in life intrusive thoughts, lack of meaning and purpose in life
Random bursts of good mood? Random bursts of good mood?
Deep ulterior motive guiding my actions Deep ulterior motive guiding my actions
I thought I was fucked up TW DEATH/ DYING I thought I was fucked up TW DEATH/ DYING
I need advice I need advice
God Wants me to be evil so I\031ll be evil God Wants me to be evil so I\031ll be evil
Floating words when blinking Floating words when blinking
Weight loss on while on medication Weight loss on while on medication
I want to self harm but i know it\031s not helpful I want to self harm but i know it\031s not helpful
I used to be so brave I used to be so brave
Holidays feel like a hault to healing process. Holidays feel like a hault to healing process.
Has anyone here ever gotten past self hatred? If so how? Has anyone here ever gotten past self hatred? If so how?
I'm having trouble dealing with embarrassment I'm having trouble dealing with embarrassment
My girlfriend is c*tting herself! My girlfriend is c*tting herself!
Is it normal to get anxious at night? Is it normal to get anxious at night?
My meds make me feel awful and I hate it My meds make me feel awful and I hate it
Loneliness Loneliness
I have a person living inside my mind, but he doesn't try to take control of my body: is it still DID? I have a person living inside my mind, but he doesn't try to take control of my body: is it still DID?
Is there any way outta this? Is there any way outta this?
Hard to do anything.. Hard to do anything..
How to cope with injustices? How to cope with injustices?
Losing Grip on Reality Losing Grip on Reality
The worst part of mental illness is telling loved ones what you're contemplating The worst part of mental illness is telling loved ones what you're contemplating
Life update: It's been three months since she dumped me and I still feel so lost. Life update: It's been three months since she dumped me and I still feel so lost.
How to bring my Technical Thinking Back to a more Regular, Lehmans Level. How to bring my Technical Thinking Back to a more Regular, Lehmans Level.
Don't know what else to do Don't know what else to do
Sometimes, I feel like an antagonist in this world (rant) Sometimes, I feel like an antagonist in this world (rant)
Navigating Mental Health: What Strategies Do Health Specialists Recommend for Well-Being? Navigating Mental Health: What Strategies Do Health Specialists Recommend for Well-Being?
Dismissive Parents Dismissive Parents
Tear up in certain moments. Tear up in certain moments.
how do i go about getting help how do i go about getting help
I don\031t know how to help my boyfriend& I don\031t know how to help my boyfriend&
How do I stop being so pessimistic? How do I stop being so pessimistic?
I need some validation. I need some validation.
Am I a Narcissist? Am I a Narcissist?
How do I go about explaining to close friends about my PTSD? How do I go about explaining to close friends about my PTSD?
112 I'm 15M, searching advices and trying to see what problems I have
212 What are healthy ways of dealing with emotional blunting?
312 No one knows
412 20f dealing with neglect trauma
512 What to do for work? Lifestyle?
612 What\031s the point
712 Is having online friends bad for my mental health
811 Considering it
911 I (23F) preformed cpr on my neighbor (25F)
102 Looking for a hybrid between a therapist and life coach. Not sure what to call it.
113 How to deal with my grandad's possible death when my parents don't want me to know about it?
122 I am always questionong wether or not my feelings are valid
132 This is a weird one.
142 I wish my dad would either die or stop fucking calling me while I'm at work
152 Idk what's wrong with me.
162 Sudden changes
172 Why do i hit myself?
182 Is it okay to take a day off?
192 Good stories?
202 Is my mom right about my concept of self esteem?
213 Insights into my stalker?
222 My family would think this is stupid but I like to listen to MLP music
232 Beginning to feel really paranoid, like something is hunting me, Final Destination style
242 Help. I don't know if I have an eating dissorder.
252 I Don't Know How To Help My Friend
262 I had a dream that was just me insulting myself
272 I\031m tired of my problems getting worse with age
282 I cannot breathe, but why??
292 A thought process about abuse
302 M16 drive loss
313 I feel so confused
322 Does it ever get better?
332 Why is it so easy for a switch in my brain to just completely ruin good habits and having to start all over again?
342 I travel out of state for work and my therapist cannot treat me unless I am physically in my state. (North Carolina)
352 A Message of Hope: My Transformation and Tips for Positive Change
362 I don't hold back. Please don't respond I'm just done right now. =+=+=+
372 Nothing helps me calm down when I get anxious and I'm running out of ideas on what to do
382 Took a Long Pysch Exam And Failed One Cognitive Test Really Badly
392 I am completely deteriorating and hopeless
402 I literally can't cope with aging.
413 Downward spiral
422 I'm not sure if my coping mechanisms are actually doing anything
432 So I attempted suicide
442 Is it normal to be uncomfortable?
452 Help adjusting to a new state
462 Life seeming repetitive and unpleasant
472 With nobody for Christmas
482 why do i feel like i can't react to bad news
492 What do you call this?
502 What should I aim to write about in a journal to help my mental health?
513 A Journey of Hope: Sharing My Positive Turnaround for Inspiration
522 Does this count?
532 [17f] spiraling very bad
542 Feeling hopeless and overwhelmed by simple things
552 How do i overcome this issue
562 I\031m so tired of being told that I\031m not trying hard enough
572 Is this a possible side effect? (not asking for advice)
582 Really don\031t know what to do anymore
592 How do I move forward?
602 genuinely struggling to see the point in anything
613 Sometimes suicide
622 Year-end blues
632 I think my birth control made me relapse in my ED & im scared
642 Physical symptoms of depression and anxiety
652 Here this goes
662 My father killed himself while we were watching a series. I found him and I don't know how to handle this.
672 Is it normal to suddenly struggle w/ relationships with others due to anxiety?
682 Help me find a blog post detailing suicide types?
692 How do I control my depression while I'm dating
702 Full of Sadness and Shame
713 Is having depression selfish?
722 I have no feelings of self harm but I want everything to just stop
732 My college mates keep hangin out with my assaulter. Makes me go ape shit
742 Struggling to cope with the removal of toxic friend in life?
752 Struggling to cope with the removal of toxic friend in life?
761 Struggling to cope with the removal of toxic friend in life?
771 Struggling to cope with the removal of toxic friend in life?
781 Struggling to cope with the removal of toxic friend in life?
791 Feeling embarrassed about code switching
801 I feel like I\031m about to explode
812 Would this be a reasonable accommodation?
821 Mad at my best friend
831 I cant tell if im okay (dpdr)
841 Three Months Ideation Free!!!
851 Right before Christmas and my mental health just went down the drain
861 Snapping back after an episode of psychosis
871 Strange type of sleep anxiety.
881 How to get support for thoughts
891 My dad died and I don't know that I'll make it through
901 Diagnosis&
912 Dental Health and Mental Health
921 I need a stranger to talk to about anything.
931 16 with an objectively good life, whats my problem?
941 I'm 17 and I'm a fucked up angry person
951 Has anyone had experience using depression as a disability to extend a deadline in an online class?
961 I just wanna feel normal
971 I need to change mt way of seeing life
981 Psych ward experience? I can\031t do it anymore.
991 Legal Career
1001 My girlfriend lost her job and may fall in depression. How should I behave?
Something very concerning happened to me last night Something very concerning happened to me last night
Should I seek help? How? Should I seek help? How?
Trying to get out of a bad situation Trying to get out of a bad situation
My [21F] older sister [24F] is my only friend. She's going to move abroad in a few days and it fills me with immense anxiety. My [21F] older sister [24F] is my only friend. She's going to move abroad in a few days and it fills me with immense anxiety.
self sabotage for no reason? self sabotage for no reason?
What I'm going through What I'm going through
I just feel ignored I just feel ignored
is it bad that im 14 and im using drugs and that im a prostitute? i cant get out is it bad that im 14 and im using drugs and that im a prostitute? i cant get out
It\031s gotten harder to tell apart what\031s real and what isn\031t It\031s gotten harder to tell apart what\031s real and what isn\031t
Will i ever be able to love? Will i ever be able to love?
i pick at my skin as a form of sh so when my skin gets worse near my period it actually makes me break my sh free streak idk what to do i pick at my skin as a form of sh so when my skin gets worse near my period it actually makes me break my sh free streak idk what to do
My friends left me and I don\031t know where to find new ones. My friends left me and I don\031t know where to find new ones.
Is it "odd" to address childhood trauma after 30 years? Is it "odd" to address childhood trauma after 30 years?
I think I\031m dying but no one takes me seriously because of my mental illness 16F I think I\031m dying but no one takes me seriously because of my mental illness 16F
Random thoughts of family passing away Random thoughts of family passing away
Need help with intrusive thoughts Need help with intrusive thoughts
988 website 988 website
it\031s my birthday and so many friends forgot it\031s my birthday and so many friends forgot
I have a deep, and horrible self loathing that I can mask really well, until I can\031t. I have a deep, and horrible self loathing that I can mask really well, until I can\031t.
ive been feeling constantly sad for almost 2 days, whats going on? ive been feeling constantly sad for almost 2 days, whats going on?
I can't imagine her with another man. Not able to accept one day she'll move on. I can't imagine her with another man. Not able to accept one day she'll move on.
Get angry, get focused, and learn to love yourself most of all. Get angry, get focused, and learn to love yourself most of all.
why do i feel euphoric? why do i feel euphoric?
I'm getting violent thoughts and I don't know how to tell anyone. I'm getting violent thoughts and I don't know how to tell anyone.
Anxiety coping mechanisms Anxiety coping mechanisms
Brother needs help, what should I do? Brother needs help, what should I do?
I am in the Army..... I am in the Army.....
It's been 4 months since I started at my new school and I can't for the life of me get friends It's been 4 months since I started at my new school and I can't for the life of me get friends
Feel like I\031m living someone else\031s life Feel like I\031m living someone else\031s life
Im worried about my friend Im worried about my friend
Anyone else here who suffers from Trichotillomania? Anyone else here who suffers from Trichotillomania?
venting but also would like some advice >z venting but also would like some advice >z
Depression, I guess Depression, I guess
Would a 4 day work week improve your mental health? Would a 4 day work week improve your mental health?
A 'lil rant (first time so don't judge) A 'lil rant (first time so don't judge)
Help me understand Help me understand
how do I know if it's not normal? Or just how in general to navigate this how do I know if it's not normal? Or just how in general to navigate this
Do I have to worry about telling my therapist that I\031m a bit suicidal Do I have to worry about telling my therapist that I\031m a bit suicidal
Nobody cares Nobody cares
Can't go to social events Can't go to social events
I feel awful ghosting my parents I feel awful ghosting my parents
How do I deal with a challenging situation How do I deal with a challenging situation
I have been feeling this way for a long time. I have been feeling this way for a long time.
My habits never truly turn into habits. They are always a conscious effort, never becoming automatic or second nature My habits never truly turn into habits. They are always a conscious effort, never becoming automatic or second nature
How do I help myself (australia) How do I help myself (australia)
I don't know why I'm like this I don't know why I'm like this
Can substances induce week-long "psychosis"? My experience and your opinion Can substances induce week-long "psychosis"? My experience and your opinion
I think I might be bipolar I think I might be bipolar
Just had a major family crisis... Just had a major family crisis...
Age related stuff Age related stuff
How can I find out if i have any mental health issues How can I find out if i have any mental health issues
Who also needs a little glass of something to chill? Who also needs a little glass of something to chill?
I got full lapis armor without repeats I got full lapis armor without repeats
One comment has absolutely destroyed my self esteem One comment has absolutely destroyed my self esteem
am i getting dementia? am i getting dementia?
Lack of new information on interests is leaving me lost Lack of new information on interests is leaving me lost
Is it wrong of me to feel 'trauma' after brother's attempt? Is it wrong of me to feel 'trauma' after brother's attempt?
I don't know what is wrong with me I don't know what is wrong with me
IT GOT BETTER Y'ALL IT GOT BETTER Y'ALL
My parents are being abused by my mentally ill sister My parents are being abused by my mentally ill sister
My boyfriend doesn't have emotions anymore. My boyfriend doesn't have emotions anymore.
i feel so fat with my family (19F) i feel so fat with my family (19F)
Violent in my sleep Violent in my sleep
Shoot. Sorry. Posting again. Shoot. Sorry. Posting again.
Sometimes I want to disappear. Sometimes I want to disappear.
I am exhausted I am exhausted
Paranoia struggles Paranoia struggles
Discouraged Discouraged
Doubting my memory or conversation just had three months ago. Keep replaying to check if he really said that. Doubting my memory or conversation just had three months ago. Keep replaying to check if he really said that.
My therapist wants to see me once every week for video sessions but I don\031t know my life still is the same one year later? My therapist wants to see me once every week for video sessions but I don\031t know my life still is the same one year later?
I want to know if I've crossed the line I want to know if I've crossed the line
SSRI\031s and Anxiety SSRI\031s and Anxiety
What is wrong with my brain yo What is wrong with my brain yo
Not sure what this is? Not sure what this is?
How long do I wait for my mum to stop being emotionally abusive before I cut her off? How long do I wait for my mum to stop being emotionally abusive before I cut her off?
[TW mention of NSFW/SH/sewerslide things] [TW mention of NSFW/SH/sewerslide things]
I\031d Rather be pissed off than sad I\031d Rather be pissed off than sad
I think I\031ve always had weird sensory issues I think I\031ve always had weird sensory issues
i feel worthless and selfish at the same time i feel worthless and selfish at the same time
idk if I should drop my class because of friends idk if I should drop my class because of friends
Anyone here still using the chat-hub of blahtherapy? Anyone here still using the chat-hub of blahtherapy?
My obnoxious boss My obnoxious boss
Your an adult now... what's your next step Your an adult now... what's your next step
Would I qualify to be put into a mental hospital? Would I qualify to be put into a mental hospital?
How do I deal with the dread of not having a professional future? How do I deal with the dread of not having a professional future?
Is this a hallucination, because I can\031t tell and I\031ve seen nothing to help me Is this a hallucination, because I can\031t tell and I\031ve seen nothing to help me
I feel so emotionally detached and have a huge sense of shame what do I do? I feel so emotionally detached and have a huge sense of shame what do I do?
It feels like I\031m going insane in my life It feels like I\031m going insane in my life
getting expensive Christmas presents but I don\031t feel excited as I should. getting expensive Christmas presents but I don\031t feel excited as I should.
Ominous threats Ominous threats
I hate how awkward I am I hate how awkward I am
Is my OCD playing tricks on me Is my OCD playing tricks on me
Is c*tting or a su1cide attempt a certain fact that allows you to say you're depressed? Is c*tting or a su1cide attempt a certain fact that allows you to say you're depressed?
Taking new medicine Taking new medicine
how to deal with narcissistic sibling? how to deal with narcissistic sibling?
Is it possible to have tactile hallucinations of experiences you\031ve never had before? Is it possible to have tactile hallucinations of experiences you\031ve never had before?
I have never hated a person as much as myself I have never hated a person as much as myself
Did my therapist break the law? Did my therapist break the law?
I dont know what is wrong with me. I dont know what is wrong with me.
Slept all day and have work in the a.m. Slept all day and have work in the a.m.
Anyone to talk to? Anyone to talk to?
Dealing with public praise at work that I feel I do not deserve Dealing with public praise at work that I feel I do not deserve
Stay clean Stay clean
Trauma therapy Trauma therapy
Wisiting my old notes Wisiting my old notes
I need some Career advice I need some Career advice
[MODERATOR APPROVED] Understanding BPD and Substance Abuse (18+) [MODERATOR APPROVED] Understanding BPD and Substance Abuse (18+)
Lost internal monologue Lost internal monologue
Any tips for a 22-year-old M feeling some what lost? Any tips for a 22-year-old M feeling some what lost?
I think im pushing my friends away subconsciously I think im pushing my friends away subconsciously
I don't know if this is a legitimate issue or not. I don't know if this is a legitimate issue or not.
Every day I live in extreme fear Every day I live in extreme fear
Please help, what is this? Please help, what is this?
Need advices on dealing with my emotions against sisters boyfriend Need advices on dealing with my emotions against sisters boyfriend
Is this a sign I need a break from school/work? Is this a sign I need a break from school/work?
How to care more How to care more
I sincerely need advice& I sincerely need advice&
My eating disorder is back. My eating disorder is back.
How should i go back to office to face these people after a mental breakdown? How should i go back to office to face these people after a mental breakdown?
Looking for help Looking for help
How do I start How do I start
Anyone else try and forget that they never get invited to things and then here about kids your age doing things like going to parties. Im 17M and never get invited to things, no parties, not going round to someone\031s house not even playing video games Anyone else try and forget that they never get invited to things and then here about kids your age doing things like going to parties. Im 17M and never get invited to things, no parties, not going round to someone\031s house not even playing video games
A letter from a broken father A letter from a broken father
Anyone gone through depersonalization Anyone gone through depersonalization
i am a bad person what do i do ? i am a bad person what do i do ?
help pls- idk what to do and I feel like I'm going crazy help pls- idk what to do and I feel like I'm going crazy
What should I do? What should I do?
Tricks to stop bad obsessive thoughts ? Tricks to stop bad obsessive thoughts ?
My stomach hurts when I get gifts My stomach hurts when I get gifts
don't know how to confront friend about self diagnosing autism don't know how to confront friend about self diagnosing autism
Partner needs mental health help but refusing. Should I keep at it until he does? Partner needs mental health help but refusing. Should I keep at it until he does?
I\031m afraid of who I\031m becoming I\031m afraid of who I\031m becoming
I feel vulnerable I feel vulnerable
Has anyone had any similar experiences with Fluoxetine? Has anyone had any similar experiences with Fluoxetine?
Mental Health Mental Health
i feel like i\031m unravelling i feel like i\031m unravelling
I'm unhappy w how my life is I'm unhappy w how my life is
Med question, if anyone has experience or knows the answer.. Med question, if anyone has experience or knows the answer..
Need help dealing with a mentally ill parent Need help dealing with a mentally ill parent
Is my life over if I have no friends, never get invited to things and have autism? Is my life over if I have no friends, never get invited to things and have autism?
Why am I uglier than everyone else? Why am I uglier than everyone else?
I hate working in here, I dont hate my jobs. What should I do ? I hate working in here, I dont hate my jobs. What should I do ?
California hospitals for Dopamine Disorders California hospitals for Dopamine Disorders
How do I win a war against myself? How do I win a war against myself?
Someone who rejected me is in my friend group and it's awful Someone who rejected me is in my friend group and it's awful
My mind of solitude My mind of solitude
Bearable App Bearable App
Do you take Naltrexone and Welbutrin? Not necessarily for weight loss. Do you take Naltrexone and Welbutrin? Not necessarily for weight loss.
"This whole mindset of guys can't be allowed to show their feelings is complete and utter Bullshit" "This whole mindset of guys can't be allowed to show their feelings is complete and utter Bullshit"
I feel so horrible I feel so horrible
Showing \034too much\035 for my liking, what should I do? Showing \034too much\035 for my liking, what should I do?
Irritation Irritation
Transforming the Homework Hustle for ADHD-Affected Teens Transforming the Homework Hustle for ADHD-Affected Teens
Help me: Perfectionist that is realizing shes not perfect Help me: Perfectionist that is realizing shes not perfect
I wish my sense of self worth were stronger I wish my sense of self worth were stronger
Slight elevation to make it through. Slight elevation to make it through.
my monthly hormones destroy any good sh clean streak i have and i don\031t know what to do my monthly hormones destroy any good sh clean streak i have and i don\031t know what to do
Please help husband pretends to stab me Please help husband pretends to stab me
I can\031t ignore it I can\031t ignore it
Coming off Orlanzapine success story. Coming off Orlanzapine success story.
I still feel horrible I still feel horrible
Feeling Down, Angry, Irritable Feeling Down, Angry, Irritable
Psychiatrist wants me to try Vagal stimulation. What is it? Psychiatrist wants me to try Vagal stimulation. What is it?
Low self esteem is ruining my life Low self esteem is ruining my life
Should I be worried? Should I be worried?
How to convince people to help? How to convince people to help?
What\031s a subtle sign someone is not doing well mentally? What\031s a subtle sign someone is not doing well mentally?
My boyfriend can\031t love me because I selfharm. My boyfriend can\031t love me because I selfharm.
Nothing is helping Nothing is helping
Is there a way to lodge a formal complaint against a psychiatrist? Is there a way to lodge a formal complaint against a psychiatrist?
I hate my fucking life, how do I fix it? I hate my fucking life, how do I fix it?
Afraid to share my pain Afraid to share my pain
I feel like a shell of a person I used to be I feel like a shell of a person I used to be
I really heavily considering suicide I really heavily considering suicide
how am i supposed to be kind to myself and better my self esteem and anxiety if i don\031t think i deserve it? how am i supposed to be kind to myself and better my self esteem and anxiety if i don\031t think i deserve it?
I'm such a crybaby I'm such a crybaby
Is Something Wrong With Me? Is Something Wrong With Me?
I have no friends and nothing to do I have no friends and nothing to do
When therapy doesn't work and everything you try to do yourself just makes everything worse what do you do When therapy doesn't work and everything you try to do yourself just makes everything worse what do you do
Clonazepam/Klonopin Help Clonazepam/Klonopin Help
My issues are very bizarre. My issues are very bizarre.
My meds are sedating me, what do I do? My meds are sedating me, what do I do?
Help me identify a behavior and put a name to it Help me identify a behavior and put a name to it
How do I release my emotions? How do I release my emotions?
Should I be embarrassed or get over it? Should I be embarrassed or get over it?
Had a bit of a mental breakdown this morning screaming/trying to cut my thigh up.I\031m fine now though and feel stupid. Had a bit of a mental breakdown this morning screaming/trying to cut my thigh up.I\031m fine now though and feel stupid.
Support from friends Support from friends
why do i feel like my day is ruined as soon as the tiniest thing happens? why do i feel like my day is ruined as soon as the tiniest thing happens?
Is it normal after bad hygine because of depression a bath makes you lightheaded Is it normal after bad hygine because of depression a bath makes you lightheaded
SSRI's and ADHD SSRI's and ADHD
Im either physicaly decaying or insane in the membrane<\xb5 Im either physicaly decaying or insane in the membrane<µ
HR told me they are not obligated to accommodate my ADA request HR told me they are not obligated to accommodate my ADA request
Feeling Overwhelmed by Boredom Feeling Overwhelmed by Boredom
Spouse admitted to inpatient, what do I do now? Spouse admitted to inpatient, what do I do now?
My mum died in front of me and I can't cope My mum died in front of me and I can't cope
how do i help my friend? how do i help my friend?
I want help but I have no way of getting it and no one in my family supports me I want help but I have no way of getting it and no one in my family supports me
How long will it take to get me a ADHD diagnosis? How long will it take to get me a ADHD diagnosis?
Trauma Healing Program? Trauma Healing Program?
What can cause severe discomfort with physical and sexual intimacy? What can cause severe discomfort with physical and sexual intimacy?
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My best friend of 11 years died in a car crash that happened last night. He was riding with one of his other friends and he was high while he was driving. My friend was in the back of the truck when it happened. This wasn\031t a collision with another car he hit a guard rail and my friend went flying out of the back of the car. He died on impact, but the paramedics were able to resuscitate him. The guy driving ran away in the woods nearby. \n\nMy friend died 3 times before they finally pulled the plug. I hate to imagine the pain he was in. Everyone around me keeps mentioning him and I can\031t handle it. We grew up together and now he\031s gone. I went to a pawnshop nearby my school while i was waiting for my brother and i met the dad of one of my friends who was also really close to my friend who died. We talked for about 90 minutes before I left. The only good part about today is that I know I\031m not the only person who cared about him. My best friend died this morning
He works 14 hours a day at the pharmacy and honestly his job sucks cuz when they were hiring him they kind of screwed him over with the details causing him to get half of what is other co-workers get\n\nAnd the most thing that hurts about this job is that the pharmacy he works in is one of the few pharmacies that supply some special drugs and medicine it's like they are always busy it's always the rush hour in his job, he says that it's a nightmare to even try to go to the bathroom.....\nCuz the waiting people will pile up and be loud and cursing and shouting until he comes back\n\n\nAnd some people just love to dump their trauma and venom and those bad feelings ,everything negative that they have in their soul ,just dump it on these poor helpless workers that wish for the minimum wage getting the minimum wage for them what kind of be a raise.....\n\nNow that I'm actually writing this I'm at the verge of tears cuz I see him as a man that honestly works real hard and doesn't have anything specific going on in his life he's just going to work and coming home, back and forth...\n\nONE NIGHT WE WERE OUT JUST DRIVING AND WATCHING THE CITY... As I was talking to him I realized that every time that he talks about his job he kind of doesn't finish his sentences like he starts the topic but when he senses himself going to the details he kind of pulls back and let's go off the conversation.\n\nBUT THIS TIME I kind of started nagging him, didn't let him cut his own conversation off I kept asking questions and kind of forcing him to talk about his feelings and how he's doing.\n\nI WAS NEVER MORE SCARED, WORRIED in my entire life\n\nEvery sentence that he said was a whole other level of problem. Every every subject that he explained to me was horrifying. When it was like what he talked about one of his problems I understood, it's not like I can fix it but I can listen and I listened to him, the second problem then the third then the fourth and before you even know it you're at the 26th problem...\n\nAnd it wasn't like he was trauma dumping on me those were real problems.\n\nWhen when he was talking about his problems I felt scared and that was solely because I relied on him he was my rock, he was my warm blanket when I come home from the cold night.\nHe mentioned unsubscribing. We both know what I'm talking about I'm just using a different word.\n\nWhen we met I was in a dark place mentally and one thing that actually pulled me out was him I was just crap on top of crap on top of crap and my parents disappointment as a cherry on top.\n\nHe's always smiling he is always happy to see me he always plays with his son and cares about us.\n\nAnd I'm scared of losing him.......\n\nNow I'm actually trying to help him and be more understanding and every time I see him with all of his stress and exhaustion I try to calm him down and letting him talk to me as much as he could as much as he wants and feels needed. He actually told me that now that he can talk about his problems he feels better.\n\nI just love him so much... My husband opend up...now I'm terrified
I try not to do it to much but whenever I pull an all nighter my incessant interior monologue stops almost entirely. I don\031t know if it\031s related to that but if I am severely sleep deprived I am much better at socializing and doing writing, math, studying etc. I feel like the opposite should be true but time after time I feel these exact effects. Does anyone have an explanation? I also have severe depression if that is relevant. Why do I function better when I\031m sleep deprived
I feel almost guilty that I\031m not happy. Like my life is amazing, my parents are well off, I go to a good school, I eat well, we can afford holidays, I have amazing friends, but yet I still don\031t feel happy. Is that normal? Is it normal to feel guilty?
My guess is I don't have anything to distract me from my brain like work or talking to friends or something, but it's like my brain just kinda saves it all up for right before I'm going to bed Why is it that I'm completely fine during the day, but when I'm alone at night it's oops all depression?
I personally always have to text first Do your friends actually text you first?
i\031m so tired. ever since i was 12 ive been \030different\031. getting told i have the mind of an adult left, right, centre. i don\031t want to be mature i want to be naive and not rot in my bed and avoid people purposely \n\ni can\031t bring myself to do it, because i know my little sister 2 years younger, also mature is struggling and needs me and i don\031t want to leave her alone in this house \n\nme and my family of 4 experienced abu5e physically emotionally financially, my mother experienced it for 16 years. he even inflicted this behaviour onto any pets we had\n\nnow my brother is turning into my father but my mum developed bipolar disorder, ptsd and others she won\031t share and she\031s a boy mum, in different terms, she sides with my brother no matter what. he\031s 19 and has been put into custody several times because of situations where he has acted out. he has spiritual psychosis and severe anger issues so he lashes out alot.\n\ntoday he slapped my arm rly hard several times after seeing my sh and calling me emo and i couldn\031t even react \n\nmy house is a mess its a shit hole, my attendance is below 50% at school causing social services to come and i don\031t want to talk to anybody anymore, everyone irritates me and i feel like no one understands me\n\ni hurt anyone that interacts w me, for example boyfriends. i always make them seem so intense and romantic in the beginning then lose that and feel anger\n\ni can\031t do anything, i can\031t shower i can\031t clean my room i can\031t leave my house and im tired of being called lazy. i just have no hope in me continuing this journey of life so why would i put effort in\n\ni sleep all day everyday to escape anything and i get ill all the time because of how stressed i get. i cry every night to sleep and relapse every other day i always regret it but i always forget that i feel regret after and proceed to do it\n\nmy mum doesn\031t care about me, only my abu5ive brother. they always talk shit about me and my sister. she judges me on everything because she thinks mental health is a myth\n\ni think it\031s because i don\031t believe in God and they\031re super religious\n\nthere\031s so much more but i can\031t write it down because i always want to talk about other things when talking about just one \n\ni just wanna be normal im so exhausted i feel a pit in my stomach every second of the day that weighs my down and i ache everywhere i wanna be a normal teenage girl
I love my mom, but I feel like she hates me or she thinks im an inconvenience. My father was very mentally, emotionally, and psychically (he is a crack addict) abusive towards my family and evenutally he ended up leaving the household. My brother and my mom say in contact with him but my sister and I do not. My brother is younger than me, 6 years younger, and we often fight a lot only because he is in that stage of life where he thinks im bossy when in actuality i just want the best for him and i want him to do good things. my mom interprets me being "bossy" to him as me being "mean" to him. and idk if she wants that to be me and my brothers narrative but she always tells family members that im "so mean" to him and makes it seem like its just always me who is mean making people in our family look at me like im a person with no heart. I also find that she defends and forgives my dad and my brother way more than she does me. my abusive father....she defends him and acts as though he is a friend to her knowing that man has done things to my mom, my sister and i that i can't even talking about without crying. She also babies my brother way more than she did me when i was his age. and as much as i am glad my brother does not have a traumatizing childhood like i did, i think that he needs to learn the same independence i was forced to learn in a more safer way obvi. earlier she called me "selfish and hateful" and told me it was going to "all come back to me" all because he helped me look for something she only specifically asked me to look for, mind you he knew more about what she was asking me to look for!!!! i knew nothing and she flipped out on me for him helping me but wants me to bend over backwards to help him. ATP i am fine if she hates me because i can handle being alone emotionally. i have been since i was 6. does my mom hate me or am i overthinking
Reflecting on my life over the past 15 years, it has been a complete shit show, torn apart by depression.\n\n1. Didn't finish university.\n2. Pushed away a nice woman who loved me.\n3. Unable to hold a job = financially insecure.\n4. Depressed, downtrodden and feeling empty.\n\nI honestly sometimes wonder why I even bother continuing.\nI'm not 21 anymore. I'm 34 and I feel like my life hasn't even started.\nGod, I'm tempted. In tears right now. Will it happen.
Wondering about that >\024 Do you feel that parents should care about their kids for the rest of their lives or just till they become adults?
Basically she said this: \030\031Idk I just keep thinking about the fact that I\031m not graduating next year and I\031m gonna have to watch all my friends walk and I\031m not going to \n\nAnd thinks just aren\031t working out how I thought they would, with my life at least\031\031\n\nI am just not sure how to respond to this. I want to support her and listen but i dunno how to respond to people venting. Thanks! How do I respond to my girlfriend\031s text message venting to me?
Seriously& it\031s so hard to deal with this. One rude look from a stranger ? Feel bad. One look from someone who looks you up and down in an arrogant way - yay let\031s feel very bad. I can\031t help it. No thought exercise is working. \n\nOh and don\031t get me started on the internet. If I post (not here this is a throwaway) any kind of question and people are insulting me for no reason I feel so violated (I know it sounds ridiculous). \n\nHas anyone gotten over this? I\031ve had this for years. The whole they\031re the problem if they are rude thin doesn\031t work. \n\nI mentally want to crawl into a hole whenever this happens after the initial \034shock\035 where\031s off. Any rude comment or interaction makes me feel so bad it\031s like my heart stops or shrinks for a second and I feel bad for a long time.
I took a 1 and 1/2 year break from college due to my mental health after my sophomore year, and I am starting again in January. I am panicking because I am not mentally ready to start school again and I\031m afraid for my well being. I can\031t delay my start because I feel I will rot away if I go NEET for any longer. Can anyone give me some advice on what to do? Thank you in advance. I start school in 2 weeks and I\031m not mentally ready.
I\031ve had a large degree of existential dread/existential depression for about 20 years now. It started when I was young and hasn\031t stopped. I was discussing life with a friend who shared similar existential issues with me when we were younger and they expressed that they had grown out of these feelings/thoughts. It made me wonder if that was possible for me.\nIt\031s not overly impacting my life, I\031m doing fine professionally, have a reasonable social life, romantic partner, and I\031m able to function at a good enough level. I\031ve spent a lot of time meditating, and practicing introspective to try and address the existential dread but nothing alleviates it. Does therapy help (and how) or is this just a dog that will walk by my side until the end? Does therapy help with existential dread/existential depression?
I'm F(21) and my bf M(21). We've been in a relationship for 9 months. And I've been asking him to just let me be me. But he just can't, like for example this morning. (BTW we're LDR we only saw each other for 3days because he visited and stayed in my province for 3days.) Again this morning I just woke up and do my usual routine which is just brushing my hair and teeth then washing my face, then just making my own cup of coffee. I don't usually use my phone unless I'm done with my routine, he knows that. But early in the morning he woke up and he just keep on telling me that I was purposely ignoring him, I didn't even saw his message, I just saw it when I finished making cup of coffee. So he called and I answered it. Then He keeps on pushing me to have a argument with him, I'm just trying to straight things out for him, but he won't listen so I keep quite. Then he turn off the and I decided to watch will drinking my coffee, then again. He said that I was purposely ignoring him, saying that I have my phone with me. Using it and I should respond to him fast. I was just trying to have a nice morning. He keep on telling me that and making me feel wrong and bad (it's feels so heavy tbh). Then I again tried to make thing's straight but he won't just bulge and accept it so I just decided to calm my self and have a cold shower, but the moment I entered the bathroom I burst into tears. I was crying hard trying prevent myself from crying loudly. I just can't take it, I know I didn't do anything wrong, and I was just crying myself out. (as I'm typing this, I'm actually in tears). Then after that, after I finished showering I just say sorry to him. Even tho I'm hurting so bad. I feel like my boundaries wasn't being respected
Last week I was supposed to have a session with my therapist on Thursday the 14th. Usually she would send me a text message on the day we were going to be meeting in the morning as a little reminder, but that didn\031t happen this time. I figured that maybe she got caught up in something so I tried not to jump to conclusions. I sent her a message saying I am looking forward to meet with her, but didn\031t hear anything back. \nI ended up going to her office at the time we had scheduled. Upon arriving, her office door was locked and her car wasn\031t there. I know that life has been difficult for her lately due to her father passing away at the end of November, so I just shrugged the fact that she forgot off my shoulders and continued to do what else was on my to do list. \nThree days go by after her never responding to my text messages of me trying to get in touch with her. By that point, I started to really worry. I go to google and search up her name with \034obituary\035 after it. I was really hoping I was just overreacting, but there she was. Multiple websites with her obituary were posted. She passed away on the 13th. Just one day before we were supposed to meet. I am completely devastated and at shock. There\031s no explanation of how she died included anywhere and I don\031t feel any closure about this situation. She was only 60 years old. I feel such a weird kind of grief. My therapist died
For as long as I\031ve become an adult, I\031ve always been an overthinker and over analyzer. I guess throughout school, and adulthood, it\031s come to my advantage, as I am always able to basically morph into the perfect person for the given moment. Fast forward a few years and two kids later, it\031s almost as if my mental health has taken a major toll. But because of my perfectionism, and ability to see it as, just another challenge, and never was a big of an issue for me. Plus I felt that I had more important things to worry About (not to mention I felt that my mental health issues weren\031t as bad as my husbands, who had sea PTSD and other issues from military times). \n\nFast forward to now, we\031re on vacation, and I\031ve been having one of those moments where things just bleed over into the physical realm, and once we start talking about those feelings and emotions, it\031s almost like opening up a can of worms. My husband and I have had this talk multiple times where I need to learn how to talk things through, or let him know when things are bothering me, but for whatever reason I just don\031t. \n\nin a nutshell, I just came back from a business trip for a week, every weekend has been filled with watching the kids, then go back to work during the week, and then either the weekend was when my husband was out doing his hobbies or we had friends over - which is fine because of the time of the year - but I haven\031t had a moment to myself. Then comes planning this whole vacation, where I can\031t simply just pick a place and be OK with it. I have to go into the nitty-gritty details, look at the reviews, compare prices, location, etc. Basically most likely overdoing it. \n\nNow that we\031re on vacation, since I\031ve been back early December from my business trip, my husband and I haven\031t had a chance to be together, or be intimate, plus he\031s the type where he has physical needs, but my type of intimacy is more of a connection more so over physically connecting. So I guess you can say, I\031ve just felt really disconnected since, and now we\031re on vacation, had this whole argument because I\031m just not being myself, and I feel like I messed everything up. I hate that I\031m like this. Without the need of knowing, planning, going into crazy details, I don\031t feel at ease. Not to mention, when things don\031t go as planned, I feel \034off\035\n\nWtf is wrong with me.\n\nI know I need to be more open, with communication, and my feelings, and to seek help whenever needed, but I just don\031t. Until it\031s too late, like today I know what\031s wrong but I can\031t help it
Since I was in 5th grade, I've had the fear that I am actually a hallucination and that I am sitting alone in a psych ward somewhere pretending to go through a routine. Even as I'm typing this out, I am worried I am sitting at some blank white table tapping on nothing as if its a keyboard. \n\nFor a while, I managed to forget this enough that I only thought about it maybe once a month. But for the past week it's been all that's on my mind to the point it is difficult to feel real or interact with people because I feel like that would be feeding into the hallucinations. I also briefly began to worry that everyone is real, but is not human. I would look at people and see them, but in my mind see a monstrous version of them.\n\nI just wanted to come on here and ask if anyone has experienced anything similar or knows what this is called so I can do some research/see someone about it! Is it normal to think everything I am experiencing is a hallucination?
I\031ve been depressed for as long as I can remember. Anxious for longer. I moved to a new state earlier this year, got a new doctor, and it was&.ok. He put me on some basic medications but I felt like it didn\031t work. He swapped my medicine around and it didn\031t work. I begged him to do something for sleep because of the constant, reoccurring nightmares and flashbacks. Inability to sleep, night sweats, racing thoughts. He told me I was too young so he just upped my antidepressant. \n\nI reached out to my psych clinic where I usually go for therapy and was able to get set up to see a doctor about my medication. I explained all of my issues. Ruminating, anxiety, panic attacks, nausea and vomiting, paranoia, hyper vigilance& I told him about my experiences with medicine, I gave him my history& and he listened. Immediately started working through different medications, asking me questions to get a better idea of my problems. He was so kind, and kept clarifying that whatever happened it was my choice. He was so sweet and listened while I stuttered and hiccuped through explanations. And I FINALLY got my medication switched. He is specifically targeting the anxiety and lack of sleep. I felt like I could just cry when he said that. I have been exhausted for so so long. But now I\031m on the right track and I hope things continue to go up from here. I\031m waiting to pick it up from the pharmacy, but I just feel so accomplished right now. Doctor took my concerns seriously and actually listened
Hello, I don't know what is wrong with me. I feel like the days passes and nothing happens. I have no motivation but I do keep studying because i just always been told i have to. I feel alone even though i have good friends. I cry sometimes when i go to sleep. Ive been kind of like this for three years now but these past months its been worse. I feel like I have everything you could ask for, like family and friends and ive always had food and everything like that. I have kind of talked about it with my best friend but only when drunk. I don't want to talk about it with my parents or siblings I don't want to go to the psychologist or anything like that. I don't know what to do. Im starting to dislike people. Im starting to not enjoy going out that i usually did, now the only way i have fun is getting really wasted. I want to feel loved. I don't know why im posting i dont want compassion or people saying it will get better. i just want to know if its depresion because chatgpt doesn't know very well. english not first language Am i depressed?
Ever since I was a kid I've never been naturally good at anything. I'm awkward, bad at school, bad at art, unathletic, nothing has ever clicked for me. I really try my best, but it feels like I fail at everything. I've also been depressed for as long as I can remember, and my inner voice is constantly telling me how unworthy and talentless I am. I feel guilty all the time, like I've committed an atrocity for simply existing. I've gone to therapy, been hospitalized, put on meds and tried everything I can think of but at the end of the day I'm a miserable person. I feel like I can't even talk to people about how awful I feel all the time because I'll ruin them. I have ideations, but I hold on because I know how devastated my mom would be. I'm in University now, and I feel like my life is only changing for the worse. It's my second year here and I've made zero friends, racked up debt and am barely getting through my clases. Struggling financially is only making everything worse, I feels terrible asking my parents for financial help and am scared I'll be consumed by debt. I've made so many stupid mistakes I with I could take back. I feel trapped. I feel lost. I feel like a horrible person. Hopelessness
I'm a 24-year-old male and believe I have low self-esteem. Whenever someone says they're proud of me, compliments my looks, or acknowledges my kindness, I respond with thanks, but in the end, it feels as though nobody has ever complimented me. I often feel inferior to people, even those much younger, and I know I shouldn't, but I don't know how to stop. \n\nDo you have any idea why I feel this way, and why do I keep forgetting or only half-believing what people say to me?"\r \n\r \n\r \n\r \n\r \n\r \n Why do I keep forgetting or only half believing compliments people give me?
You pushed everyone away. You're always depressed so nobody sticks around. You know you need help but you do nothing about it. \n\nYou needed support but there was nobody there. Now you wake up every morning just to drag yourself to a place that makes you feel so far from your path. \n\nPLEASE PLEASE OPEN YOUR EYES BEFORE YOU LOSE EVERYTHING! \n\nDon't go back to your old ways... There's no worse feeling then wanting to talk to someone and realizing you have nobody.
I (18m) have been struggling with anxiety and depression lately since me and my partner have split up and got different living conditions. We had an argument a couple nights before i left because my anxiety was throwing me for a loop. i have issues with trust and opening up because so many girls in the past have hurt me and cheated and they always made me feel bad even when i didn\031t do anything wrong they would yell at me and just call me things i didn\031t even think of. ive been burned so much in my past its hard to find that trust. i met a girl not to long after my junior year of high school and we clicked it worked all so well together and we worked like peas in a pod. i moved in not to long after with her like 3 months later and everything was smooth. untill recently i had been having no anxiety no issues with my mental health she made my life amazing from where i was coming from. she had saved me. \nbut we had a couple issues come up lately cause with my past issues i had some anxiety spirals happen when she was out with her friend and i had been really upset cause she by what dhe told me as i remember she would be home soon but an hour later goes by and she still isn\031t home and ik i was wrong to get freaked out in her being out with her friend but i have so many issues with girls saying they are going out with their friends and alot of my exes used the same phrase saying im going out with friends come up later i found out they had been with a friend that was a guy and cheated on me. now it seems like shes growing more distant and ik shes busy with work and everything but i still see her snap score go up when shes at work and im not saying she\031s doing anything but she barely texts me anymore and she barely responds. when i left she made a promise to me that we wouldn\031t see other people and that we wouldn\031t want anything but us because we still loved each other at the time and we didn\031t want anyone else but now im confused hurt and upset because the girl i love and would drop and do anything for just seems to not care& I (18m) am in a complicated place rn with my well partner and im really struggling mentally&
I will more than likely regret this post but here we go. I've always had an inside voice it's me not someone else but also not me? It gets really loud sometimes especially when I mess up if I had a tough day with my kids it's the worst, I absolutely hate the quiet it's gotten bad lately and I do believe it's due to depression/anxiety. I just want to quiet this voice. It's so cruel sometimes and I don't know why I'm so broken I'm just so broken I don't know who I am anymore I am struggling as a mom as a wife as a person and I just need it to stop sometimes. I feel hazy and blank most days I feel like I'm sinking and can't pull myself up I don't want to be this person. Inner monologue/depression
I don\031t know what to put here I\031m too tired to write anything. My head hurts and I can\031t think clearly. I guess this is all life has in store for me, being a sad pathetic loser who disappoints his parents and does nothing else in the world. Everything\031s a hell hole and I don\031t have it in me to fix it because I\031m such a lazy fuck. I\031m ugly as fuck, dumb as fuck, and I have nothing really going for me in life. Idk I don\031t really care anymore I\031m just looking for a way out of this miserable hell hole I don\031t like the feeling of being alive
Sometimes I feel like I am gaslighting myself into thinking I am getting bullied, but then I realize that the things people say to me are not right.\n\nFor starters, I am queer girl and open about it, but you would never really be able to tell by the way I look. I am both feminine and masculine and can fit in as the next average joe&\n\nat least that\031s what I thought till people starting calling me ugly and slurs and casually being homophobic towards me.\n\nIt seems as though I cannot go a day without my sexuality being brought up, or if I do something or say something weird or trying to make a joke, it\031s because I am not straight.\n\nI have had siblings friends parents openly call me unattractive for that fact and what I am trying to put out here, is that is there something I am doing to manifest the way people treat me?\n\nI have such terrible self esteem that I have to put my head down when i walk in my dorm or around campus. I am a sophomore and still am having trouble finding new friends. I do not fit in with the GSA kids that much.. and i just don\031t really know what to do. I already signed a lease for next year and so I am having trouble with the idea of transferring. I don\031t know what to do. I am being bullied in college
I can\031t remember almost any of my childhood, and when I try and think about it I just feel uneasy. Even when I see childhood photos where I am happy/smiling, I feel sick to my stomach and sometimes cry, and I don\031t know why I react like that. Every once and awhile i\031ll remember a totally random and insignificant memory and it makes me physically uncomfortable, like a sensation of pure dread washes through my whole body. Does this happen to anybody else? And does anyone know why I might feel like this? Why am I like this
I would Just like to have someone to talk to. If anyone wants to listen feel free to dm me.\n\nThank you all. Anyone here who is willing to listen?
So I would like\nto know if anyone is experiencing the same thing as me, basically whenever i try to sleep, sometimes i get butterfly in my stomach and start to become delusional, i will basically believe anything that i think of, and get scared of anything, like if I think of my mom dying, I will get very stressed and I will literally cry because im scared of my mom dying, and I keep worrying about the most random stuff, whether it be a bear entering our house, or whatever, ill just get scared and believe anything Identifying
I understand that a big part of indecision is fear of a bad outcome and wanting to avoid that and seeing certain choices as objectively right or wrong. If I pick the right choice things will work out and if I pick the wrong choice it is an objective catastrophe. I know it doesn't have to be like that, that you can make whatever pick work out for you. I can know these things intellectually but I don't feel that way emotionally or mentally. I still feel very tense imagining the outcome where things go wrong. It doesn't seem like something I can suddenly implement for my current major decision. I can't just tell myself "it's gonna work out" and let go, I need to be mentally adjusted enough to be able to take that to heart and be able to let go and that's a journey. For the time being I need ot be able to make decisions from where I'm at.\n\nAnd even with that, someone who is at ease is still left with the task of tackling the decision, they still must account for various factors - those things won't happen by itself. I just can't see what's true. I get pulled by each direction and can't let go of anything. I doubt everything I come up with in favour of either choices, so I'm left with complete uncertainty. I don't know if some factor I consider is just me overthinking things / being obsessive. I wish I could see outside myself, so I could make a better decision for myself. I wish I had a formula or way of seeing things to help me weigh my choices. This aspect of my indecision I call feeling blind.\n\nIt also doesn't help that I struggle to manage my thoughts, perhaps it's ADHD, I can't stop procrastinating and struggle to stay focused, so I already know I can't give things a reasonable amount of thought. The feeling of going into a boxing match with one week of training whilst your opponent has had one year, you know you don't stand a chance, but have to do it. This aspect of my indecision I call feeling unprepared.\n\nSure, you could say no one ever will be able to be fully prepared or able to see things fully clearly, but this really overlooks legitimate obstacles that affect me personally and disproportionately more than normal people like the adhd and anxiety/obsessiveness. This adds another layer of confusion for me, where I don't know how to account for these personal difficulties when making decisions. The struggle to make major decisions
Me and my bf were so happy together and we were planning to get married soon but everything changed in few minutes, the day Matthew perry died me and my bf were talking about him and I\031m next 20 min my bf had an cardiac arrest I rushed to the hospital but he took his breathe in my arms. There were no one with us few friends came in support but everyone changed after his funeral they ghosted me and now I feel alone and terrible. I do not eat or sleep I think about dying but I look at my mom and swallow my grief somehow. Nights are restless and life has become punishment without him . I still wait for him calls and text , acceptance is the hardest part and I\031m not able to do that . Lost someone I love
I was very uncomfortable today, and it seemed like I was blacking out. But not like, drunk blackout or falling asleep. Sort of like I was watching my body on autopilot?\n\nIt was physical discomfort, mixed with high anxiety, & being tired. Not sleepy-tired, just mentally taxed.\n\nIs there a name for that? Being so uncomfortable your brain starts blacking out?
To let me know that she has a mental illness and she is on medication. Nothing changed for me or her after hearing it. I am one of those types of people that want to "invest" in healthy relationships, told her that whenever she is feeling ready to trust what it is with me im gonna be here. I also for once was open about my past trauma with relationships and that im not into moving fast but id rather get to know who im with and she respected it. She told me from the get go that she wants to have more dates like this and made her feel youthful and alive (she is, im not =\005)\n\nWhen/if she tells me and if we are either in a romantic or non romantic relationship, I'll be back to get some tips from ya all on how to better support myself to be able to help. Had an amazing first date with a girl and she was brave enough
I haven\031t cut myself in over 3 months, ever since my family found out. They tried to put me into therapy but I only had 3 sessions since my Medicare ran out. Ever since then I\031ve had thoughts about it almost everyday. At first it was a form of punishment for myself, if I did something bad and my mom or other family member only yelled at me I felt that it wasn\031t enough and I needed to be hurt to learn my lesson. Then it became a a outlet of relief for me. Family trouble or school trouble, I would cut myself a few times. Sometimes it would be punishment for myself or to make me feel better. After the therapy stopped it took a couple weeks for the thoughts to really comeback because they really never stopped. I don\031t know why I didn\031t tell my therapist that, maybe because I was afraid. I have a little pocket on a bag that I don\031t use anymore where I had some utility knife blades just incase I really want to do it one day, I know that alone is bad, but I can\031t separate my self from them. Whenever I feel like a fat piece of shit, a bad son or person, I grab a blade and just think about it. The i out it back and I just feel I like a failure and coward. The urge to cut myself keeps coming back and I\031m afraid I\031m gonna give in one day
I\031m not talking about PMS or being \034moody.\035 I am genuinely curious if my period could be exacerbating my depression symptoms. Could my menstrual cycle be fueling my depression?
It all started with my mom and dad they had me at a very young age and they both had trouble with cheating and so they'd argue a lot I think the worst case of it was when I was 10/11 mum and dad were in a really at it after that I was staying at my nannies place to get away from all of it and then I and my mom go home pretty late in the day and we find pills and blood on counters so my mom calls my dad to see what he's been doing and we hear some noise from the back garden my dad is climbing over the fence bloody all over and all I can do is just watch as my mum tries to get him in house and I just start crying my eyes out and then I see my dad bloody in front of me trying to calm me down.\nAnd then after that everything calmed down for a bit but then they started fighting again and then stopped and fought again and I kept telling myself that it would be the last fight but it wasn't and then it did for a long time but then they fought again but it wasn't that bad but then they divorced and I live with my dad and I go to college now and throughout that, I suppressed my emotional feelings I don't know how to deal with it now and I just really don't want to be a burden to them.\nAnd I have a little context of dyslexia so it made my life a lot harder and more anxious. Child trauma I guess
I am someone who is very extroverted and very reliant of being around people in order to enjoy myself. Whenever I'm alone, I have an extreme inability to have fun or enjoy anything I do. Ive tried everything, my main hobby is playing video games so Ive tried playing my favorite games, finding new games, etc. Ive tried rewatching shows and Ive tried starting new shows. Ive tried writing, art, going outside, working out. I don't have fun doing anything and nothing sounds fun to do.\n\nThe weird thing is, I'm not depressed. I don't feel sad and I function perfectly fine and normal. The only thing wrong with me is a constant state of boredom and inability to have fun no matter what I try. People underestimate how horrible it can feel to be bored all day every day year round with no cure. How do you have fun?
It feels like that dark hole is back trying to suck me in. But as always ( when it appears) keep fighting against it. Eh and eh and
so im 16 if that matters but i currently live with my sisters due to family issues my sisters are nearing graduation so of course they are like super packed with school and stuff i dont wake up super early so i like never see them leave the house for school but they get home around 6 and go straight to bed and repeat i also dont have any friends in this city (this matters) so its not like i can leave the house to go hang out but i dont remember the last time i had social interaction? like with someone irl i get so bored its insane and im starting to get sad i tried talking to them but how can i if they are asleep im also schizo but its not bad thankfully but i havent had a human interaction in like a week and my meds are seriously not helping as the voices i hear get worse? (also to clarify i am a complete loser and spend my time mostly playing video games) and also before you say "just go outside" i cannot go outside without being accompanied by someone or ill have like a panic attack i actually might be going crazy i havent had a human interaction in over 2 weeks
My therapist and I basically had an argument today. I haven't been able to use the "tools" she gave me because it's accessible via PC, and my PC is in the repair shop. She told me that I have been regressing so much lately that she doesn't think she can help me anymore, that all I do is complain during sessions, yet I am unable to "find a solution" ,\nto my home life problems. And I told her I'm not sure as he can help me anymore either. The session ended on such a sudden, empty, sour note. I have cried all day, I'm dehydrated. Im 21 and I've been with this therapist since I was 14. I feel so alone, she was the only person I had who I could talk to about my terrible relationship with my parents without judgement, and now she's gone. My dad has offered to find a new therapist, but the risk of this ever happening again is really scaring me away from ever seeking therapy again. I have abandonment issues, every friend I've had has also left me for my home life problems/depression/tendency to complain. When I complain I'm not often seeking a solution, I just need to get it off my chest because I'm alone and can't vent to my parents because they are the ones making me miserable in the first place. I feel like I need to tell someone about it to make sure it's not just me noticing a problem. But anyway, I believe chances are a new therapist will also get sick of me after a year or so so i dont feel like trying. But what CAN I do? I have no one left. My therapist dumped me...now what?
Mine was so much better since, well, forever. I had a test on which I did surprisingly well (lowkey proud of myself). Wasn't able to muster up courage to create boundaries with some friends but hopefully soon How was your day today? (vent if u want)
It has been happening to me for a while. I have a busy family. My siblings have sports practices and my parents have errands, so it\031s common for someone to be out of the house.\n\nBut for some reason, whenever I know that there is someone out of the house, I get a feeling that is hard to describe. It\031s that kind of unsettled feeling that something just isn\031t right. Especially if someone is out late at night, I find it much easier to sleep once they\031ve returned home. It\031s not a worried feeling or an anxious feeling, it\031s just off.\n\nI have no idea what could be the cause of this feeling, and I don\031t know if other people have experienced it. If anyone has any ideas or explanations, I would appreciate it. =O<\xfc Why do I have an off feeling whenever someone is out of the house?
I can feel myself breaking more and more. I'm scared. I've dealt with mental health all my life but I've never really felt fear like I do now. The terror is overwhelming and makes me feel so helpess. I keep picking up the pieces but what happens when I can't make a functioning mind with the pieces I have left? What comes next when you reach the end of the line? I'm breaking
I'm looking for mental health games that focus on teaching about mental health from real-life experiences. Any recommendations? Mental health games
That's the damn reason I bottle up my tears, because of that type of people \nlike GODDAMN can we normalize that crying is ok?? I don't need another mental problem! \nSeriously let people have their time and then ask them if they're alright instead of going up to someone and tell them that crying is useless\n\n because guess what, YOUR advice is useless, and only worsen the situation "Don't cry, because crying won't do anything "
I have molars on both sides of my mouth that are sharp and constantly poking my tongue. If I chew on my left, I risk biting my cheek. I have a blister now, so that bothers me as well. I'm constantly touching it with my finger, my tongue, grinding my teeth to "file" it, and it's causing me anxiety. My dentist appointment is going to be in February so I'm just going to have to deal with this and I really hate it. I am not diagnosed with OCD, but there is a probable chance I have it. I need to discuss it with my therapist. Sharp molars in my mouth repeatedly bothering me and on my mind
Due to my traumatic upbringing, I have developed CPTSD, BPD and depression. So I started seeing my therapist back in July of this year. For no particular reason, I\031m having a really difficult time with trusting + opening up to her which, I don\031t understand why. Interestingly enough, I find myself becoming angry and lashing out at my therapist in session. More specifically, whenever she asks about instances of past traumas that occurred. Why would this anger me?\n\nLately, I\031ve been feeling quite low due to traumaversaries. As a result, I have resorted back to engaging in self destructive behaviours. Which leaves me feeling like a complete failure and so I attempted to withhold this information from my therapist& \n\nHowever, my therapist figured out something was up with me and asked what was going on. Despite, wanting to open up to her, I was not able to explain myself and instead got angry at her for asking.\n\nMy therapist knew I was hurting and offered me a hug which I accepted and found to be very comforting. Next think IK, im having a breakdown, she is by my side and im crying in session for the first time& \n\nAt this time, I have yet to fill her in fully between the tears that occurred last session. HELP! I\031m dreading my session tmr& I\031m in DISBELIEF, MORTIFIED even& I HATE myself for having been emotionally messy in front of her. In fact, I\031m BEYOND embarrassed, feeling like TOTAL fool and engaging in self destructive behaviours once again. \n\nAdvice anybody? Therapists? Thank you! Made a total fool of myself in session
My parents were violent drunks and it really did a number on me as a child. Even on good day they had a hard time being kind to me because I was always \034a little different\035 and didn\031t react the way they wanted to stuff. \n\nAs a preteen I moved out to live with other relatives who were much kinder to me. Family values are important to me so about a decade ago I reconnected with my parents. We have fragile adult relationship with lots of boundaries. \n\nI have a 7 day Christmas trip scheduled with them starting tomorrow. They are excited to see me. \n\nIt seemed doable a couple months ago. But I don\031t think I can go. I was just diagnosed with autism and it\031s bringing up a lot of feelings about about childhood mistreatment. \n\nAs an adult who has done a lot of work to overcome childhood abuse, I 100% understand it\031s my responsibility to take care of myself, and I have to prioritize my mental health needs over that of my family. \n\nBut God it\031s hard I can\031t get any support or validation from people around here. My extended family will be really angry with me. My friends say I should try harder to forgive my family. \n\nIt seamed like a really fucked up thing to say in the context some one who serially belittled, starved and beat a child. My parents have never even acknowledged the harm they did or apologize to me. I am really shocked when that sort of advice comes out of the mouths of people are supposed to care for me. \n\nI talked to my therapist about it and she said that only I can know if it\031s worth it to visit my parents. It\031s been stressing me out. I\031m having a little bit of a breakdown. I tried to bring it up with my psychiatrist today but I couldn\031t think of the right way to do it. There aren\031t any meds she can prescribe for a fucked up family anyway. \n\nI\031ve been totally reasonable here aren\031t I? I\031m in the right not to go? I just need to hear that it\031s OK not to visit my abusive family for Christmas
For some reason I have gotten an obsession with Auston Matthews. It has gotten to the point where it is affecting my mental and physical health. I\031ve started to starve myself in order to be skinny enough for him to like me. I\031ve been looking at plastic surgeries to make myself look prettier for him. Looking at clothes that would make myself look like someone he would like. I have never met this man, I will never meet this man. Let alone have a relationship with him. And today I learned that he has a girlfriend and that absolutely BROKE me. I spent all day crying, hating myself and being disgusted by my appearance. I know I will get over this and it will take time for me to get over it (I\031ve had this happen to me a lot of times before) But it just hurts me so much to have this much energy spent on a person. Every time this happens, it makes extremely depressed. Because I know no matter what I do, I will never have the life I want. I will be just some poor, fat, and ugly girl who kills herself before she turns 25. I have absolutely no redeeming qualities, no friends, no boyfriend, no talents, NOTHING. I have been diagnosed with anxiety, depression, OCD, and I am taking medication for it. I\031m on the highest dosage but it doesn\031t seem to make a difference, I\031m still absolutely insane. I really don\031t think I have any reason to be alive. How to stop parasocial relationships/obsession?
I was first diagnosed with depression when I was around 11 which is where I feel this primarily started. I\031m 19 now, and have been on several different anti-depressants so I\031ve rly tried the medication route and always feel pretty sick on them. Even when I feel massively depressed I\031ve tried to work on keeping good things in my life even through that period so that when I come out of it I can still have my relationships in tact, etc (no burning bridges). But when this feeling of self sabotage arises it comes almost randomly, and normally when I\031m feeling like I\031m doing okay. Right now I am in a really great healthy relationship with a girl I think I really do love for about a year and want to break up for no reason. I also feel i want to give up my college classes. When I feel like this I feel like all emotion has been drained out of my body and want to shed every bit of everything out of my life. Does anyone else ever feel like this or have tips to make it better? It happens often for me and I have to really try and tell myself to not go through with it I keep self-sabotaging my life and don\031t know how to stop
Why am i so avoidant? With literally everything. My safe space is always alone and to myself. I understand it may be because I faced a lot alone as a young child and that\031s true. But even now, im in college, and I AVOID CHECKING my grades because I fear I\031ll get too anxious. I never check my grades at all i just do my best. I never post on social media anymore. I avoid attention as much as I can. And I love living a low life. Any reasons why? Why am i avoidant?
Hi readers,\n\nI am an IT guy who works from home and spends more than 15 hours in the same room. I have a female house mate who used to be an awesome friend but then she started avoiding me. When I wanted to clarify, she insisted it's in my mind but then all the calls or texts would go unnoticed. From my perspective, being new to the city and spending the majority of the day trapped inside a room, I'd feel really good when I'd get to talk to her. I'd wait until she came back home from her late night shifts just to be there and talk to her. \n\nI might have ended up giving desperation vibes. I'm not in love with her. However being my only friend in the city, I might've given wrong hints. I tried dating apps but would barely get a right swipe. If it's a match and I text first, then I don't get a reply. Which is kinda depressing for me. I workout daily in the gym and have been trying to interact with some of the people. However, most of them like to wear headphones and avoid talking to strangers. \n\nI did have a very bad argument with this girl recently and we are not on talking terms anymore. I made a lot of good memories with her in only about 3-4 months and it kills me to be not able to talk to her at the moment while still living in the same house. We've tried clearing things out, apologizing, talking again, but end up in the same trap everytime. \n\nI'd really appreciate your opinion/suggestions on this. Right now I'm trying really hard to distance myselves from her. She's being really toxic nowadays, only contacting me when she needs to get something done. Otherwise just avoiding calls or texts or blocking and unblocking. My final decision is to distance myselves but the problem is we stay in the same house and this isn't gonna change for atleast another 4 months. How to distance yourselves from someone who lives in the same house as you?
I recently moved to the U.S in July of this year and I\031m finding really difficult to adjust. I already had social anxiety before I moved but it\031s been so much worse since I\031ve been here. A lot of things are so different and I feel so alone. This was the first time I\031ve seriously considered ending my own life, and I feel like I can\031t talk to any of my friends back home about it because they all think that I should be having the time of my life. I have no friends here and I constantly feel stupid for not knowing how things work here. I feel like a failure. \nAny advice? Coping with life in the US
I feel like my mom is just abusive. As a kid, I was scared around her if she was mad. She once busted my head with a broom. She\031d beat the ever living sh** out of me over the smallest things. She\031d bite me on a few occasions. She calls my mental illnesses \034self diagnoses\035 despite them being diagnosed and placed on meds??? She says that \034your bpd is probably making you hallucinate those bad memories of me.\035 I try to talk to her and vent, for once in my life, and she immediately stands up defensive \034what do you want me to do, all parents make mistakes, you caused me hell growing up, you know how much that puts on me.\035 After she gets mad, she then starts crying \034oh I\031m a terrible parent, I ruin everything, why don\031t you tell me how bad I am so I can feel worse\035 Then a couple days later she is on the phone with a doc, and when she hangs up, \034you not gonna ask me who that was?\035 \034Who was it\035 \034I admitted myself I\031m on \034sewer slide watch\035 \034I\031m proud you got help\035 \034that\031s not what you say to someone who\031s going through issues!\035 As if I am not going through tens of mental illnesses a day& \034you know you caused that\035 \034I highly doubt me venting to you caused it entirely\035 \034it did most of it\035 like she never takes blame for anything, she gets defensive, but if I dare to speak my mind even calmly, I\031m bashing her. She always pulls \034you have a roof over your head\035 like it\031s an option for her. Basically she can do anything but if I do the same, I get shamed for it. She shames me for being unable to work on my feet due to health issues, silly stuff like that. It\031s just so much things I can think of to the point I can\031t even listen it chronologically. Am I crazy? Need insight if it\031s abuse or not
You know that one person who everyone appears to like but secretly doesn\031t.. they are the kinda awkward one of the group..You know says something that no one knows how to respond to or just laughs and moves on to a different subject. Socially awkward in most situations and doesn\031t know how to interact with people yet yearns for relationships with people. This is me and I hate it& I literally feel like people just tolerate me or feel bad for me so they talk to me.. i think some people like me but only for short periods of time& I want to be the fun person that everyone likes and wants to spend time with but I never will be because I don\031t know how to respond to people and I either shut down or try to hard& I hate myself for it and remind myself multiple times a day how much I hate myself for it & I truly don\031t know what can be done I\031m the awkward one and I hate it
It\031s currently 1:30 am. My, what, 5th or 6th sleepless night in a row. I want to go for a walk, to escape everything. Everything\031s feels terrible. I feel empty. My brain feel sfoggy. Everything feels wrong.\n\nI had a dream, a while ago, where I saw and felt my self dying. My breathing slowed down until my consciousness was no longer connected to my body, and I saw my pale face. \n\nEver since that dream, everything has felt wrong. Ever since that dream, all the good things turned bad. I feel forgotten. My worst fear has come to life. Ever since that dream.\n\nI want to be free. But I don\031t know how. I want to take a leap. But not every leap, is a leap of faith. \n\nI\031m scared and disappointed of what I am. 3 years back, I thought I was the happiest person. But now, and even 6 months after I said that. I realise how gullible I was.\n\nNow that I think of it, things felt wrong before that dream too. They were finally starting to look right again. No longer drowning in my own depressing thoughts and self sabotage. \n\nBut now, ever since that dream, things have reverted.\nI\031m lower than I\031ve ever been, I don\031t know what to do.\n\nI want to go for a walk, but I\031m scared of what will happen if I do. I want to go for a walk
Basically AITA Can I talk to someone about my ex? It\031s a ton of information
Sorry for the long post. \n\nYou've been warned.\n\nI need non bias, real opinions in a situation. Maybe not even opinions. Maybe just "that sucks and I'm sorry". I'm always the strong one. I have no one to talk to. \n\nWell over a decade ago I got involved with an entertainment group that deals mostly with kids. \n\nI was promoted to director on a very vital endeavor that helped fund the rest of the year. I never took pay, for any of it. The kudos and family environment was enough for me. After my kids grew and left, I stayed because I loved it so much. \n\nThe company higher ups (turned non profit ) never really acknowledged my continued contributions other than a thanks once in a while. \n\nThe founders would always, always do that, even of the "company" wouldn't. \n\nThe original founders were involved even after the non profit status and still ran the majority of the day to day operations. \n\nThen this year they were accused of embezzlement. \n\nClaiming innocence even now with felony Charges, they separated from the non profit and started a new company, and bringing me with, continued to honor my position at the new company, in my same capacity. \n\nThey say they were owed the money due to overworking, underpayment of services, etc. And that much of it is B S and the company was using funds for personal use too. \n\nA very lengthy battle is going to happen.\n\nThe non profit could've cared less about me and wasn't truthful about many things, which I was (am) pretty upset about, since I had 0 involvement with the aforementioned activity and didn't deserve to be lied to.\n\nI tried to stay neutral, but the non profit had no plans to keep me for the specific position I was in, as the original founder is who I partnered with and I couldn't possibly continue the special featured events without them. It's OUR baby and idea, and the Non profit didn't have the chops to ever carry it out.\n\nI'm feeling SO conflicted supporting possible felons, but they are the only ones who have supported ME and I'm still able to pull a 1099 paycheck from them while all of this is happening. I need the money and I need the project for my soul. This project is my baby and I can't give it up. It helps that it's a seasonal event so after the 1st it'll be gone for a year. So there might be much that happens IN this next year, but so far we are still planning FOR next year. \n\nThe community is split with everyone fighting and basically "if you're not for me you're against me" is the additive of both parties. \n\nI'm exhausted, and I don't know what to feel. Close friends are on camp "them" and it's like you can't talk to them now. We've even lost funding, and local support due to the bad press (the founders new company) \n\nI feel bad that they were so overworked they felt the need to be dishonest, and that they are the obvious scapegoats. The company's lack of oversight is astonishing. It's on them, too.\n\nI am pissed the non-profit powers that be lied to me about multiple things and I felt like they have handled the entire ordeal very badly. Lots of things were done that were very alarming and knee-jerk. \n\nI am angry the founders basically took what they thought they deserved, (it was a ALOT) and I never got paid for anything beyond a few gift cards. \n\nI feel like the founders are untrustworthy now, and feel horrible for even saying it out loud. Are they? Are they wrong? Guilty? Con artists and I'm being duped? Am I projecting and they are the victims? \n\nI hope all this makes sense. \n\nI'm lost. Need Coping Help
My older sister is 26 and suffers from depression. She goes to therapy and takes antidepressants. I feel like she is always negative and takes her depression out on me. When she tells me she\031s having a bad day or even if she\031s not, I\031ll cook her dinner or order us takeout. She complains that I never ask her how she is but she tells me everyday that she\031s depressed without me asking so I don\031t understand. She throws all her problems on me and gets mad when I don\031t react and answer the way she wants. I\031ve been dealing with my own mental health issues ever since the pandemic and can\031t handle her always throwing her stuff on me. Im empathetic towards her and her problems, but isn\031t her therapist the one who is supposed to listen to her all her problems? What more can I do for her even though she\031s draining me? Any answers would be appreciated thank you. How can I help my older sister with depression
In the quiet echo of your solitude this Christmas, remember that you are not alone. Amidst the fragments of a fractured heart, know that healing is a journey, not a destination. Embrace the ache, for it is a testament to the depth of your capacity to love. \nIn the midst of the holiday cheer, when your soul feels like a tattered melody, find solace in the company of your own resilience. Acknowledge the pain, but let it be a stepping stone towards a brighter dawn. Illuminate the corners of your despair with the warmth of self-compassion. \nAs you navigate the labyrinth of emotions, recognize that strength often blooms from vulnerability. Share your story, for in the collective narrative of heartbreak, you'll discover echoes of understanding. Seek solace in the silent kinship of those who have weathered similar storms, their unwavering support a testament to the universality of human experience. For those alone this Christmas.
It is hard for me to articulate what exacly is going on, but I'm going to try my best because I honestly don't know what else to do. \n\nI am struggling to come up with complex and coherent thoughts and speech, I'm lacking imagination, and focus. Every time I try to speak to someone, my mind goes blank, and even outside of that, I'm simple minded and not really doing much. Even struggling to remember things and process things that I have heard or read. It's gotten to the point where this is all I can think about, and it's causing me severe mental anguish and constant pain.\n\nI feel kinda like a zombie, or a robot, except I'm still feeling emotion, but it's mostly anxiety and depression. I'm also struggling to just do basic tasks, or come up with anything to do. I feel like this has been happening since quarantine began, but has been gradually getting worse, and over the past few weeks, have been particularly bad. I recently began seeing a psychiatrist and I've tried taking Trazodone and then Citalopram, and I'm not entirely sure if this medication is what exacerbated my problems or if it has helped at all. \n\nI don't know if there is something physically wrong with my brain, or if it's all mental, but I just feel so broken and lost. My mother is dealing with physical illness of her own and it's difficult to support her while also going though my own nonsense. I am just completely lost right now, so if anyone has any advice I would appreciate it immenesly, and thank you for hearing my ramblings. There is something really wrong with me.
Lately I am feeling aphethy towards everything that I enjoy and i feel more distanced from my friends, i always feel like the People around me are better than me in everything I though i was good at. Am I being too selfish for hating on the people that enjoy themselves? Am i being egotistical for refusing to get help? Am I capable enough ?\nThose are the questions that I ask myself everyday, and i tried to lose weight but I always quit in the a couple of days i tried to wach self help videos only to forget about it tomorrow. I feel i every path i taken leads to regret or a dead end.\nany form of help will be appreciated. I need help
All I do is relive my trauma literally not 5 minutes that go's by without it. At least 1 time a week I have an... episode that really makes me relive it. Like it feels like it's happening all over again for the first time. It's consuming my entire life. How do I stop reliving it?
(30m) I live with my parents and siblings. We live in a small isolated town. Everyday, I get up go to work and do my daily work.\n I just get disappointed when I come home to nothing ready to eat and having anyone talk to me. They only talk to me when they need/ask for things.\n Me and my parents keep the income going on the house and we keep the house intact. I just feel disappointed on my siblings, they don't want do better for themselves and my parents can't kick them out because we have no one to turn to, we're basically on our own and we have a big family. \nIt just sucks how quickly the food goes around here and i always buy food and I barely have money to spend for myself. I only have enough to get me by with lunch money.\n I'm the bad guy, when it's time for me to eat. I can't leave my parents too. They need me as well. I'm just disappointed on how a good person like me, always get like shit.. Feeling disappointed in myself
Over the course of this year, I have called out enough times to be placed on a final notice. One more and I\031m out. \n\nI don\031t think it\031s excessive to my standards, it\031s every couple of months. To me it\031s amazing I do it as little as a do. I push myself a lot a lot. \n\nBut to the mentally healthy? HAAAAAAA. I am nothing. A failure. Worth nothing. \n\nI tried the therapy my work offers. They said my issues were too complex for them. \n\nI tried a virtual therapist, she said I was \034reading off a list\035. \n\nTried another, just didn\031t vibe. \n\nI am suffering so immensely almost everyday. I can\031t accomplish the things I want to in life. I want to get better. \n\nBut I have no idea how. \n\nWork said I could take a leave of absence. But I can\031t afford that and therapy. \n\nI can\031t find good therapy. One more call out and I\031m fired
Hey Reddit, \nI think there is something wrong with me. Might not be though. That feeling slowly rots me from the inside and ruins my life, piece by piece. \n\nThis post is likely to have zero to no structure, so feel free to ask anything. \n\nI am a M (22), studying and working. I feel \034weird\035 every single day, some days in some specific circumstances the feeling intensifies so much I am relatively close to ending it. I feel like my partner does not love me and does not like our love life, I constantly feel like they are cheating on me. I am not sure if I am anything at all: i am not sure what i like, i am not sure if i love my family, or if i am even remotely interested in them. I am not sure if i have any friends, or if they consider me a friend. \n\nI haven\031t had any similar thoughts up until i turned 18. Then, i started realizing how socially awkward i am (even though i generally have not had issues with getting \034friends\035 and \034girlfriends\035, which surprises me most at this point due to my looks, as i would be considered a 4 tops). Now, i choose to stay at home due to being scared of social interaction and some of them are so stressful i forget how they went and what i said. I was diagnosed with two mental disorders (depression, bpd) but i do not really know which one is correct. I did therapy for a couple of years and now i try to stay away from psychologists as most of them are a scam in my eyes. \n\nSo, i have a feeling this is not what a usual person feels like but i have no way of finding out what exactly is wrong with me. I think i specifically care about how other people perceive that \034wrongness\035. There might be something wrong with me
For psychosis symptoms Abilify or quetiapine?\n\nOkay tomorrow I see my psychiatrist i was supposed to start my medication 2 weeks ago but been terrified to do so because I\031m scared it will make my symptoms worse as I have a 2 year old son home with me & because my symptoms are only mild , I keep seeing bad and good reviews about these two medications Abilify and quetiapine . Which one ?? Who had a good experience and which one would you recommend?! For psychosis Abilify or quetiapine ?
I\031m 17M and never get invited to hangout. Not even to play video games. I\031ve asked people to hangout and they just say they are busy Why does nobody ever ask me to hangout?
I found someone who made me so happy and I think I lost them and I don\031t know why or what happened the last thing she said was I love you and now she\031s gone she blocked me on everything and idk what to do I just want to feel like everything is gonna be okay but I don\031t think it will be how can I live without the person who made my life worth living I don\031t know what to do I\031m lying on the floor of my bathroom crying right now I feel like I\031m gonna throw up and I don\031t have anyone to turn to to talk about it she was all I had I feel like I\031ve lost everything Idk what to do
I have been working at a small company for about 3 years now. Early on I figured out this place is really toxic because of the owners and the people that have been here for a long time in leadership that are yes men that don't know what they are actually agreeing to. They also will take anything you say to them in private and immediately bring it up to the owners. \nThe owners don't know mgmt 101 yet have read numerous books on mgmt. Yelling at employees in meetings with other employees on a call and in person. Not giving clear direction or contradicting something you as a manager just set with your subordinates. Giving us something nice as a company and then threatening if anyone "fucks up" then we lose it. He pushes everyone so hard that people break often here and quit. Those that have been here a long time I see they have anxiety issues. Also, there's just no work culture here whatsoever. Even though we can work from home, take time off kind of whenever, and the staff is understanding there is this air always that you just not good enough because you're asked to do things you have no idea how to do basically constantly. Training and documentation whats that. \n\nWhen I confronted the owner about this one on one deflected, blamed me, used it's just "my culture" for the way he handles employees (he is half japanese but native to the US where we are so no one sees how his culture come into play) Also that he leads by fear. When he told me that last thing I knew it was hopeless to get him to see how wrong he was about how to manage his company. \n\nAnyways thats the backdrop. I've spent a lot of time and energy trying to fix these basic things in the company instead of doing my main job because it feels like the company is so dysfunctional and never will get to where it should be so that the profit sharing we get will make any difference to us. \n\nIn July I just couldn't handle the stress of work and things at home and had what I call a mental breakdown. I was trying to put up some blinds for my wife in our bedroom and any little setback just made me madder and madder at myself till I was completely twisted physically. Luckily my wife is really caring and helped me calm down and get it together but I was not right since then. I started going to therapy on and off and taking SSRI's or SSNI. They seemed to help but I know it's my job. I've talked to excoworkers and others about the situation and I just need to get out. \n\nThen over the weekend, I had another nervous breakdown myself and I had a talk with myself where I felt just wiped at the end and kinda of reset. Now it's Tuesday and I'm slowly rebuilding my mental state, but I'm noticing that things are feeling like when I first started noticing the company I work for was shitty or when I was trying more. I am a bit worried about how this will affect my mental state going forward since it seems like I'm just starting over again after about 3 years. Has anyone else experienced something like this? \n\nI am seriously looking to get another job right now to get out of this situation because I know the issues are my work. I've never had an experience like this in my 20+ years of working. Broke down a few days ago and now I feel like I'm repeating the past
Hi everyone! I\031m just wondering if anyone has been to a voluntary in stay mental clinic and might be able to offer me some advice on how to cope with that environment and make the most out of the program?\n\nI\031m booked in for a 3-5 week stay starting on the 3rd of Jan. it was recommended to me by my psychologist as he felt I would respond more effectively to therapy in a controlled environment because in his words \034I am not very good at incorporating his advice in my own time at home\035. I have a history of MDD, Social anxiety and ADHD so naturally I\031m a chronic procrastinator and get distracted easily. The program consists of almost 5-6 hours a day of group therapy and one on one psychological/psychiatric treatment. No phones, no internet, no caffeine or nicotine, the only form of entertainment I can bring with me are books but they have to be non fictional and self help by nature& the cost of the program is being covered by my private health insurance (military health fund), costing over 18,000 Australian dollarydoos which I could never afford on my own. So I also feel very privileged in having the opportunity to attend the program, further amplifying my desire to make the most of it. \n\nIt\031s important to note that I\031m not doing this because I am experiencing any major addiction requiring rehab nor am I in a state of crisis. The objective really is to help me learn and incorporate additional coping strategies to further safe guard my state of remission into the future, and explore any other problems that may have been overlooked in the past. In particular childhood trauma. \n\nThe date is getting closer now and I\031m starting to get second thoughts on going. I\031m really anxious about what I might be walking into and what I am leaving behind. I am extremely worried because I\031ll be without my fianc\xe9, who\031s is my main support as well as my 2 year old daughter who I miss like crazy even if I\031ve only been away for a few days. Although my partner is very supportive of me going and I am comforted by the fact that she will have plenty of additional family support while I\031m gone, I\031ve been holding back tears over the last couple weeks just thinking about this and everything. She is also pregnant with our second child due in July so I feel like a selfish A hole&\n\nTLDR: 3-5 week in stay mental ward program coming up, slowly becoming more anxious about how i am going to cope with the program and super anxious about leaving my family behind. I am getting second thoughts about going and am really scared. Please help. Upcoming admission to in stay mental clinic
New to opening up here, everytime I go to talk to anyone, post anything, or share anything it has to be with a purpose, I won\031t do any of the above unless it has a purpose or it doesn\031t matter to me. I almost never post anything on the internet, and barely talk socially. I know I easily could, but but don\031t cuz it would be a waste of time or useless to the other person. Just very lost mentally at what to do. Nothing matters and I can\031t find a way to start any conversation. Confusion and loneliness.
I have been going to therapy religiously, talking to family and friends. Somehow I can\031t stop obsessing over my body image and how I feel so horrible about myself for having small boobs. Idk what to even do because I can\031t get the surgery for a while Literally nothing helps with my body image problem
TW: SOME TALK ABOUT SELFH*RM AND ATTEMPTING\n\nLately I\031ve been thinking I could be having a form of BPD (borderline personality disorder) I have done some tests online and the answers I\031ve gotten is likely to have it. I know they aren\031t accurate but I just wanted to see. Though I have looked up like symptoms and signs of having BPD and I\031m kinda conflicted with it.\n\nWhen I have looked at the symptom there are a lot that I have like fear of abandonment, lack of sense of self (I have change my life goals drastically as well as made some major career changes before), mood swings from irritability/anger to sadness and stress, paranoia when stressed, feeling depressed and empty sometimes, and sometimes have a hard time controlling anger. One that has me a bit iffy is it has says people with BPD experience impulsive behaviour and they list impulsive behaviour with sex, SH, substances, binge eating, gambling and spending. I do have impulsiveness when it comes to eating and spending money, I\031ve never had thought of harming myself or using drugs or alcohol (I do have a drink here and there but that\031s it) \n\nAs well I\031ve looked and seen a lot of people with BPD try to attempt or harm themselves and end up in the hospital due to having sh tendency\031s. \n\nMy issue is I have never had a thought of trying to harm myself or end my life, but my issue is I have never had a thought of trying to harm myself or end my life, but majority of the things that are listed for symptoms of BPD. I relate to, and some of the questions that I would answer in some online assessments would be agree most of the time else. \n\nEven though I do not have those impulsive thoughts to harm myself, or use substances impulsively, could I still potentially have could I still potentially have BPD?\n\nI want to clarify that I am planning on going to my doctor to talk about this since I know I can get the most accurate diagnosis from my doctor, and the online tests aren\031t as accurate. I just wanted to do them just to see so then I can reference it to my doctor saying I have done these tests I know they\031re not accurate but it did say I could potentially have it Could I have BPD?
I feel that when meeting with a mental health care provider (e.g. psychiatrist, therapist, psychiatric nurse practitioner) for the first time; they already know who I am and aren't really interested in anything that I have to say.\n\nAnyone else get this? Not much to say?
I am a 14 year old male which I know is a little young to be asking this but, I need help. I have put myself out there for multiple women and got rejected every time. Overtime I have come to view myself as worthless and unattractive. That's why I am here. I need to learn to love myself but I do not even know where to start. I need tips on how I can love myself and improve my overall image of myself. So please, I need your help. I need help
Trigger warning: SA\n\n\nFor context, I am a young adult in therapy since this summer for help navigating my BPD, CPTSD and depression.\n\nYesterday, my session took an unexpected turn& Feels like, my therapist just knew I was withholding something big from her& Although, she is aware I experienced a traumatic childhood I have never gone into much detail because my therapist is not available weekly. Naturally, the conversation steered towards exploring the impacts of these traumas.\n\nNonetheless, I got really triggered in session by her questions, lashed out at her and I now feel like a total brat. Here\031s how it played out:\n\n- T: Would you be open to sharing with me the types of abuse you experienced growing up? \n\n- Me: Ummmm, k&\n\n- T: May I ask whether it was sexual in nature? \n\n- Me: WHY DO YOU CARE?!??\n\n- T: Mmmmm&\n\n- Me: YOU\031RE NOT SORRY!!!\n\n- T: Of course, I am! What makes you feel like I\031m not?\n\n- Me: SORRY, I\031VE BEEN FEELING REALLY LOW&\n\n- T: Why\031s that?\n\n- Me: BECAUSE I AM!!! \n\n- T: Tell me more?\n\n- Me: YOU QUESTION ME AND TAKE NOTES AS I SPEAK JUST LIKE THE POLICE OFFICERS DID BACK WHEN I WAS BEING INTERVIEWED AFTER MY UNCLE RAPED ME. \n\n- T: I see, thank you for letting me know.\n\n- Me: DONT WRITE THAT DOWN! DONT YOU THINK IK JUST HOW MUCH OF A JOKE MY LIFE REALLY IS BY NOW&?\n\n- T: Your life isn\031t a joke, OP!\n\n\nNgl, I\031m feeling quite nervous about meeting with my therapist again tmr after behaving myself in this manner. Feedback anyone? Therapists what would you do in this situation? Got triggered & lashed out at my therapist
I was raped when very young, and I've been obsessed with everything about sex since then. I can't stop masturbating and I hate it.\nI either choose not to sleep or I sleep for DAYS IN A ROW. No in between.\nI'm a masochist. I am sad, but I feel like I don't want to get better, because the sadness is comforting, and I kind of like being in pain anyway. I self harm and I kind of love it.\nBeing antisocial is ruining my life. I get a panic attack the second someone even says hi to me no joke.\nI get really vivid pictures and fantasies in my head of me harming/killing myself or other people, but I don't know if I should take that seriously or not.\nI overthink everything! My dad could as an example say 'hi' to me a bit off and I'll be panicked for the rest of the day, wondering if he hates me or something.\nI cannot get anything done...if I have stuff to do, most people go and do them, right? Well I just get a panic attack and I get overwhelmed by all the stuff o have to do, and in the end, i never get anything done.\nI barely eat or drink. I'm not forcing myself not to eat, i just don't feel like it/ or i forget to eat/drink. And I don't think that's normal.\nI sit in my room and I either do nothing, or i scroll on my phone for the whole day. I fell like I'm wasting so much of my teenage years.\nWhen I wake up in the mornings, i have no motivation to get out of bed. And because of that, i DONT get out of bed, and it has gotten me in WAAY too much trouble lately.\nCan't I just be a normal fucking teenage girl for one!?\n\nI'm open for advice on any of these topics btw xx\nI also low-key wonder if I actually am depressed or if I'm overreacting Some things I don't know what to do about
I have pimples on certain parts on my body. I can't help but pop them. I get scars everywhere. \n\nI use a needle for my pimples but, I don't clean it. Sometimes just water but that's it. \n\nI like seeing blood coming out. It's satisfying, especially when it Flys out. \n\nSometimes I feel like I deserve the pain bec how terrible iam. \n\n\n\nSorry about my grammar I'm stupid I poke my pimples with a blood rusted needle and have no respect for my self.
I\031m 24 years old and have been aware of this issue for a few years now. In many social situations (perhaps even most of them) I exhibit the following symptoms to varying degrees:\n\n- Disorganized speech (Instead of going from point A to B then C, I go A > F > C > Z > B)\n- Using the wrong words in the wrong part of the sentence\n- Poor enunciation \n- Frequently stumbling on words\n- Excessive rambling and use of filler words\n- Speaking too quickly or too softly\n- Difficulty finding the right word or saying a sentence in the correct way\n- Losing track of my ideas and thoughts \n\nYet when I talk to my doctor, my family, my therapist, or a speech therapist about this&I speak completely fine. I\031m almost *too* charismatic and comfortable. When I go out on dates or hang with friends&I\031m mostly fine with the occasional slip up. Therefore nobody believes I have an issue, and I feel like I might be going crazy.\n\nMy speaking issues make me deeply afraid to start or engage in any conversation with most people, for fear of sounding like an idiot. But I feel like this isolation is making speaking worse. I don\031t know if my poor communication skills are causing my social anxiety, or the other way around. And it\031s seriously ruining my life, because I don\031t even know how to fix this or where to start. Or even what my fucking problem is. \n\nSome days I just want to off myself tbh, even though my life is objectively great outside of this. If I can\031t communicate my thoughts the way I want when I want, then what the hell is the point of anything? I have difficulties with organizing my speech and thoughts&but nobody believes me
I live a very sad and lonely life. I have had a series of really difficult events, some more traumatic than others. I don\031t have a single friend, and I am a senior in high school. My days are spent alone in my house, doing as much school work as I can (I do independent study) and waiting for my mom to get home. I occasionally work on commissions or personal art. \n\nI have been having \034wonderful\035 dreams, where I have a friend that clicks really well with me. Sometimes they\031re an old friend, sometimes I have never seen them.. Then I wake up. When I wake up I feel worse than I ever have in nightmares, no matter how intense the nightmare. Does anyone else feel this way? Good dreams are nightmares to me.
I\031m so unmotivated in life. If it wasn\031t for my parents I\031d be gone a long time ago. I\031m young and i\031m in university so I should have a lot to look forward to but I don\031t. I don\031t see the point in life, I don\031t want to marry don\031t want kids and nothing really brings me happiness anymore. I used to be such a happy kid I don\031t know what happened. Life is also soooo tiring. Because i\031m so unmotivated and because nothing really interests me going to classes and following a course just gives me more stress and during classes I just think if it\031s really worth it. My parents also put a lot of pressure on me and among other things stress me out. You\031re supposed to feel at rest when you\031re home but I don\031t (not that toxic but kinda toxic household). My personal goal in life is to make money and \034save\035 my parents from our current situation. I don\031t even want to spend the money I would make on myself (cause again nothing would bring me joy so why would I spend money on things) I go to uni for my parents but I can\031t even study at home and they make me feel underappreciated, I have 4 other siblings which in my opinion is a lot. I feel like i\031m just a robot and number in this household. I\031ve never been in a relationship because I have a hard time feeling any other emotion than anger and sorrow. Don\031t get me wrong the classes I follow do interest me but not enough (I took a gap year because I didn\031t know what I wanted to major in and this major was the only one that interested me a little). I just always think how it would be easier if I didn\031t exist anymore but I couldn\031t do that to my parents. I know my parents love me but I just wish they\031d understand me, and i\031ve tried to make them understand but they apparently can\031t (they\031re very old fashioned and don\031t believe in mental illness) this was kind of a rant post but please if you guys have any tips or advice let me know <3 i really need it. I feel like i\031m drowning and I don\031t see the point in life anymore
I\031m a 20M that lives far away from home. It\031s just become apparent that Im not going home for Christmas for the first time.\n\n2023 marks the first year I did not hear happy birthday in person on my bday. 20th bday wooooo=\xaa=\xaa=\xaa\n\n2023 also marks the first time i get stood up on a first date. \n\nMy nan got cancer too.\n\nAt least i benched 225 and my grades are solid\n\nI honestly don\031t know who to turn to and what i would be turning to them for. Im feeling a mix of anger, resentment, hopelessness, and exhaustion. I can\031t tell if i want to drink or run the pain away 2023 was definitely a year
There are two skin problems I am currently dealing with. One of them is manageable and hopefully on it's way out soon, the other I can likely do nothing or very little about at the time. These two things do a number on my self-esteem, and make me feel uneasy. I can't stand bright lights, and brightly lit rooms are even worse. The only way I can have a sense of comfort is by being in a dimly lit or dark room. I am constantly hooded when outside my home. I avoid eye contact and feel uneasy when people more than glance at me. I have been feeling this way for years now. My second problem that is usually a not very manageable condition, vitiligo, affects my hands, arms, and legs as well. So going outside without long pants and a hoodie at any time of the year is unthinkable for me. I am amazed at other people's ability to not feel like covering themselves 24/7. I can never feel at ease because of these two conditions I am currently suffering from. Bright lights and prolonged eye contact make me extremely uncomfortable
There\031s so many things going on in my head, and it\031s so hard for me to explain, because I have never in my life talked about these things to anyone. Since I was a kid, I was always shy and I feel like I missed out on a lot of things, for example relationships, there was a time where all my friends were getting into relationships and I never got into one, simply because I was young and stupid and couldn\031t comprehend that someone likes me. I always feel left out wherever I go and whatever I do, because im a quiet person and nobody ever cares what I have to say\n\nI feel so much pressure on myself, because I want to get rich, make money to support my family, but I feel so overwhelmed, I\031m only 20 and feel like im wasting my life away doing nothing all day. I have so many things I could be doing but I end up doing nothing and I hate myself for that. I\031m angry at myself for being the way that I am, can\031t get nothing done, I\031m shy and hate the way I look. All of this probably doesn\031t make sense, but I have to write it down since I have nobody to talk to.\n\nI have 3 assignments due in 3 weeks on a course I don\031t know anything about (im in 2nd year university), I cant even imagine myself working in this industry after I finish university. And it\031s so nice the fact that I\031m expected to know a lot about this subject, considering I am graduating in 2025, yet I barely know anything.\n\nOnly thing I enjoy these days is the gym\n\nI also asked out a girl a couple of months ago and got rejected, which is something I rarely do because, you guessed it, im shy, it\031s actually the first time I asked a girl out and yeah it kinda broke me when she said she doesn\031t like me, because me, being very stupid, waited a long time before telling her and in that time I fell more and more in love and yeah, but im trying to get over her.\n\nThere is so much more I can talk about but it\031s hard for me to formulate my thoughts, I wish I could be able to easily convey my thoughts into words, to make myself understood. \n\nThanks to whoever read this and apologies for not making sense just writing my thoughts My thoughts
I\031ve been in a trio in high school for seemingly forever of one other girl and one other guy. We always did stuff together and hung out outside school a lot. Recently they both told me that they had gotten together which was kinda a surprise, as while I expected the girl had a thing for the other guy I didn\031t realize it was mutual. They say that we can still be a trio and that we can still go out together and stuff but even so soon after getting together I can already feel distance growing between me and them. I\031ve told them both that they don\031t have to worry about me cause whoo really wants a third wheel anyway, and while they both swear up and down that it\031s not like that and that nothings changed I\031ve been in this situation with a different group before, and I lost connection with both of them. It\031s selfish of me, I should be happy for them but I wish it never happened. I just don\031t wanna get hurt again My two best friends started dating and I wish they hadn\031t
My ex caught the deepfakes I made with the ex colleague I liked and who I still find attractive. \nShe found them as she went through my pc, while I trusted her by giving her the password. And it\031s also not the first time as she already did the same with my phone and she thought I was cheating on her after she found some chats with this same ex colleague and other girls. \nI feel like I cheated on her anyway since I kept thing of other girls. \nI did like her, but never really loved her as much as she did, and she sensed it. \nI am so ashamed as my ex also sent the deepfakes to that my ex colleague.\nMy reputation & career could be ruined and I also recently lost my job as I was always late by procrastinating anything since the moment I opened my eyes in the morning. \nI feel like a monster and a disaster, and I feel so guilty about lying to her and myself. I can\031t really cope with these feelings and I really feel bad about it. \nSince the beginning of our relationship, I never felt really in love like she loved me, but I was still committed since I was afraid to hurt her and scared of being alone (did not seriously date anyone for 10 years before her).\nI feel like shit and my life is not going good, I\031m full of debts and I feel sad as I know could have done anything better, or maybe I didn\031t have the courage to say the truth to others and myself. \nI feel so guilty right now about ruining my life and others, and I feel like I don\031t wanna belong here anymore as I cannot control my worst self. \nDo you have any suggestions or thoughts? I need some advice since I feel like I\031ve never had control of my life and myself, despite a part of me knows I could do it and maybe restart everyone from the beginning with a new mindset. I really need to talk trough it since I\031m currently having very negative thoughts and having an hard time coping with all this situation. \nI feel there is something wrong with me and I need help, but I don\031t have any money to cover a professional therapy. My gf caught the deepfakes I created of a girl I know
I recently got prescribed Prozac and lithium for depression, anxiety and an eating disorder. I started taking them last week (5 days ago) and recently looked up people's experiences from withdrawal if they ever got off the drug. I'm not trying to have this stuff destroy my brain, do you think it would be safe for me to go off the meds since I'm not very far in to the process? Getting off Prozac
Like the title says Is it "odd" to address childhood trauma after 30 years?
I hate my birthday. I know I didn't always hate my birthday, there's photo evidence of that. Cousins pulling me on a new sled, or reading on a new Kindle curled up on the couch, or grinning at the camera while covered in chocolate frosting. So no, I didn't always hate my birthday. I think that started around the time Mom wasn't home for my birthday because she was in the hospital with Nana and Aunt G a state away because they were both dying of cancer, which we didn't know at the time.\n\nMaybe it was later still after I buried Grandma and Nana and Aunt G all within a few short months of my birthday. My birthday is so close to Christmas that everyone was too lost in their grief to worry too much about my birthday. After all, I was a grown-up kid. I didn't want to be a burden. re not to ask for too much, need too much, because I didn't want to be a burden. \n\nMaybe it was later still, after I buried Grandma and Nana and Aunt G all within a few short months of my birthday. My birthday is so close to Christmas that everyone was too lost in their grief to worry too much about my birthday. After all, I was a grown-up kid. I didn't want to be a burden. \n\nMaybe it wasn't a specific year. Maybe it was a collection of years of being given "birthdaychristmas" presents, one word, one gift for two holidays. It says, "We're supposed to get you a birthday gift and a Christmas present, but since the two days are in the same week, one is good enough. You don't matter enough for us to think of another present for you." \n\nThere's a lot of maybes. There's also a fair amount of becauses. I hate my birthday because I don't remember the last time I had a birthday party. I stopped asking for one, which moved into asking to not have one. I could tell they were relieved. It was easier to convince myself I didn't want to have a birthday than face the truth that no one cared. I made new friends at college and I told them I just don't like my birthday. It works because it's over Christmas break. They don't see me holed up in my room for days before, sobbing into my pillow. \n\nIt's because every year older I get, I realize how many things I won't have Grandma, Nana, Aunt G, or Papa there for. They weren't there for my high school graduation. They won't be there for my college graduation, my wedding, the birth of my children, or every year older I turn. They say it gets easier, but it's been 8 years and it isn't easier. \n\nIt's because so many people wish me happy birthday and act like they care, but they don't give a fuck about me the other 365 days a year. It's because I can barely keep my head above water 365 days a year and people pretend they care but they don't. \n\nIt's because I didn't think I would live this long and I have done nothing worthwhile with my life. \n\nIt's because in 8 hours, I turn 20 years old. I will no longer be a teenager and have to decide what I want to do for the rest of my life. In 8 hours, I turn 20 years old. My biggest plan for the day? Get an oil change. The rest? Not be a burden to my family. Keep myself together long enough to lock myself in my room the rest of the day with a faked illness. Not make my mom or dad sad, because at least I have parents. Cry, for the little girl who loved getting to eat her horse-decorated cake and ride her new sled. Cry, for the teenager who missed out on birthdays, making other plans and "forgetting" it was her birthday. Cry, for the adult who will hopefully find someone who will celebrate her birthday. \n\nIt's because I wish I was that little girl again, with her horsey cake and her new red sled. Excited to rip shiny paper off of fun toys. Happy to see family members who lived far away, but infinitely closer than they are now. High off of sugar, asleep in Papa's lap. \n\nMaybe I have always hated my birthday. Maybe the little girl with her horse cake was just as sad the horse looked like Spirit from the movie, and not her horsey at home. Maybe she wanted a blue sled instead of red. Maybe I won't always hate my birthday, but the tradition shall remain, for at least one more year. I hate my birthday
Why do I (we?) tend to make stupid, self-destructive decisions? \nI know my Vision. I know the man I want to be. I know what I have to do to realize this vision. \nWhy do I still choose short-term pleasure that is destroying me and my potential? How to prevent this? \n I hate my Life & I keep making dumb decisions.
At a certain point in my life during COVID I became a heavy drinker going through wine bottles like crazy every day, this gradually slowed down and I had a change of environment and just gotten out of a toxic relationship, I was also a heavy weed smoker at the time all this took place 2021, now my birth day came April 2022 and at the time I had only smoked weed once due to me experiencing dissociation, slowed brain processing, rumination, i developed an anxiety disorder and would have brain for majority of the time\n\nso for my birthday I decided that l'll do a couple xans and just relax with a mate since I couldn't touch alcohol or weed cause if the effects it'll have on instantly, the xans was chill no bad thing I could remember happened mentally that is, couple months later had a friends birth and at this point I was strict on myself to not drink or smoke weed and had been clean off those two for a while now.\n\nFriends birthday came and I had about half a pill left with me so I took that half everyone was drinking but me and another it came time for some shots and I decided I would one then one turned into many more it was a great night overall and the way I was feeling I though there wouldn't be any side effects the next, woke up no hangovers things seemed good but it wasn't tilli got to work that the brain fog dissociation kicked in and it took about two weeks for me to start feeling somewhat normal again, that was the last time l had "fun" and really enjoyed myself.\n\nFriends birthday came and I had about half a pill left with me so I took that half everyone was drinking but me and another it came time for some shots and I decided I would one then one turned into many more it was a great night overall and the way I was feeling ! though there wouldn't be any side effects the next, woke up no hangovers things seemed good but it wasn't till i got to work that the brain fog dissociation kicked in and it took about two weeks for me to start feeling somewhat normal again, that was the last time I had "fun" and really enjoyed myself.\n\nNow a year and and 8 months later I planning on doing one pill of Xanax cause I know what to expect mentally if there any side effects after l'm done l've booked a hotel for me and a couple of friends and the plan is to go clubbing, I would love to drink not a lot but at least 2 drinks something to feel a little buzz but l'm just worried if it'll have an instant effect on me. And my note I don't have an anxiety disorder that's why I feel like Xanax wouldn't be so bad and I can handle it I'm currently 22 years of age and I really want to have fun this New Year's Eve\nIf someone has an explanation as to why this happens or if I can do anything to prevent such effects please let me know\n\n\nP.s. I\031ve struggled with PTSD and other mental issues due to a toxic relationship and a messy childhood <\017Having trouble deciding on what I want to do please help<\017
I just always lack feelings even when my uncle died i didnt feel much is that normal, if not whats going on? I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease but i domt care?
I'm going to the doctor in a few days and I think I need to just be honest.. that being said I'm nervous of that happening so I'm just curious Has anyone ever been 5150'd? Can you share?
\nI feel guilty that I even feel so sad all the time. Others have much harder lives than me and I guess that\031s what has made it hard for me to accept I may need help from a therapist to talk out my feelings. From an outsider my life may look good but lately I\031ve been feeling bad all the time. I\031m usually so happy during the holiday season and I don\031t feel that at all this year which is depressing. Just a few things I\031ve noticed over the last few weeks:\n\n"less interest in being social \n"short temper\n"crying when I\031m usually not an emotional person\n"either trouble sleeping or sleeping all day \n"upset I don\031t have more friends \n"emptiness \n"constant headaches \n"really tired after a full night of sleep \n"no interest in romantic relationships currently \n"easily annoyed \n"feeling like my life isn\031t good enough \n\nThis has only been going on for a few weeks. I\031m very unfamiliar and truthfully uncomfortable with the idea of therapy. However I feel like it might be getting to that point where I need to talk to someone about my problems. I\031m reaching a point of big change in my life and I\031m worried that this needs to be resolved before then I\031ll be graduating college in a few months. Right now I feel like I just wake up and do what I\031m supposed to do then go to sleep and repeat everyday. I really don\031t feel any joy in what I do I really just feel numb. Any guidance would be appreciated because I\031m very unfamiliar in conversations around mental health. Why do I feel this way
My friend has been on a tumultuous journey over the past few years. It all began when he went through a painful breakup four years ago, discovering his girlfriend had been cheating on him. That blow set off a chain reaction. Over the subsequent three years, he gradually alluded to us about the inner turmoil caused by his family's dysfunctional dynamics and the mental health struggles of his siblings. This emotional turmoil reached its peak in 2022 when he withdrew from all social contact and isolated himself due to severe depression (we assume it was depression, as he never explicitly stated so).\r \n\r \nAround a year ago, we managed to reconnect with him, and he rejoined our friend group. However, in this time away, something shifted within him. He's become more sensitive, easily irritated, and oddly serious about things. Light-hearted jokes or playful teasing now seem to agitate him visibly. Moreover, he's started sharing rather unconventional beliefs, such as expressing a desire to become a "radical Christian" or discussing fringe internet content as if it were factual (e.g saying the 4chan shitpost "frazzled.rip" is a real video, or making statements like "humans never went to outer space"). What's more concerning is his increasing tendency to assert these beliefs as absolute truth and getting defensive if questioned or fact-checked.\r \n\r \nDespite these shifts, he's still keeping up with his daily life: working, dating, hitting the gym, and engaging socially. From the outside, he seems "normal," but as a close friend, I've noticed these changes that raise some concerns. Has anyone seen trauma make someone less "rational?"
I (22ftm) have a wonderful partner (21nb) who I love very much. However I've run into a problem which feels very silly but I can't let it go. As the title says I constantly feel a little bit inferior to them. We're both autistic and while I have some points in my IQ test that showed that I was slightly below average, they're suspected to be well above average. I know that IQ tests are kind off bullshit but I can't let it go. I had a hard time and high school and then spent 2.5 years trying to get my full grades so hearing about how smart they naturally are feels like an insult. \n\nNow, here's a slightly silly part. I enjoy playing mobile games, I have a lot or work and it's just a fun thing to do. Sometimes my partner downloads the same game and surpasses me in those game by a long shot. For example; I downloaded Pokemon GO again in October starting at level 27. I'm currently at level 29, but my partner who downloaded it about a week ago is already at level 24 (from a completely new account). It's a silly thing to get upset over but it's happened multiple times now and it makes the games be less fun for me. They also hyperfocus on the games and I think it interferes with their ability to do the housework they're supposed to do. \n\nI don't need to be the b3st at everything all the time but now I feel inferior and can't let it go. I apologise for any weird wordings, English is not my first language.\n\nTL;DR; I feel like my partner is superior to me and I feel awful about it. I feel inferior to my partner and I don't know what to do
I recently attended the US Army Airborne course thinking it would help me get rid of my fear of heights, but it only made it worse. I can\031t board a normal plane flight anymore without my body shaking, heart racing, breathing getting heavy, and miniature flashbacks to jumping. Even the thought of boarding an airplane now makes me really anxious. I recently flew from Georgia over to Virginia and on the flight, as the plane got higher and higher, the more intense my anxiety became and I had to try really hard to calm myself down. I\031ve never had a problem with flying up until now. Any veterans here ever had the same issue after attending Airborne? How do I stop my body from freaking out on a normal plane ride? It\031s almost as if my body is anticipating to jump even though I\031m not. Intense fear of flying after attending US Army Airborne school
This is a little.. I don't know. Rant? Story? It's about me figuring out that "Triggers" are real. Not sure if it would be interesting to any of you, but I figured it was an experience worth writing down.. so here it is, regardless.\n\n>This is going to sound a bit bad, but for a long time I really kind of bought into the idea that "Triggers" were something that more or less just.. weren't real. That or that they were what "oversensitive people called anything that made them upset" as my parents and other family members more or less told me. This rhetoric was brought up in the sort of disparaging conversations I would hear bashing the concepts of "safe spaces" and this proclamation that the newer generations were just emotionally fragile and the worst generations. Of course, I didn't believe that new generations were weak. "New generations" at the time being "my generation" of millenials, I learned quickly how out of touch and.. almost lacking empathy that so many in older generations were. I also never acted as though Triggers weren't real towards people.. and when someone brought up triggers, I accepted what they said but couldn't empathize with it. It felt like something they had told themselves in their depression.. like some invented additional suffering to me. I guess there was this part of me that was still influenced by it all these years later. Maybe because, of all my trauma, I hadn't really understood the experience of what I would now think of as a trigger in a very long time. (In large part because I moved away from all the reminders and repressed most of my childhood.) Well.. there are reasons you don't analyze yourself and believe it to be objective. \n> \n>So flash forward to last Thanksgiving. After 14 years of being a guardian to my father who lost who he was due to the strokes and had turned into someone full of misery and rage, someone else finally took over the guardianship for me. I had spent the previous 6 years so stressed and pained by who my dad had turned into that I was throwing up in the parkinglot of the facility my dad was in.. and on my way to visit my sister at her friends house, I had to drive past that facility. I felt the cold sweat and the numbness in my fingers as I drove by.. just like every time I visited him for years. My dad wasn't in that building, he was in another state. There was nothing there.. and even if he was in there, I wasn't going to go inside. There was nothing for me to panic about. \n> \n>Later that night I had mentioned how I was still getting nausea and sweats by just driving past the place to my sister and her friend. (Her friend is like family to us.) The friend was like, "I'm sorry the road to my house is so triggering." She was completely genuine when she said that and we just sort of laughed it off and I said, "It's ok!". It kind of hit me that she was right. The driving up and that feeling that hit my gut every time I saw that exit number. That feeling seeing the hallway to my dad's room. The way I felt my body go cold every time I heard a skype ringtone for the last decade. (My dad can't talk, so we use skype.) All of that.. Those were triggers. Suddenly, the word felt really appropriate. It reminds of of a quote for George Carson. "'Shell Shock!' Almost sounds like the guns themselves." It really is like someone presses a trigger and let loose a rush suffering I undoubtedly will feel for years. Just like it was that way for me for the first 10 years away from my childhood home. Of course triggers were real.. and of course I had them too, with all the things that have happened in my life.\n\nI'm not sure exactly why I wrote this. Maybe it will help someone else come to terms in some small way with the reality that they too can have triggers and that there isn't shame in it. Regardless.. I'm not sure how or if this will change anything for me. Maybe it will be one more thing though that reminds me that my feelings aren't as unique and unfixable as my depression and trauma say they are.\n\n&#x200B; Accepting that Triggers are real (From Someone who grew up being told they weren't)